thank God/ i didn’t get what i wanted

from where i stand it’s impossible for me to see what’s down the road awaiting me………so quite often i summarize and project and ask for things that i think will protect me from things that never happen…….. so thank God my remedies are set aside and i get what i…

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Ace in the hole

one thing………………..one big thing………………..that has never failed me…………….God………………my Ace in the hole…….. all the avenues are closed as far as i can see…….the walls are closing in and the world seems to be coming after me………throw my hands up and hit my knees……………God makes a way………….. the comfort and confidence…

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it won’t happen until you are ready/for P. and Stacy

G could drop a dump-truck full of gold at your door or rig the lottery for you…………….but until you are ready………..like giving a toothbrush to a cat………….wouldn’t know what to do with it…..the blessings aren’t contingent on God……they depend on you……….. G wants to shower the faithful with resources to…

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saints don’t choose their scenery

saints don’t choose their scenery…………they go where they are led…………….interesting that some of the most beautiful people i have encountered are in some of the direst circumstances……..doing what they were called to do………….help others………..workers in shelters…………..lay people in missions……….treatment centers……………youth clubs………………animal shelters………….. the beauty of a soul is exposed in…

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nothing vs. empty

i do believe i could sit on a bench with nothing in my hands…………….just the clothes on my back and a pair of glasses with a broken rim and feel the presence of my God and the Love He has for me……….and i would be okay, i know He would…

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when you’ve had enuf

when u have have enuf…………the help u need is near………………….when all remedies u have tried…………….disappear in the air………..when pride has worn u out and worn ur patience thin………………the answer that u need ………. ask God to come in……….. if u only knew how many have scoffed………until they tried it

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treasure chest

most of us are searching for this or that, what we think we want or need to get………………while walking by the ”treasure chest”…………………….God knows what we need and is happy to assist……………..but we refuse to use the key to open it……………….that key is the acknowledgment that He loves us and…

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to be clear

i write this clog to get in the way………..to be a speed bump and encourage others to slow down enough to feel the presence of God…………..forget debating………….i won’t go there……………waste of my time………..if you can look around at the wonder of nature and conceive that it just happened…………you are dead…

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i think of you/for dwatt

when life regurgitates pieces of the past that stir things up and remind me, the past is behind me, but it isn’t gone………..it still rears it ugly head and i have to accept that i am the one and only one responsible for it’s content……which basically centers around chaos and…

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always there

you can’t live there, you may visit every now and then……………..you can try and cover it but the light finds it’s way in………………….it may not be riding on your back but it will jab you every now and then…………..that old hitch-hiker…………the past………………sometimes a distant voice………….and sometimes a roaring lion……………..always there

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sense of purpose

i have seen a coward, turn into a warrior……….a thief transformed into an elder statesman………a drunkard, addict with the least concern for taking responsibility for the course of His life do a complete 360 and help many others find their way to sobriety……………and i am talking about me……. to find…

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God never hides

i believe God is everywhere and everything……..God is to big to hide………….a mountain wouldn’t conceal him………….God doesn’t hide………….He does His work silently……in our hearts

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hip….less

hip is……………………..hip is not like everyone else………hip is new…………and by the time people jump on the bandwagon…….it’s not hip…..it’s a trend…………………trends cannot be hip…………..they denote that the lemmings have fallen inline to join the masses………..the masses are never hip……….they are followers…… the only hip thing i have found that never…

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pick the right One

you don’t have to like things in life…………….but you better accept them if they are true……….you are going to serve somebody or something…………..you can rear up like a wild stallion in protest………..but you will be broken and i have the scars to prove it and if you continue fighting………you will…

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the lasso is ready

i have found a remarkable way to live and it was by changing my focus………………constant contact with God…………….the only culprit i must continually monitor is my raucous mind………delinquent entity as it is……. i stand ready, rope in hand, to lasso that critter and bring him back into the fold…………and often…

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the invisible line doesn’t exist

how many times have i heard the characterization of crossing the invisible line regarding behavior, addiction and thinking………..first indication of denial………..one may not be able to correctly identify an actual date and time………..understandable………………but anyone knows when they are driving in the ditch…….come on………………you saw the line……you just didn’t give a…

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phoenix

i would not have considered applying this term to me…………….but it is appropriate in regards to rising from the ashes to start a new life………………….i do not regret my past, though it was problematic…………..it was a vital part in dismantling a wayward soul and slowly replacing worn out parts and…

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no small acts of kindness

i saw a friend that had moved out of town and he called a few mutual friends to track me down…………i agreed to meet for lunch and before i sat down…………….words started bursting forth……………he explained that before he left his life and family where a mess and i had offered…

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one thread that ties everything together

imagine one, not several, one thread that unites everything meaningful in my life………there is one……God…………..my Mother says she prays without ceasing and i always smiled………until i understood what that means………. the thread……………….the underlying connector that keeps everything orderly and focused…….while i am maintaining my conscious contact with God………my other issues…

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the law of attraction

it an old tale, but i will give it a spin………….most of you will give up before you get in……….but that’s what separates the committed and the thin………..an inner ember that will not be extinguished…………….thoughts have power…….. is the first hurdle to cross……………weak minded souls easily are lost but a…

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knot / perspective

knot conjures in my mind a convoluted mess, cause for concern, twisted, tangled……..it also forms a picture of two loose ends being joined together, repairing a break……………..every word has several possible interpretations………..as with every situation……..choose the meaning that moves in a positive direction……………………it will effect the outcome………..words have power

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a good mechanic

unless you are a mechanic as a hobby…………..you better know one…………..because everyone needs one and you better have one who is ethical and you can trust or you are screwed…………………. so i am fortunate to have one and my cars are covered……………….that said…………….i need one, personally someone who can put…

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banker

at this stage in life, for that is what they are….stages….beginning/infant…..sapling/youth……journeyman/young adult…tradesman/middle age……………elder/oak……………………………i am an ”oak”…………………………..i try to live in awareness and consciously…………taking responsibility for what i do…….and what it does………. my personal achievements and my failures are in my bank………..there for my reference and to see them grow in…

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balance

the tightrope life stretches from beginning to end and the learning takes place when we fall…. as we travel along we become enthralled and forget to watch where we are going…….but the slips are necessary trips…….a time for adjustment and correction…… we again mount the wire continuing on until the…

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how to measure a man

one can assess the maturity and standards of a man by his willingness and courage to admit he is wrong…….. to stand and assume responsibility for his actions and the repercussions of those actions, by no means makes him saintly, just accountable…. i have been wrong about my role in…

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plenty of cracks

well,……………….Lord there are plenty of cracks in me where Your light and grace can shine through, perhaps i can be a prism of the many colors of You……………..and by my brokeness perhaps others can see that a life filled with You is a better life than filled with me. thank-you

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hope

if the time i spend connecting to God, my friend……..produced no results……….i would stop and look for another source to fill that spot in me……..that my soul reminds needs nurturing……………….but i get what i need when i simply reach out…. acknowledging a Power Greater than myself…………..my companion and confidant……….God……………..good to…

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put it in park

i chose a nice sunny spot………i had about 30 minutes according to the clock……………thought it would be good to meditate and stop……so i put it in park…………….i could still hear cars passing by…. but i closed my eyes and thought about the sky………………the sun filtered through the window and warmed…

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the path

i cannot see the path………me thinks it is near……i will expectantly wait for the clearing to appear………..my concrete connection to the God i serve, is making a way for me, i feel it in my bones……………i am not thinking how it should be or the signs along the way……..my past…

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time out

”time out” from the world i know…….to pause and reflect on what i know and what is working and what needs to go………….i place myself in ”time out”…………hard for me to get a good read when i am trying to satisfy others needs………if i am giving too much…..or am i…

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