After all these years

and all these tears

I finally received

the lesson and passed the test

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I kept being attracted

to women who weren’t

available

Naturally……makes sense

they are attractive

forget the many ways

beyond physical or practices

so why wouldn’t others be attracted

to them

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the focus here is “not available”

either in a relationship

Or much younger or older

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I literally have spent a lifetime

disrupting and intruding

in places I wasn’t wanted

So I made off handed attempts

thinly disguised as modest affection

when actually is was about desire

“Divine Love” has nothing to do with desire

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Divine Love….. doesn’t need acceptance

doesn’t need approval….. doesn’t require validation or participation

“ Divine Love” has nothing to do with sex

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Pushing an agenda of possession is not remotely about love …. It is desire

desire can accompany love but directed to those that are unavailable isn’t respectful therefore cannot be love

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so after all these years and lack of maturity…. I have been released from this caldron of deception and disruption

I can love whomever I want ….. because I can enjoy and admire them without insulting or barging into their lives

if I demand possession it isn’t love …. It is desire

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divine love is a step above carnal…… it is only productive….. not disruptive

to all my unwilling targets and teachers over the years ….. please forgive me

I was just a poor listener…… something I’m still working on

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I missed so many opportunities to nurture and accept those opportunities for “ divine love”

I just didn’t know better

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it feels pretty good to understand after all these years and pass this test ……. I always failed

🦍almost david🦍