finally……………abandoning all hope of having a better past……….accept my shortcomings and start to relax……………..i don’t feel the sinking sensation……………..and i begin to notice many things i have overlooked while struggling to stay ”afloat”…………………..

i am able to breathe as the waters of life rise around me…………..going with the flow has always scared me…….because i interpreted it as being swept away to places i had no intention of going to………….giving up control………………..only to realize i never had any, i just thought i did……………

now having discovered a divine order that orchestrates and gathers elements of life to maximize their usefulness and give them purpose……………..a person with a purpose is a beacon of hope and strength……….not of their own……

swimming in the stream of life is much easier when you aren’t constantly fighting the current ….my street in my head isn’t barricaded anymore………….rescue vehicles can get in and out and i am no longer shooting at those trying to help……………..the currents of life can be overwhelming at times………….changing from a gentle stream to an overpowering torrent………

time has allowed me differentiate between being carried and swept away……………it is in those latter times that i seek a safe harbor and give thanks for ”gills”…………….i never knew i had