now i lay me down to sleep, because i am tired of dealing with this creep……………and with him i share a bed……………but he is not having access to my head………..he is under suspension…………………….i am my worst enemy forging ahead with defensive  plans i’ve made based on false information…………….because i am afraid to ask for clarity, which requires maturity…………….something i am greatly lacking………..but it appears clear to me than i need to keep him under close scrutiny………….because he doesn’t have my best interests in mind, perhaps the hardest thing to accept………..he is the other side of me…………………suspended until further notice……………goodnight