Mawkish

the longer you spoke it was easy to see you have made the event into a tragedy/and those it was a hardship and had a high cost, the situation wasn’t hopeless and all was not lost……. you have taken an unfortunate incident and used it for a platform to garner…

Read More

defiant

didn’t brush my hair today, so i went about in disarray, i suppose just to say…………..i didn’t feel like brushing my hair today i suppose in an offhand way that i wasn’t concerned what you would say and you can keep your opinion to yourself today………..didn’t feel like brushing my…

Read More

hurts us too/ for Sundae

when you hurt you it hurts us too, we are part of the cord you are connected to/ when you came here we became part of you/so when you hurt you,it hurts us too…. so before you take that drink or drug, raise the bottle for one last slug, perhaps…

Read More

cenote

there is a beautiful spring inside of me, it’s source comes from my connection up above…….. it’s aquifers never run dry because i keep their channels clear…………… i receive their refreshing cool waters that keep my mind clean…………. for i must endeavor to scrub the thoughts i think because some…

Read More

skeptic

i see your eyes cut when i suggest prayer, and it would bother me but i’ve been there and i have but one response to doubt………..contempt prior to investigation……. you can shake your head and walk away, i remember those times and i remember those days…………..and brother all i have…

Read More

Ersatz

somethings either you have or your don’t. there are no substitutions, no imitations……..patience……..honesty, respect………commitment………integrity………spirituality…the list is infinite, but either you have them or you don’t, period. now you can attain them, but as for where you are right now, either you have them or you don’t. you can pretend but…

Read More

candle

i did not want to make the journey….. the terrain unfamiliar and the distance long…… but i gathered the bare essentials placed them in my backpack and tied a bedroll to the top…… a hat to keep the heat in and my walking stick and gloves…. as i walked the…

Read More

prisoner

brother what can i give you……..can i give you freedom………………..no can i give you wealth………………………………………….no can i give you hope……………………no, just encouragement i pray for you to be at peace……peace is more valuable than freedom this phase will end soon…………….not soon enough if you are smart you will take what…

Read More

connecting the dots

we all have dots……….things placed strategically in our paths that make us what we are, who we are and what we will be……………the shape takes form as we endeavor to connect those dots……………………recently i experienced a mental shift as a reaction to behavior that was unsettling to me……………the abundant need…

Read More

METANOIA

I drop the brick from my hand, deciding to change my plans, and after a God given reprieve, i drop to my knees why do i insist on doing this, trying to appease you when it is useless and i won’t accept the fact…………that you are this………..and i am that………….and…

Read More

going against myself

the battle no longer is with you, the struggle is with me, and as i have a mind to ask, is this action right for me……..asking the question is noble indeed but far from following through………….for asking the questions is only as good as my willingness to do. so all…

Read More

barter

i know there are things that are good for me, things my Lord likes me to do………….but lazy as i often am………..very little is all i do i know He watches over me and often shakes his head……..a defiant child still am i in spite of all He has done………

Read More

no longer a stranger to myself

seems an unusual statement to make but i bet i’m not the only one who was afraid…………..to look below the surface and question what made me tick on a regular basis if you aren’t examining your action’s and motivations then what are you doing, perfect or just totally self-consumed.………..i have…

Read More

basic is best

the longer i adventure i am clearly able to see……. the simpler i can keep things the better off i’ll be…… i am mesmerized by the simple working of a tool and how much can be accomplished, with a saw, hammer, nails and a rule….. while i can be impressed…

Read More

capitulation

there will be no coup, no conflict, no more prolonged engagements, those battles are over and the fields are strewn with the remnants of those encounters. some wounds received as a consequence are still healing. there is an abundance of evidence that left to my own devices i am self-destructive…………………do…

Read More

NOW

now is the only place to be/ past is past/ the future i cannot see so i think the best place for me……..is now now doesn’t pretend or deceive my head, i do that playing make believe, what i would prefer is a waste of time, because now is all…

Read More

David aka ”Gill”

i see you standing on the hill looking out over the land the Goliath that you face is coming close at hand i do not see you tremble and a smile adorns your face some would say a facade, not so in your case i see you carefully select the…

Read More

mine

”mine” as in ownership is a dangerous thing/ denotes we possess something that we aim to keep……..the problem with this thinking it restricts the flow of accepting and giving and letting things go everyone is different but many would agree things kept to myself quickly lose interest to me………for the…

Read More

BIGGGGGGG and small

the coolest thing about the GOD i know, He can be BIG, and yet He can be so small. when i have a daunting task at hand, i pray hard and i feel His large hands, and when i and tired and i need a friend, He sits on the…

Read More

tricks of the trade

only makes sense to share what we learn, so we should take turns sharing simple things we have found that make life easier as we walk this ground, we’ll just call them, ”tricks of the trade.” doesn’t really matter if you are old or young, we all feel better when…

Read More

just depends

what we see just depends on what we have programmed or rammed into our head/funny how we can look at the same thing and see it so differently/what if clear eyes saw each thing as it is………without the trappings of what the program says so if i am willing to…

Read More

duplicate

the man i wish to see when i look in the mirror………matches the man inside of me………… these men must reflect each other or there is conflict……………….. i have found that the man inside determines and constructs the outside man……………. i picture the man and his substance and i pray…

Read More

”it will be okay”

”it will be okay,” i heard you say and it made me kinda mad/ but we lived through it and i have to admit i remember what you said it was me and my attitude that had an ax to grind, but we did what we could do and everything…

Read More

room of many colors

that room at the end of the hall has taken on many hues and colors more than it’s painted walls would suggest……………..it serves to house quests and occasional strangers in need of a place to rest….. sometimes they are happy and sometimes their lives are a mess, and the room…

Read More

TOO MANY FRIENDS?

I bet this is something you would never take the time to inspect, but from my perspective it makes a lot of sense……………if you want a meaningful friendship then one would expect…………you will need to invest time no problem…… on that we probably can agree, but the issue we run…

Read More

spiritual diarrhea

you see, i have come to believe that everything that happens is a blessing to me when i need a reminder that my power is limited at best, i get experiences that remind me of this so as i am talking with a friend a bomb dropped from heaven into…

Read More

guillotine

these first thoughts of the day are causing me to be cross/ i care not for the subject and i want them to get lost……………….so i lay my head willing beneath the blade up above and when i let the rope go…………..the blade will lope it off. i see you…

Read More

heard what you said/ never spoke a word/ for sister Mary

i heard what you said, loud and clear, from the look on your face and the way you tossed your head.you never opened your mouth but your words covered the room, spoken by the fire in your eyes. i have to admit i never have received a clearer message since,…

Read More

something tta/ to think about/119

what one is willing to do to resolve a disagreement or conflict in a relationship is determined by the value one places on that relationship worth a lot……..give a lot/ not good for all……………let it go

Read More

to a point

i will bend and i will stretch to help you feel better about yourself, but just so you know………there are places and things…….. were i ain’t gonna go so please don’t read my willingness as a free pass to suit yourself, because if that’s the attitude you take…………………there will be…

Read More