one step closer

when i am compelled to do the right thing, because it is the right thing………and my motive isn’t to get something…….i am in alignment with my Creator………i cannot earn my way into Heaven,…………………..i can only get there by accepting Gods’ sacrifice and believing………..there is no point system nor ribbons or…

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u can count on me

i would not say that to anyone, because it means certain things to me……… there may come a time when we don’t see eye to eye, when we disagree and realize that’s the way it’s going to be……..but there is a quality in our friendship that is above opinion or…

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restricted

from lessons learned and tears formed, there are many places and thoughts i am restricted from………………and there is no authority demanding this from me, but a God who helps me to avoid……………………..the mountains valleys i have been rescued from………… i need not go there because i have learned, to look…

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assistant

i’m not the lead mechanic nor project manager in the field, have no authority to decide………. what needs to be revealed……………my function is an assistant doing what i am told…………early on i found it offensive but my prior results were nil…………….so i heard of an employer who always had positions…

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didn’t want to spend that much…..

i could have made it happen, to suit my insecurity, but when i thought about what it would cost……………..i didn’t want to spend that much….. a phone would have done it and i kinda liked the rush, but my better half reminded me……………i didn’t want to spend that much……………… there…

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how much are you willing to spend?

before you get to far in, have you considered how much you want to spend…….everything has a price and you should be aware of it before you roll the dice…………..sometimes it hits you in the pocket and sometimes in your mind and depending on the circumstance it might literally tie…

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blandishment

your flattery speech didn’t reach the audience as you had planned, because all the arrows shooting from your mouth were like a flock of geese flying overhead, dropping bombs as they passed over…..your flippant tongue has caused much harm for those not smart enough to see…………..you will do and say…

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peregrinate

each day i walk in this world, aware of the beauty and the issues that confront us each day………………….asking myself if i possess the wisdom and courage to balance my beliefs with my desire to be happy……………when issues confront me i must choose where i stand in respect to my…

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good a time as any to start

i don’t agree with what you continue to push on me, you have paid little attention to my beliefs or concerns…….it is more apparent to me then ever you are more concerned with what others think then what i think………………i don’t expect us to always agree but seems like the…

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autodidact:

i never believed a word you said, so i decided to find out for myself………and i wouldn’t say you were completely wrong, but the focus you tried to give to me, has long since gone……….i go by feel, i go by touch and i don’t rely on my mind as…

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waste of time

often i find myself contemplating the God i serve, pondering His actions and studying His Word, and though i find comfort and direction in this attempt to follow His ways………..there are things i will never understand and it is supposed to be this way………………….there are no other things that i…

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compassion meets reality

compassion walked down the road holding on to the arm of the man, in the distance a vague image appeared and reality was there, in a solid monotone the pitch neither high nor low, reality addressed compassion, ” this is as far as you can go…. there comes a time…

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your face speaks

your lips are closed but your face still speaks, the message is clear for all to see, and you could not have chosen words that could compete, your lips are closed but your face still speaks…. your arms are crossed as if to say, this isn’t supposed to be this…

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meritocracy…….about as likely as nirvana

a beautiful thought that that we could someday be living in a ”meritocracy”…..but the truth of the matter is all systems are flawed and ”pigs get ribbons and hero’s get flogged” and if we are looking for fair then we best relocate, because it isn’t here……………here is distortion, anger and…

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leave a little room for doubt……..

after you think you have figured it out, i suggest you leave a little room for doubt…….the best minds would agree, you never quite get it totally…so you may have enough information to go ahead, but leave a little room for adjustments as you go on…… you are here and…

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unconditional love…….

aspirations are ideals we aspire to achieve over time, but i have little faith i shall achieve unconditional love……except perhaps for God, and that may be pushing it………….perhaps one might best be equipped for such a feat at a distance, where the pain of misdirected acts lose some of their…

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you win…….and i didn’t lose

you win, because i defer to you, the things you said were far better than my excuse, so i capitulate and throw in the towel, but i may have learned a little, so i didn’t lose………..there are many ways to take things in your life, some don’t leave much room…

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work not finished/ for Gill and Steve

not ready to go, you continue on, facing each day with a plan and a song, the one you hum as you carry on…………..the body fades, but not the man…..the man has come to terms, that life can best be lived one day at a time, and a simple completion…

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deontology

my theory of ethics that establishes a code of right and wrong actions is under constant attack by my unguarded will…..and i am forever reminding myself that flexibility is admirable in certain situations but not in core beliefs……if one doesn’t have basic tenants that form the foundation of their behavior,…

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fraud

least you think i am unaware, i profess the knowledge we both share……that on my best of days………………….i am a fraud…i share with You what you already know that much of what i do is show and in the closets of my mind therein resides my darker side, with demonstrates…

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sometimes i forget

sometimes i forget how good God is at being God, sounds funny but it’s true……..my humanity endows me with certain fears and apprehensions, my faith helps me to deal with those doubts so that they are dismissed when i recall how Good God is at being God……thanks Pop

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love isn’t blind, on the contrary

love isn’t blind, that would be stupidity, and a smear against ”true” love. true love is quite aware of what one is and of what one isn’t and chooses to love anyway. to be able to separate the bad from the good and accept the truth and dare to love…

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taking out the trash

because of my lack of faith and fear, i accumulate things that are not worth their space, i must make and effort everyday to take out the trash……..to alleviate the things that do not give back, cause me stress and destroy my peace, those things often come in deceptive dress,…

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stew…..or work through

my emotions want me to stew, but my experience encourages me to work through and do something constructive with my time…………….while i am looking for someone to blame, that same time could be spent asking others if they have experienced a similar event and using their wisdom as my own……………i…

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personality: the enemy of spirituality

when i place me above all else i see, it prevents me from being part of, and if i resist being part of , how will i learn and grow……my encounters with thoughts and actions i detest will reinforce what i know, and will help me see that our individuality…

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”more” is not the answer…….except love

more is not the answer…………….more money, more time, more things………more, more, more……won’t bring you any closer to the peace and serenity we seek…………more is only an appropriate action in seeking a greater spiritual connection and in the giving of more love…..otherwise it is mere clutter ”more” is the enemy of…

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when i’m ready

when i have been equipped with the necessary tools and the wisdom from my Lord, then i will comprehend why things are happening as they should, for me to spend time wondering about things that make no sense to me, when i am ready my eyes and mind will open…

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the blessing of the fog

there are very few of us that are always sure where they trod, some may reach that plateau as their faith deepens in their walk with God……the rest of us are confronted with the never ending fog that requires our constant connection, holding hands with our Guide…….i have no illusions…

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we unfortunately don’t know……………we assume

so we don’t have all the pieces so we go with what we have….we fill in the spaces……with the things that we find…….problem with this approach we are driven by impatience and fear………what we end up is distorted projections, disconnected from reality. the fix for assumption goes against human nature…

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good enough….for God/for lee.p

i have a friend, a fledgling christian like me, measuring himself by a yardstick that keeps him bound to a feeling that he’s not good enough……….just like me. now he asked me if he could come over because he needed to vent and the funny thing about it, i really…

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