hardliner

you are going in for an operation, you notice as they are putting you under the instruments they are going to use to cut you open are rusty……..you are screwed…………you try to say wait a minute but it’s too late……………………….. same thing with the truth……………………you notice that the truth is…

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i burnt my hand…..many times

puzzling to me that i would repeat behavior that causes me pain…………….i suppose the consequences haven’t reached such levels to merit a change in behavior…….aka……..the pain hasn’t been great enough………………humbling…..but true the stove is hot….. fired by self-will run riot, and you have been warned to back off and let…

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today…….a good place to spend your time

sounds silly to hear someone say, the place you need to be……………. is in today………………but i have to be honest and often spend to much time pondering tomorrow and looking where i’m been………………so a reminder that living in today is the best place for me…….is something i need to hear…

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think we are smart?

my dog doesn’t give me grief if i forget to pickup his food….my dog doesn’t remember being hollered at this morning because he didn’t want to go out in the rain……………my dog doesn’t worry about politics, bank accounts or moles on his back……………hasn’t had a cold in years and can…

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vacation from myself…….prayer

occasionally life swallows me and i know from experience………………what to do…………i hit my knees and mumble a phase, ” God, i give up, i need you”…………………and it isn’t always right away depending on what needs to be learned………………but help does come……..this i have learned…………………when i need…………………… a vacation from myself

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the next right thing

the next right thing may not always make you happy……………but it won’t make you feel bad either……..the next right thing is hard to hide……like a child behind a curtain, their legs stick out……………….the next right thing often makes one uncomfortable, like sitting on a tack, until you act on it……………………..the…

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the problem with you……….is me

i want certain things for you…………because i care and treasure you……………but what i what and what you do is entirely up to you…………you have called me deceived and a relic of the past, but i believe in things that will last and when you called the ”word” absurd , that’s…

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dangerous promotion

it’s old,……. i’m new,…….. modern,things to do and i would be remiss to stake my future on this……….the ”word of God”…………… just ”old men ” and their point of view………. things have changed, why haven’t you……………..you are being old fashioned and this is new……………….far much easier to do………then to follow…

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i don’t do pretend

i have a core group of friends………….about 5 guys / girls on whom i can depend and they love me…………… and i love them………………because we care enough…………….not to pretend………… i don’t care for small talk, i would rather walk my dog and if you just need to hear the air…

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the lies we tell ourselves…………

oh it’s alright…….. she’s okay……… my son is just exploring……….. all right/ you are realizing that many people need to be avoided…………….you can’t fix yourself………..much less them………….quit saying they are troubled……….they are toxic……….and it rubs off…………….love them from a distance…………… she’s okay/she is delusional and would call a avalanche a…

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3 strikes….. but i’m in

i don’t write this blog for you or anyone else………i write it for me……………and hope some other wayward soul can relate………….selfish………i don’t think so……….necessary…………….. in today’s society i have 3 strikes against me……. i’m white, i’m a male and i’m a Christian……………1/i don’t feel bad because i was born, reddish…

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the God of Misunderstanding

the God of my understanding wouldn’t be much of a God………………how capable is a human of being able to comprehend or envision God……………….extremely limited, and it limits God who is unlimited…………..naw that doesn’t work for me anymore…………what works better for me is He is the God of all…………………………….i won’t try…

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Jesus wasn’t just a good guy

i’m laughing/ Jesus wasn’t just a good guy, He was the son of God…..i know that has a tendency to trip you up…….. with you desire to only believe in the feel good God…………..my God is a very good counselor, confidant, caretaker and fighter…………that’s right fighter…..He will fight for what’s…

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defiant/ for mirajen

the only reason i can see, is i have the same quality……………..and if something requires a lot from me…………..i become defiant……………..now i am much more vocal and loud…………something that would make my brothers proud.……………but turns most people away…………………the path i was shown came with a plan…………..i found it difficult at…

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meet you in the middle/for mirajen

me thinks that G had a reason to help us see some things in a different light………….the hue you chose is different from mine………….not suggesting one is wrong and one is right…….. i cannot cling to anything so tight that it cannot breathe……….anything worth following can take a punch and…

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where are you going to put that

you may want to give it some thought…….. to where you put that thought……………..is it going to be and asset or make you sound like an ass………if it doesn’t help anyone, or if it isn’t kind and considerate…………..do yourself and everyone else a favor and put it in the trash……..travel…

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God of New Beginnings

God picked me up this morning after a phone call from His assistant, Berna……… saying pickup would occur around 8am…………..this old green truck pulled up and honked the horn…………i walked out an a guy that looked like W.C. Fields smoking a cigar , motioned for me to get in……………..He said…………”what…

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black dogs matter

when we can get to a place where the color of our skin……………..is far less important then what we believe in………………………….we will be free………………….and live in harmony………………….ttucro black dogs matter, white dogs matter, red dogs matter and blue dogs matter……………..all are dogs of color and all are different breeds………………..but one…

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onehastobesomewhere……………………togetsomewhere

you have to start somewhere………………..and we don’t pick the spot…………………..we get to the realization there are many things we have dropped………………………….so we can’t go back and get them………………………but we can pause……………..and stop…………………inventory whom we are………………..and whom we are not……………so rather then condemn myself for not being all i should………………….you have…

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the mirror doesn’t lie………….but i do/PINOCCHIO

the mirror doesn’t lie, when i look me in the eye…………………..but i do…………locked in this distorted head are misconceptions i have fed…………………….that nibble on me constantly…………………….these intricate structures i have built will take years of intense scrutiny to demolish and deconstruct …………….and my goal at present is to build no…

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derivative

looking back i think i can see……………..i have been formed and shaped by things that have confronted me…………………and as i take stock of what i am…………..and what i am not…………..my experiences are revisited like a leopard inspects his spots………….i have given up the descriptions of good and bad……………..happy, challenging, troubling…

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vocabulary

i have determined it is better to have command of a smaller vocabulary, then to let my vocabulary control me………………..better to be simple and clear than to offer colorful words that merely fill the air……….have never heard a complaint from a straightforward message conveyed…………………………….but after a wordy, detailed oration was…

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seated are the wise

i look into your faces and i see a slow turning reel………………reflecting on the day in progress and what it has in store……………………neither hesitating or pressing to enter in……………….taking the time to reflect on where, you have already been…………..i see the wisdom in taking time as opposed to time taking…

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Squirrel……………….for VickyH

I have a friend that is anomaly because she is a surprise to me……………..i know of but a few that approach life with near the same enthusiasm or irreverence…………engaging, playful, attentive…………….ready to pounce on any kernel of information that peaks her interest……………………….a walking pinata that if you tap will explode…

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limited/ for Gary P.

i would like to comfort you and fill that space you lost………………but i am just an old friend and i’m not capable of that……………………i know you have a faith, and i know you question the point…………………..of losing that one person who got who you are………….a few words of sympathy and…

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like teaching my dogs to play chess

i saw  Buddha on a scooter and he stopped and we had a chat…………….he said, ”i’m really not that smart…….. i’m just good at recognizing where i’m at……………. appreciating what is………. instead of what i project……..hop on i’ll show you what i mean……” so i hopped on board…….. what a…

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wouldn’t have much to say

take away my fears and complaints………………..i wouldn’t have a lot to say……..when the judgment and lies stop and i accept that all of us are lacking in spots………..i wouldn’t have a lot to say………..let me afford you,…………the same understanding and grace i expect from you…………….i wouldn’t have a lot to…

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my perception/risible

i must admit…………i laugh a bit when i inspect my perception……………………given just a bit of time…………………i am apt to remind………………….myself of what a jaded view i have of the world……………so my best bet is to refrain before i interject logic as flimsy as the mind that generates it………………………i am aware…

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nature doesn’t ask

nature doesn’t ask questions……………….it just does what it needs to do……………….and i have to admit that’s something………………that i should do……………….when the obvious is before me what an insane waste of time, for me to question why things are the way they are instead of doing what is required………………………..how many needless…

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wish i could forget you……..but i can’t / for d.watts

i wish i could forget you…………………..but i can’t ………………………………….i wish i could forget the bars and wire and clanging doors, the long faces and wet eyes…………..but i can’t……………………i wish i could forget how leaving…………… brings back all the memories……….. how i placed myself in prison…………………………..how i struggled to hide as…

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