no small acts of kindness

i saw a friend that had moved out of town and he called a few mutual friends to track me down…………i agreed to meet for lunch and before i sat down…………….words started bursting forth……………he explained that before he left his life and family where a mess and i had offered…

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one thread that ties everything together

imagine one, not several, one thread that unites everything meaningful in my life………there is one……God…………..my Mother says she prays without ceasing and i always smiled………until i understood what that means………. the thread……………….the underlying connector that keeps everything orderly and focused…….while i am maintaining my conscious contact with God………my other issues…

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the law of attraction

it an old tale, but i will give it a spin………….most of you will give up before you get in……….but that’s what separates the committed and the thin………..an inner ember that will not be extinguished…………….thoughts have power…….. is the first hurdle to cross……………weak minded souls easily are lost but a…

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knot / perspective

knot conjures in my mind a convoluted mess, cause for concern, twisted, tangled……..it also forms a picture of two loose ends being joined together, repairing a break……………..every word has several possible interpretations………..as with every situation……..choose the meaning that moves in a positive direction……………………it will effect the outcome………..words have power

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a good mechanic

unless you are a mechanic as a hobby…………..you better know one…………..because everyone needs one and you better have one who is ethical and you can trust or you are screwed…………………. so i am fortunate to have one and my cars are covered……………….that said…………….i need one, personally someone who can put…

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banker

at this stage in life, for that is what they are….stages….beginning/infant…..sapling/youth……journeyman/young adult…tradesman/middle age……………elder/oak……………………………i am an ”oak”…………………………..i try to live in awareness and consciously…………taking responsibility for what i do…….and what it does………. my personal achievements and my failures are in my bank………..there for my reference and to see them grow in…

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balance

the tightrope life stretches from beginning to end and the learning takes place when we fall…. as we travel along we become enthralled and forget to watch where we are going…….but the slips are necessary trips…….a time for adjustment and correction…… we again mount the wire continuing on until the…

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how to measure a man

one can assess the maturity and standards of a man by his willingness and courage to admit he is wrong…….. to stand and assume responsibility for his actions and the repercussions of those actions, by no means makes him saintly, just accountable…. i have been wrong about my role in…

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plenty of cracks

well,……………….Lord there are plenty of cracks in me where Your light and grace can shine through, perhaps i can be a prism of the many colors of You……………..and by my brokeness perhaps others can see that a life filled with You is a better life than filled with me. thank-you

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hope

if the time i spend connecting to God, my friend……..produced no results……….i would stop and look for another source to fill that spot in me……..that my soul reminds needs nurturing……………….but i get what i need when i simply reach out…. acknowledging a Power Greater than myself…………..my companion and confidant……….God……………..good to…

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put it in park

i chose a nice sunny spot………i had about 30 minutes according to the clock……………thought it would be good to meditate and stop……so i put it in park…………….i could still hear cars passing by…. but i closed my eyes and thought about the sky………………the sun filtered through the window and warmed…

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the path

i cannot see the path………me thinks it is near……i will expectantly wait for the clearing to appear………..my concrete connection to the God i serve, is making a way for me, i feel it in my bones……………i am not thinking how it should be or the signs along the way……..my past…

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time out

”time out” from the world i know…….to pause and reflect on what i know and what is working and what needs to go………….i place myself in ”time out”…………hard for me to get a good read when i am trying to satisfy others needs………if i am giving too much…..or am i…

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fishing in the dark

i chuckle when this image was in my head, about how You lead me and how i am spiritually fed and i liken the absence of You,….. like me fishing in the dark…….. i smell the water and know it’s near, then i trip and fall and lose my gear…….i…

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slow leak

maybe this is a good analogy, maybe not……………when we are born we get our training wheels and they take us to our first tires, as we grow we get bigger and better tires to keep us going, and finally when we reach a certain place in our life……….we graduate to…

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assassin

there is an assassin waiting behind that tree, hmm……he sort of looks like me………..as i go about the activities of the day, i sometimes feel he is aiming at me……………waiting for the time when he isn’t blocked, no one is in the way and he has a clear shot…………sometimes it…

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the only failure is not to try

how many good things have happened in your life not because your were successful, but because you were willing to try…………………….. i can think of many personally………………i set my sights perhaps a little too high or unrealistically and for whatever reasons settled for better than i was…………..because i was willing…

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it may take awhile

sometimes it is better to admit it may take awhile…………………………it may take awhile doesn’t take me off the hook,………………it means i know this is something i need to do, and i am willing to work towards……………..but old habits die hard……………….breaking the habit of repetitive response can only be broken with…

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to bad we can’t decriminalize stupidity

no anatasha/ who invades my internet/ i am not interested in meeting you in Russia/ i don’t think the feds would look the other way if i tried to order dope over the internet/p.s. i don’t dope/that’s a very good price, perhaps i should be skeptical……………..if it sounds to good…

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the beauty of perception

i am under the tarmac,………have been for 3 days……………………….but i have decided to enjoy my downturn as it affords me to view things in a different light…………………fact/ i am under the tarmac……fact 2/ this time, these moments are happening and passing………………..i have a choice to endure /or accept and learn……i…

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can’t hurt a fool

now it goes to say retaliation doesn’t work, forgiveness is a better way,………but a fool will stir in you the need to reply……………you are wasting your time an energy and here is why…. a fool knows all……..sees all……and hears all…………..in their mind,……which we know to be false……..the information we receive…

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empty

empty isn’t that bad of a place to be……..opens the door to possibilities…………………better than being so full that i cannot see…….empty isn’t that bad of a place to be…………………..not sad or remorseful…………….hopeful and resourceful i recognize the scenery, having been here before…………….so i have cleaned out the shed……waiting to be…

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stopped walking backwards

for awhile it was a game for me to look back at all the chaos i had made, but i kept tripping with multiple head injuries……………………so i made a decision to pay attention to what was in front of me……………at first i was amazed because little changed i was still…

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new age= instant potatoes

thinking what you think……… and seeing what you think are miles apart……………when i see what i think on paper it takes the cosmic to concrete…..and that’s a helluva leap human nature has a hard time accepting steadfast fundamentals……………..in most of our minds all things must change……..but they don’t…………………………… the concepts…

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somebody has it worse

i know you don’t want to hear it, and now may not be the time………………..but i think a lot of you and i will tell you what’s on my mind……..i’m not suggesting that you aren’t going through difficult times…………but sometimes it’s hard to have the correct perspective when the squirrels…

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waste of time

waste of time to try and change someones’ mind………….. that happens with experience……..what they see may be entirely different then me……depends what is behind their eyes…….i will fight tooth and nail for you to have your say, but that doesn’t mean i will agree with you…….i will push the naysayers…

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lesson of the rubber band

often it is to my benefit to feel uncomfortable and stretch a bit………..but there is a limit and i will quit……….. if it is beyond my core beliefs……….the rubber-band i wear on my hand is a reminder of two things………it is good to expand a bit but there is a…

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one…….and i win

that one would read and identify…….to some passing thought or an alibi……….stop to reflect and then move on………………in this feeble mind, i will have won…………….to strike a cord or build a bridge, cause a fall or stop a skid, remind someone of the need to forgive……in my mind i have…

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5 dollar King

perception is a powerful thing, where under certain circumstances 5 dollars can make me feel like a king……….a baked chicken brought home from the store shared with 2 old mutts that i adore…………………doesn’t take much in the right place in the right frame of mind………to turn ordinary….into extraordinary …………………so it…

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trends

i snicker at them, the follower of trends, like lemmings being led to the sea……………..the funniest of things to see people doing and wearing things that would not work for me………now i have no problem with non-conformity…………..but change for the sake of change is for the deranged…………if it has no…

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