drowning in myself
i can’t breathe and the walls are closing in……..i see the sky above the water………but i don’t have the will to swim…..i feel myself falling and it never seems to end……..drowning…….drowning in myself……… i see images coming near me, dear and lost friends…….the ones that are gone call me to…
Read Moredid you think it all the way through
”did you think it all the way through”…………………..i didn’t wait for a response…….i motioned to the bench and sat down by you…….i could see you were in a stitch………somehow your emotions got the best of you and you were embarrassed and wasn’t much to do……..but ride it out………. i offered…
Read Morebookmarks for your heart/for C
much as we would like to say ”every day is a holiday” our mental frame gets in the way….most days end up being ”okay”………….. but we have those days that stick out in our mind and those are the days that gradually define the person we turn out to be…….…
Read Moremy back pages
stumbling through some notebooks of acts that never made it to the show………i am confronted with the realization……….it foretold where i would go……………i was so absorbed in capturing the feeling at the time, i was captured by the feeling……… the picture that they painted never crossed my mind……… time tinkers…
Read Moreuntil
until you finished what you started ………………everything else will be a waste of time……..you may feel that what you are doing in the end won’t amount to a dime…..but because you persevered that experience will take you to a place few will ever know…….because you kept your commitment………..when you finish………it…
Read Moredon’t count me out
don’t count me out just because you don’t see a way………i was walking with them when they crossed the Red Sea……………….. things people said couldn’t happen…………..happened to me…….. don’t count me out the trick about overcoming things of great odds………….forget having a plan…………..you go with the tide……………because you want it………….isn’t…
Read Moreember
dosed the fire with water until the area around it was muddy…………..and i watched…. from the ashes a tiny plume of smoke emerged and i investigated…………….uncovering an ember that had managed to keep it’s fire alive…… not sure why, but i was almost knocked backward……and i managed to fall into…
Read MoreWhere Poet’s Walk ….continued
poet’s always walk through puddles and long for railroad tracks……..blustery windy mornings and rain on their back, camouflaged sunsets and moons that seem to smile, poet’s love the sounds of night when nature starts to prowl…… poet’s love animals because they do not exclude people from their love………….birds in trees…
Read Morethe Good Father
the good Father listens to every word and then asks if the child is through…….then replies ”I heard what you said, now this is what we are going to do”……………….. i know i give God a giggle and a charge when He witnesses the antics in which i engage……when i…
Read Moreavalanche
the conditions were right on the mountain the temperatures where beginning to rise…………and i clearly heard the warnings but the mountain beckoned me to ride…………….i went to the top of the mountain, a small shovel strapped to my pack……………and as i quickly descended…………the mountain began to talk back……..soon it became…
Read Moregambler’s creed
ONE SHOULD NEVER GAMBLE WITH THINGS ONE IS NOT PREPARED TO LOSE ttucro
Read Moreno vaccines
no vaccines to ward off the infections of one’s heart………..try as you may to be on guard…………..the guard doses off and then they charge………….so the clamor of someone scaling the fence, stirs his senses………but it’s to late………………….invaded infected with no know antidote………….except time
Read Morehard pills to swallow
wouldn’t be much of a life if we weren’t faced with situations that made us think twice…………………a good dilemma every once in awhile keeps life interesting, uncomfortable and real……….. all these things laid out in a row………..would get pretty boring after awhile…………..so a trial every now and then is how…
Read Moreenough
sometimes we don’t get what we want………………..but we get enough………….to keep us moving forward……………………. i naturally am not inclined to parameters that suggest moderation………..eat the cake…..roll the dice………..stand on the edge…….but i have memories and vivid events that reinforce the findings , ”yo bro…..not a good way to go..” glutton…
Read Morelust for life
this lust for life is under my skin……..goes down deep……..far within……………i am in control of what i see……..there is no end to the wonders ahead of me…….. lust for life…………….bring it on
Read MoreRunning to Babylon
we are running to Babylon, come on and join in……….abandoning outdated morals as fast as we can……….giving little thought about how this will end………….hurry, hurry we’re running to Babylon……… we have decided we want all we can get out of this life………..this talk of hereafter seems a long way away………..we…
Read Morehousecleaning #1,326
i caught myself in a ditch when i offered an opinion with no knowledge of it…….made me laugh, weak in the knees and i was quick to offer an apology……. then it occurred to me that i have been practicing this behavior for some time and it made me wonder…
Read Moreonly in a Poet’s mind
how could something that never started……….never end……that could only be rendered in the mind of a poet……. the feelings of a Poet never change………………just the way he responds to them…………i wear my heart on my face…….there are times when i despise my gift………..because it requires me to be vulnerable and…
Read Morea little deeper
i suppose i am learning new things…………….but i wager that much is from further inspection as what i have already experienced………. i lived many years with the notion that a well lived life was filled with as many different experiences as possible………………constantly running from one thing to the next………………can’t say…
Read Morethe man behind the mask
the man behind the mask is always facing a test……..to legitimize this game of pretend……..because he’s afraid you will recognize the charade and cause the game to end………….. the thought that all the walls will come down is something he is not prepared to comprehend…….. so he goes to great…
Read Morea new word
i discovered a new word although i’ve heard it many times before………perhaps i’m at a place where the meaning has taken on more…….of consideration and practice in my life and it is not necessarily liked…………..about as much as doing what i know to be right….. it’s interesting how you come…
Read Moreit’s still there
that splinter that lodged in my soul……….i have made no attempt to pull it out…………for it is lodged so deep within……it will be some time before it works it’s way out…… but i have come to appreciate the discomfort and the pain…….for it is a constant reminder of something larger…
Read Morei heard your song
i heard your song and it lingered on after the you flew away………………it stuck in my head and i repeated the melody over and over again…………. i longed to hear that song and it became obvious to me………….i would blessed to hear it again but that would not be up…
Read Morei’d rather do it myself
not something i look forward to ……………but i’d rather do it, then hear it from you………i don’t like it but it’s easier to digest…………..coming from me than someone else admitting i am wrong let’s get past different points of view that’s not what we are getting to…………..what the topic is,…
Read Morejump start
the battery wasn’t dead………but it needed a charge……………so God arranged a ”jump start”….. i look back and marvel how a few minutes changed the trajectory of my life………… the amazing thing about life you get many opportunities to get it right and if you are in the right frame of…
Read MoreLIKE IT SUPPOSED TO BE
As i’m getting older i look back at the tracks i’ve made, i often chastise myself for the mistakes i have made…….i start going down and then a voice comes to me: ”it wasn’t wasted time, it just had to be…….you were preparing for what was ahead of thee….” so…
Read MoreGod Speaks
i hear God speaking in the chirping bird………..as He stirs the leaves on the trees and in the water is the brook as it rushes pass me…………..i am aware of His presence when i am quiet and still…………it is then he comes in love, with correction, guidance and care…….. i…
Read Moreoutfitted for the journey
i know now where this path will lead…….with it’s cutbacks and it turns………….but i have been outfitted to handle whatever trials may come………….i march on with confidence with gratitude for what i have learned…………outfitted appropriately for my journey to the Son……. when i began this journey, i must confess, it…
Read Moreantidote
the is only antidote for love…………torn, troubled,abused,misused,jumbled and tumbled……………. that is love there is no repair for a fractured relationship without love…..lots of it……….as much as you douse your popcorn at the theater…………….but it is better dribbled slowly or it will be received as a flood….. love can hurt, but…
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