inveigled by a swindler

the rose peddled words drooled from your lips and many a fool would have bought into it…………………..a handshake and smile would have sufficed and the longer you talked the more my instincts spiked………………………. not many accolades for being educated on the street…………..but there ain’t many lessons learned that you won’…

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no return

you will never get back to square one………….best to forgive,if you can,and move on…………………………..partners, family and friends…….can never start over again………………you will never get back to square one……… we would like to delude ourselves into thinking…….we can wipe the slate clean………………….and when you look again those stains remain……………..you never start…

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thelittlethings

it’s the little things that makes us unique the things that one must examine closely if they will ever get a peak inside our heads and what makes us tick…….it’s the little things…. the obvious things are thinly veiled attempts to get attention they say ”i’m not enough, so notice…

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disconnected

it seems to be a strange anomaly between what your lips say and what your body says……………………………………………….. that disconnect has you stretched and it’s like watching a real life ”Gumby”………………..very disconcerting to watch……like Joe Cocker teaching a Sunday School Class……………………… when your separate the emotions attached to a person and…

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to obvious not to see

i am amazed and it bothers me how people roll over issues that are too plain to see…………………… they use the excuse it will be okay……………..only to find them later….. sitting in their car with a gun by their side……………wondering what it would be like on the other side never…

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i miss me too

i miss me too, when i try to be what you want me to be when in reality if you can accept me for me……………….how do you expect me to accept you so it has become apparent to me you weren’t looking for a friend you wanted someone you could…

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i stole the knife/ for enzem/ex cutter

i stole the knife you used to cut little pieces of yourself ……..they were given out like souvenirs…………………….i never understood it why you thought so little of yourself……………………from the outside you were always beautiful and you have held up very well…………by i saw something that made me pause as if…

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God of yesterday, today and tomorrow……….yep

as i have come to see the meaning of the time You have afforded me……………………i have been placed here for a reason………………. to proclaim your name………. how i live………….how i help and care……… for others who may be seeking, unaware You are already here……. You called my name many times…

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humble pie

i suppose there are as many recipes as there are colors under the sun………………………………………………. i have come to a place where i prefer my own……………………….. it has become a part of the things i regularly consume…………….because left on my own i am prone to slowly rise above…………….and then i see…

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cinderella

cinderella …………………………..forgot her……………………..umbrella………… the rain was pouring down…………………………she slipped and feel……………………………………………… it was revealed………………………………where………………………………..she …………..kept her……………………………………crown……………………………? if applicable………………………………………you’ll figure it out……………………. ding dong the…………………………………………………………………………………… the peasants are revolting

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window

don’t be the curtain in your window……………let the light of God pass through……..illuminating those that come and pause at your window to view………………………they will come,if your window is clear and the message has the ring of truth……….that message will flow from your lips if you remain quiet…….and let the Father…

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if you don’t want to/ for Stan

if you don’t want to………….you don’t have to drink tonite….. cuss out your friend or end up in a fight…..you don’t have to drink tonite……………………………. you don’t have to pretend that everything is alright……………and a few drinks won’t continue to the wee hours of the night……….Stan old buddy if you…

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what i can give to U

what i can give to U is the respect that U deserve………….. for all the times known and unknown U have protected me from myself……… what i can give to U is what you have asked of me……….to go and share the story of Your sacrifice and love…………………….. i must…

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i know He’s there/for car lotz

can’t see Him, but i know He’s there, walking with me and stroking my hair……………………just like a Father He shows me He cares, i can’t see Him but i know He’s there……………………… many times my thoughts drift away…………….. they land at the feet of my Savior, He says..” my son…

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still coming down

i spent 30 years in the trenches…… fighting this war with myself……and it continues…………….. i am humbled and baffled to find myself a good ways from the clearing………………….i can see it…………but i’m not there still coming down…………….. i have moments when i feel my feet are close to touching only…

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hoping……….you would get over yourself

being around you doesn’t take long to see……..in your mind your life has been a tragedy………………and if you don’t pick up on it……..you will make it clear……………………… hardships are part of life…….you live…………you get twisted……..it hurts…………..you do something about it……………heal………………and go on………………..you never went through that process……………. get over it……………………time…

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air raid

we’ve been circling this target for years….. waiting for orders to drop our load……. we constantly are refueling to return to the same old thing…… round and round we continue waiting for a sign…………only to hear a muffled voice ………….”the treaty is being negotiated continue holding………………we appreciate your patience”…………………..as we…

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one thousand lies

one thousand lies started out as one………………then another followed to cover the first one…………….and that went on and on, ten years later………………………….. the thousandth one hard to imagine someone looking you in the face and swearing it was you who had make a big mistake………………….the nerve of you to say…

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w.w.b.d./what would Ben do

my dear old sponsor………….my dear old friend……………….i know one day i will see you again………………..it will be good to hear you call my name………………………you won’t have to worry………about hearing my complaints…………… Old God surely knew where i was headed and you had already been through…………you helped me so much…………and you…

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retired pugalist

i look at my old gloves as they hang on the wall……. since i stopped fighting i don’t need them anymore…. when i realize the battle was within……………my opponents disappeared……… and i was the only one in the ring…… since i took my gloves off…………….i have had a change of…

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i write because i don’t drink/ for me

sometimes in the dead of night those strangers come sit by my bed when i awake they stare at me, wink and stroke their beards they play a game of cards and the stakes are quite high they offer me a drink and i say ”no thank-you, goodbye”…………….. i rouse…

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possession isn’t love

ownership is appropriate with regards to homes, cars, boats, pets, books, pictures, furniture…….etc………… but not people…………………………. if we view partners as objects………..even objects we care for, look after and value…………….we are misconstruding a basic premise of love………………….voluntary consideration and respect for another not out of duty……….out of love a mentor…………………….i…

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feral/escape from domestication

have always resisted the coersion to comply felt it stunted my growth and i am glad that i figured out a way to survive……….without any intention of joining your tribe…………… i choose my friends carefully and will share what i find………….but if they show signs of control i may change…

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life/2 sided coin

from early on, best to accept……….when things are going well your life is about to flip……………….picture in your mind all the good things are in line……………they are marching to the edge…………to mingle and jingle and tell everyone how good it is…………a little moderation goes a long way……………….and then it flips……………

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glad You know

glad it’s not up to me, glad it’s up to You i can see the storm is coming and all these animals are in the zoo i’m glad You never give us more than You can handle…………until i remember that i stay confused i can see the storm is coming,…

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picking scabs

no one talks about it………………like so many things but we all do it as gross as it seems…………..to hurry the process and get back to normal again………………..but we cant wait for the process to end…………we begin picking scabs and the process begins again and again……. now on this i think…

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older brother aka guardian/4 beno

my older brother is nicer than me, kinder than me, and smarter than me and i suppose that’s the way it’s supposed to be so he can be an older brother……………… my older brother takes care of my Mom………………because he has the patience and he has the love and because…

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obituary

pause for a moment to reflect what you hope people remember about you honestly there are only a few people that i care to be remembered by………………if there is more fine……………..doesn’t matter those people know………………..because i tell them…………..i show them……………i spend time with them…………….i share with them and they share…

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outside their back door

i tried to talk to you but you wouldn’t listen, so i thought i’d write you a song/maybe you’ll hear it and stop and ponder, what you’re doing and what went wrong i’m not sayin’ i was an angel/you made it clear you were going to do your own thing/…

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it’s my thing

it’s not your thing………….it’s my thing you can’t do my thing and i can’t do your thing i won’t judge your thing and hope you won’t judge mine i can show interest and respect for your thing and hope you would consider the same for me………………..but if not that’s okay………….i…

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