so within….so without

it is not possible for me to believe one could act arbitrary and not mirror what is within…………….without……….. would take a twisted man who could devise and practice a plan that would deviate…………from how he thinks to what is presented to the outside world…. most are not capable of such…

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not afraid of you……afraid of me

not afraid what you might do or say…………………………..we’ve been through those types of days…………………but when i hear you brag about what you stole…………… i get afraid of me this pattern has got to end, this crazy game of sick ”pretend” and i hear you are at it again………not afraid of…

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credulous

so many people had used you before and i cautioned you anyone vaguely representing integrity or honesty was so enticing to you i begged you to be cautious and to protect yourself, but you wanted to believe in someone so badly that you accepted some proof…. as enough i found…

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you won’t like this

you won’t like what i suggest………….but when this started you already started to resist…………..and if you’re not willing to do something different…..you get what you get…………….same old thing……. it’s supposed to be uncomfortable………………i keep telling you……….because it’s something you don’t want to do …………………..if i wasn’t sure it would help,…

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the spot i was looking for

while the purveyors are selling doom and gloom i found the spot i was looking for my experience has taught me that in the midst of a perceived calamity there is a tiny window that only a few can see……….through that window is a view and it will take you…

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when i stopped giving God the middle finger

when i stopped giving God the middle finger and took responsibility for the less than prodigious results my life had shown up to that point……….things started happening……………..a slow trickle and at times almost a flood…… when i accepted that my perceived ”victimization” was a result of my own doing………………my relationship…

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i’ll take you there

there is a special place i go where things are cataloged and stored i go there often to add to the list to savor things i don’t want to forget it can be strong as a vault if someone tries to insert things i don’t want other times it can…

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the fable of five

in the midst of a stormy night this dream came upon me and it brought a few things to light…………………….. there was a knock on the door, who should come to visit at this hour on such a perilous night…………i saw a strange figure and he held the light so…

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this minute is sacred

for a believer every moment is sacred……………..in my evolution i hope to spend the majority of my time in communion with Him…… this moment is sacred because it was given…….. it is fleeting and it cannot be stopped, only appreciated…………………. when i remind myself that this gift is temporary and…

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oh, to be Henry

my dog henry is a cockapoo………….rescued me and he’ll rescue you good old boy henry my dog henry avoids the sun his hair is black and he gets too warm, he’d rather relax under the fan, clean his feet and sleep all he can good old boy henry not to…

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you cannot lead a horse anywhere….they don’t want to go…….

kick that notion to the curb…………………….many a woman has stared at the moon tears running down their cheeks………………coming to that realization…………….forget it……… you only think you can talk someone into something………….you can’t……………………………..they’ll take a few steps in that direction and bolt, because you are invested…………they aren’t………. hard to wait……………..most people…

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i’m that guy

i’m the guy your mother warned you about…………but you never bought into it…………..because as hard as she tried…….she couldn’t keep from smiling…………….. i’m that guy that was wild and free and girls were eager to see what walking on the wire was like……………………i’m the guy that drove to fast………………drank to…

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doesn’t mean much without love

i have seen the repercussions of a king who gave his queen the largest diamond in the world………..she was amused like a young girl until she remembered it wasn’t given in love and the diamond quickly lost it’s luster……………………………. i have witnessed a peddler who sold used wares………give half of…

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your understanding will fail you

issues will come up that baffle us…………….that is why we develop trust…………………because…..your understanding will fail you……. we get hemmed into corners………….nowhere left to go and reason starts to enter as to how we got here……..because we relied on our own understanding……..and it will fail you…….. when we seek our judgment…

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one of your ”dots”/aka distant cousins

for those who chance to read this post………………perhaps i shall propose a toast………………as we celebrate this place in time where i become part of your world and you become part of mine………….. by luck or providence our paths have crossed and as we continue to connect the dots………….you are part…

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well at least we’re talking

i have a dear friend that is one of a kind and he criticizes me and i criticize him…………and we throw bombs and tear off limbs……………it’s good to have someone who understands…………… he gets me and i get him…………… we don’t have a typical relationship…………………we have an ongoing argument……………….we piss…

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not afraid to ask

not afraid to ask you…….. or anyone………………….concerning things i need……………………and i expect you to be honest and not make promises you cannot keep…………………………………….. my requests are simple and you can expect me to do the same…. tell me the truth……………..not your version if you tell me you care or love…

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silent

no response…………………….i feel inclined to give this issue ”quiet time”…………………………………………………..and when the dust has had time clear…………………perhaps a new perception will appear…….. we have talked the issue to death……………..more confused then when we begin…………………..i see no reason to pick this snake up again…………….i remove myself and remain silent………. when someone…

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inveigled by a swindler

the rose peddled words drooled from your lips and many a fool would have bought into it…………………..a handshake and smile would have sufficed and the longer you talked the more my instincts spiked………………………. not many accolades for being educated on the street…………..but there ain’t many lessons learned that you won’…

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no return

you will never get back to square one………….best to forgive,if you can,and move on…………………………..partners, family and friends…….can never start over again………………you will never get back to square one……… we would like to delude ourselves into thinking…….we can wipe the slate clean………………….and when you look again those stains remain……………..you never start…

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thelittlethings

it’s the little things that makes us unique the things that one must examine closely if they will ever get a peak inside our heads and what makes us tick…….it’s the little things…. the obvious things are thinly veiled attempts to get attention they say ”i’m not enough, so notice…

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disconnected

it seems to be a strange anomaly between what your lips say and what your body says……………………………………………….. that disconnect has you stretched and it’s like watching a real life ”Gumby”………………..very disconcerting to watch……like Joe Cocker teaching a Sunday School Class……………………… when your separate the emotions attached to a person and…

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to obvious not to see

i am amazed and it bothers me how people roll over issues that are too plain to see…………………… they use the excuse it will be okay……………..only to find them later….. sitting in their car with a gun by their side……………wondering what it would be like on the other side never…

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i miss me too

i miss me too, when i try to be what you want me to be when in reality if you can accept me for me……………….how do you expect me to accept you so it has become apparent to me you weren’t looking for a friend you wanted someone you could…

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i stole the knife/ for enzem/ex cutter

i stole the knife you used to cut little pieces of yourself ……..they were given out like souvenirs…………………….i never understood it why you thought so little of yourself……………………from the outside you were always beautiful and you have held up very well…………by i saw something that made me pause as if…

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God of yesterday, today and tomorrow……….yep

as i have come to see the meaning of the time You have afforded me……………………i have been placed here for a reason………………. to proclaim your name………. how i live………….how i help and care……… for others who may be seeking, unaware You are already here……. You called my name many times…

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humble pie

i suppose there are as many recipes as there are colors under the sun………………………………………………. i have come to a place where i prefer my own……………………….. it has become a part of the things i regularly consume…………….because left on my own i am prone to slowly rise above…………….and then i see…

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cinderella

cinderella …………………………..forgot her……………………..umbrella………… the rain was pouring down…………………………she slipped and feel……………………………………………… it was revealed………………………………where………………………………..she …………..kept her……………………………………crown……………………………? if applicable………………………………………you’ll figure it out……………………. ding dong the…………………………………………………………………………………… the peasants are revolting

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window

don’t be the curtain in your window……………let the light of God pass through……..illuminating those that come and pause at your window to view………………………they will come,if your window is clear and the message has the ring of truth……….that message will flow from your lips if you remain quiet…….and let the Father…

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if you don’t want to/ for Stan

if you don’t want to………….you don’t have to drink tonite….. cuss out your friend or end up in a fight…..you don’t have to drink tonite……………………………. you don’t have to pretend that everything is alright……………and a few drinks won’t continue to the wee hours of the night……….Stan old buddy if you…

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