when i came to

when i came to, God was sitting in a chair…………..handed me a drink of water and stared off in the air…………………………..he began humming and then He began to sing………….the same refrain over and over again…………… ”come on up to the hill childern……………come on up to the hill…………..I will show you…

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call the ”Repairman”…………………..fast

this system is out of whack……………….the reset is broken and it won’t switch back………..i tired to replace it but it just doesn’t make contact………………..i need to call God…….. looking back it would have been better if i had done that from the start……….but i know a little enough to tear…

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you are blind

i know technically you can see…………………..but your mind has tainted reality………..and things that are obvious are hidden from thee……………………..therefore you are blind……………….so i rest my case and save my words………….because talking with you has become absurd…………and i see no good that will come from showing you proof that you are…

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the truth is never a lie

the truth is difficult to hide……………..hard to cover and a little always sticks out……….the truth isn’t slippery……………can be cold…………….hard as steel…………………lies have sharp edges………not so with the truth…………….blunt…………..it may knock you down or out…….but it doesn’t cut……………….sticks in youy side like a kid poking you with a baseball bat……….the truth…

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barometer

their is an internal compass that let’s me know for sure if the path i am traveling will bring sadness or bring joy though i may consult with others i generally already know if i am at peace within……………….all is well with my soul matters not the occasion nor what…

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but ONE

the state of our country……………the perils of our world………………could cause the most devout to crawl inside a hole……………………but flipping through the channels…….a small voice clammers in my head……………………..”these things are but trivialities and they will change like the wind……………………..I am the same today as yesterday……….tomorrow and until the end of…

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the acceptable lie

the acceptable lie……………has infiltrated you and i and it has become part of our culture….. would that a friend……………say was was on his or her mind then languish trying to find words that disguise their feelings………………. nothing worse than leaving a friend trying to determine what they were hiding………………if we…

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breviloquent

concise and clear…………….sparse with words……………able to fly through your mind like a bird……….the object of speaking is to be heard…………….less verbiage is the goal…………. to be able to draw straight lines with words that are able to define……………. is a gift i will continue to seek for the rest of…

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save your time/don’t ask me/ask God

i can see your frustration as you wait to see the way……………..the waiting is the hardest part…….but that’s where we put our faith in play……………………God has a plan and place for us for those that believe……………and He is working to get us right before He puts His plan in play………………

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a few more hills please

all my mentors have echoed one consistent ”theme”………………to pray for challenges/aka…..”spiritual growth”………………honestly you may appreciate the glory and majesty of Gods’ Creations………………..but you grow trudging through the mire…… God, let me experience Your Power and Love walking with You through the valley’s of life…….so that when we reach the mountain…

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staples of a spiritual diet

i feed my soul with Gods’ Word……………and the ‘meat’ nourishes my soul………….i snack on prayer as much as i want…………..and my thirst is quenched with the living waters of the ‘holy spirit’……………….i can always get a calming and peaceful feeling from Psalms and the harvest is always near and the…

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Papa Knew

Papa knew what his kid was going through……………………….he watched His Father and two brothers being directed and controlled by alcohol…………………he tried…………but the ”prodigal” son was determined to have his way and have his say……………..he realized it was going to take the continued lashes of the demon alcohol before i would…

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God talk

He disciplines those He loves………………………..alright……………… if i do not give credence or recognize ”ignorance” in conversation…………..the speaker realizes that what is not being said is ”the subject or topic is of no value or merit to me and therefore isn’t considered worthy of discussion…………….a very good remedy to get your…

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what’s your sign say

i asked a friend ”what’s your sign say”……………….and he said……..”what sign” we all carry a sign each day when we leave our homes…..apartments………….or the shelter….. it is the sign on our face of hope, peace…………….faith………………….or not…… i can remember when i first got sober…………..a fellow traveler on the road to…

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2 sides to this coin/emergency landing/for CAB

the clamor of these last few days have caused a rattle in my head……………and i cannot find the logic to support what is happening to me….. is that a voice i hear resonating deep within………….i try to disregard it but there it is again……. ”little bird”……………….your wing is broken…..but it…

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live it

the things i believe can easily be seen by the way i live my life……..there are times when i must speak up…….but those times are few and far between………………you need not ask my opinion or my feelings about matters of the day……………..what i say with my actions should little doubt…

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is my house……………….in order

so much easier for me to see the things you need to do and if i’m not guarding my mouth………..i am apt to tell them to you………………but i am reminded to turn the focus back on me and it doesn’t take very long to see there is much work to…

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the saddest mystery

it continues to amaze me………………………………….that most of the people i meet..are a mystery to themselves…………………………they have little idea how they got to this point in life………what is the focus of their lives………………..or where they are going………………..if you ask they will laugh and smile……….shrug their shoulders………………because thet don’t know………..wow   if…

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discovering i have gills

finally……………abandoning all hope of having a better past……….accept my shortcomings and start to relax……………..i don’t feel the sinking sensation……………..and i begin to notice many things i have overlooked while struggling to stay ”afloat”………………….. i am able to breathe as the waters of life rise around me…………..going with the flow has…

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the measure of a man/woman

i define myself by the things i don’t participate in more than by the things i do participate in… the affliations i attest to are as valid as my efforts in those endeavors………….. talk…..talk……talk………with no walk…..walk….walk…………..is the sound of…..footsteps down an endless hallway with no doors………clack…….clack or actually cluck…..cluck……. better…

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ttucro’s principal/”the bridled tongue”

this concept as with all master concepts is easy to understand…………..it is not heady, deep or intellectual…………..but it is without doubt one of the most difficult to accomplish ready………………………….. it is neither necessary nor appropriate to say everything one thinks good luck

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that little Boy is me

that little boy that loved to climb trees, wade in the river and push through a crowd to get closer to see………………..he’s gotten older………………… but that little boy is still me….. that little boy that loved to play games………hated to lose…………….but was always willing to try again………………made friends easily and…

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just pretend

just pretend that you give a shit…………………..just pretend……………………..after you see how people react…………………………………………………………………………………………you will/ttucro

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‘LOVE’……………….is not fearful

i understand the tendency to struggle when confronting someone with an issue you know they are not willing to discuss……………i get it………………. now the dividing line is whether the issue can wait……….safely, or whether it has the potential to create lifelong consequences…………….. if it falls into the latter category……………..pray about…

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sketch it in your mind

sketch it in your mind ……what it is you hope to find……………in this walk we refer to as ”life”…… have a loose fitting plan you can adjust as you scan the unlimited possibilities of the day… be aware that there is a force that is ready to lead each of…

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does it mean that much to you?

do you ever think about the price Our Savior paid………………….yeah i know we say we are Christians,…………maybe even read the Bible everyday…………………but i think it’s important to reflect on what went down…………..that the Son of God was willing to be scorned and disgraced so that we could be forgiven for…

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rabbits in the garden

as i look out the kitchen window i spy my little friend nibbling on some red flowers my wife had just put in……………………..he looks so calm and peaceful and then a dog barked in a yard nearby………………….his ears went up and listened to see if he needed to make a…

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i’ll give it away……..but i won’t throw it away

i’ll give away part of the day because i know that’s what you want me to do…….to strengthen these ties that unite you and I………………an bless those that need a little push…………………sometimes the wheels are in place to get in the race……..but we are afraid to let them roll and…

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Secretary of the Interior

i met with the ”Secretary of the Interior”…………….this morning to get my assignments for the day………………………….and it was the same the day before and tomorrow it will be the same…. for a time i wasn’t paying attention until i realized what He was trying to say………………. ”if you think you…

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dark skies

those dark skies above your land where sent as a reminder that I AM…….the Great I AM……. although each one of your groups think they have a plan………………..I AM still in control……the Great I AM……….. I will let you continue on your way and when I have had enough……………You Will…

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