the call of the wild

the ‘call of the wild’ almost killed me …………………it’s one thing to be called………it’s another to let that ”call”……………..control you…………………….. wide open is a hard way to live…………………..extraordinarly exhilarating and extraordinarily demeaning ……….because you often go against you better judgment……………..for the lure of the ‘call’……………………………………… it was a very difficult…

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the light of faith

the light of faith shone on your face……………..perhaps it was the God in me that let me see the God in you……………………………..inescapable……….the humility in how you spoke about your beliefs was calming and tender……………… what a beautiful witness that was more communicated by the peace on your face………than the words…

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a place i know/a place to go

there is a place i know……………where i often go to commune with the God of all………….He meets me near the trees and often walks with me and asks ‘how life goes in this world’………..after a bit i respond in words He has heard many times before………’i seem to do fine…

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the shortcomings of words

words can infer…………….but they cannot hold……………….they cannot touch………….they cannot feel………………..only describe……………………..words can inspire but they cannot do………..hands do……………feet do……………….mouths repeat words that have been taught to represent…………………..give me a word that adequately describes horror…………….no words could convey only guttural sounds that cannot be formed or controlled………….that leap forth as shrapnel…

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a different tone

i came back to You………….hopeful and enthused…………………the tone of the thoughts in my head were mangled and confused…………………..but i knew of others who had faced the same plight as mine………………….what they shared had me convinced…………..the problem wasn’t You it was mine……………………….. so i did what was suggested…………………..humbled myself and prayeded…………………wait…

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to see what i would do

You set me in this world…………….gave me my ‘free will’…………………to see what i would do with it……………until You had your fill……………………….. watched me repeat the same mistakes over and over again and saved me from myself…………gave me a chance to start again……………….. my way never worked so i thought i…

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this thing i cannot live without

this thing i cannot live without………………warms my soul and leaves no doubt…………..You sought me out and let me see the best You have, is offered to me……………… i was given the choice to make…………….to turn my life and will over to you………….by doing so what i have received is a…

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it’s there……………….if you want it

it’s there if you want it……………..the ”gold” you seek…………….in encouragement and direction from God who seeks……………………………..to walk with you along the paths and the streets as you make your way towards Him…………. because you see the reality is we were made to commune with Him………….and all other things we must…

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one inch closer

i would like to think that each time i tame my emotions and do what is mature and best for everyone……………i move ‘one inch’ closer to God………………doesn’t sound like much………….but i am faced with these opportunities everyday………….many times a day……………… over the course of a lifetime those inches add up………………just…

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the cure for lonliness

i once was often lonely though throngs of people were around………………….i had a hard time communicating and i felt like i was in a foriegn land……………..then when it seemed all humans failed me………………i returned to God and found……………..the love that never waivers………..no matter what is going down………………. funny but i…

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ask

not sure which way to go or the appropriate words to say……………..struggling with decisions that have to be made………………………………….that is the time to step aside and in silence speak………..”is this in agreement with Your Will………………..i want to do it Your Way”………….. with confidence go about your day the answers will…

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none of my business

you didn’t turn out like i thought you would …………………….i had these notions you would be a certain way and do certain things…………………………and i suppose i forgot that behind all your intelligence………..was an issue that had you trapped………………….. i just wanted the best for you………….but that was through my eyes…………….and…

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connect the dots…………………………life

i now take my time and connect the dots…………………………….i pause when i approach another spot……………i look at where i have been………………….and stop…………………to appreciate the journey…………………………. it isn’t about the destiny………………..it’s about what life has given and taken from me…………..that exchange has allowed me to see………………………the dots were placed there long…

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truth

we speak of ”truth” as such a valuable commodity……………….when in reality few of us want anything to do with it……………….only as much as necessary to get by…………..piecemeal in small bites, easy to swallow……………………………………………………………………………………………… when you meet or get to know a person and they can handle the truth………………..[ most of…

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if only you knew

if only you knew the many trials God has pulled me through,…………….you wouldn’t roll your eyes when i say He wants to be your friend…………………………………..if only you knew how close i was to shutting the door to reality and walking into the abyss………….in utter dispair…………only to be snatched from the…

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puzzling

you say you believe He created the mountains, forests and the sea……………..yet you have such doubt that He would help you and me………………….no, we don’t desereve it but He sent His Son to set us free……………………..why do you waste time praying……………if you think it could ever be…………….. i have the…

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i have the oars

God is at rudder and He steers the boat, but i have the oars and i have to row……….. He will suggest which way we should go and how fast we get there depends on how i row…… now i’m not always enthusiastic on the routes He takes………….rapids and currents…

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IN MY POCKET

i keep a rainbow in my pocket and take it everywhere i go…………..never know when you might need a reminder…………………….there’s a silver lining in every cloud………… i take it out and look at it when things seem out of place……..and i am reminded ‘thus too shall pass’……….and get back in…

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homework

until one spends the time understanding their mind……………..it’s hard to interact with someone else………………………………………………………………………………………….until we know what makes us tick…………….what makes us trip……………………we are fishing with no bait on our line…………………………. imagine opening a book and it is written in a language we aren’t familiar with………no different then trying to…

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any given day

on any given day…..i can get in the way………….blocking the light i strive to see…. catch myself in doubt, which fear is all about…….but i can dig it up before it takes root…………………. i can put fear in it’s place…………a seat near the light………………..squirming away in God’s Rays………..it starts to…

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a slower walk

a slower walk to my surprise……………doesn’t make me miss anything… allows me to enjoy more………………saves me an enormous amount of time….. less corrections……………less back tracking……feet are more rested………..and my thinking is clearer…… gives me time to listen an give others the focus they deserve………..the gift of attention………..leading to compassion…………… i…

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You Came……..but I had to ask

You came to me but i had to ask, as You respected my soveriegn space………….that tiny room inside myself ,that shelf that holds my fate….. You would not threaten nor challenge me to open those vaults and doors……….until i was ready to meet You…… on Your terms and let You…

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frivolous things

the world is full of frivolous things……………frivolous people and frivolous schemes….. dress it, arrange it…tie it in a bow…………..we are drowning in instant gratification…….that lingers for mere moments…….and on to the next…”need”….. sweep it …..trash it……clear yourself a spot…………………..and begin to realize………..what you really wanted isn’t what you got………… the…

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all or nothing

all in or you will try to defend the reasons you won’t comply………… on your best days you can’t get it right and no one is expecting perfection anyway………. but when you aim high…………………..the results are always better than if you reach for a shelf that attainable…………….. it’s whan you…

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the most pricelesss instrument

it took some time to learn…………that practice as we may……………….there are some notes…………..that only the heart can play…………… will come a time if we seek to hear that ”peace”………………we will be stirred from our sleep……………………………. to hear the melodies of the heavens………………..inspired by God…………..that only the heart can play

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crater

there is a hole in me……………………that i could never fill…………….with alcohol, drugs or pills………………and in pursuit of trying to fill a spiritual gap with a chemical solution……………i almost died several times………….. when it was to obvious to ignore that my fixes weren’t working nor were they going to work…….i turned…

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Stopped looking

”He is not out there”…………………….the voice was soft and clear….. ”you can stop looking, He is already here…………….. you can stop walking and be still……………………listen to the words you have longed to hear…………………………………….. the lessons to be learned are best received when one is quiet and calm……… the journey isn’t…

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the work has just begun

you turn the soil when you opened the book……………….but the work has just begun…………………..now to plant the seed………………..and watch it grow………..and change what we thought we had learned……………….. matters little how much we know and what we gather along the way………..if it remains stored in our heads……………………… and doesn’t effect…

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horizontal

the actions of others……………………………… as hard as it may be to swallow and follow………………should have little to no affect……………….in your actions……….. or reactions…………………………. the essence of enlightenment……………….is self control…………………… well then……………….guess i realize i am just scratching the surface  

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tides///2.3 feet above sea level

when we go to sleep everyone in our past……………and our future line up to remind us of their contributions………………………or display their wares for sale…………. bits, pieces, flashes of the past are offered to re-examine what was missed and misinterpreted…………………….. as we sit staring out the window…………….many pass by wondering if…

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