Glad they hung with me……

Funny how my childhood tendencies to daydream have never left me…. Reprimanded for being lost in thought against what was being taught…… Occasionally I would be ask to share what I found so enchanting……and would tell them in great detail, Ā and then it was over……..the teacher has lost control and…

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Ex-Wisecracker…..

I cease having opinions…… on things I don’t understand……… ttucro/collector of smiles

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Slow…….

Slow lets me see things that escaped me because my focus was always ahead….. countless wonders were unnoticed because I was driven by destination and didn’t appreciate the journey….. what changed…. Age ……..experience…….maturity so it is needless to suggest to others what I have learned…… they must arrive at this…

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Scuffed……but still walking

These old boots are just like me….. worn and weathered …… but still walking the look on an old friend’s face connects me a past that has left its marks….but has been left behind I don’t disguise it and I don’t regret its part in my development…….the chisel of life…

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They come back…….the smart ones

I had no idea how I would be blest by failing the test, over and over again those failures helped me to see how stubborn and ungrateful I could be finally after my best attempts failed I surrendered and asked for help it’s funny but this path I chose seemed…

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Tantamount…….the same as

Guarded feelings you need to be sure leftover baggage cover the floor so you gather them slowly and accept what you missed and you put them in the trash and they have been dismissed the same routine follows you around for weeks deciding what was wrong and what to keep…

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Wheel of Fortune……

The wheel of fortune continues to spin and it gives and takes without asking…. so we have a choice…….a deterrent or a blessing not finished forming…. the first seems to have connotations Ā suggesting a stoppage or hindrance… I prefer the latter…a blessing…… to me it breeds hope I cannot see…

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The Beauty of Basic

The telltale sign of a focused mind can be easily accessed by what is treasured and what is left behind …… the clutter we carry is small change compared to the memories we relive over and over……carry what can be shared……experience……strength…..understanding and hope……… I adorned my life with things that…

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You’re Going to Get Wet

Yep…… it’s raining and I can hear you fret…… but this is life and you’re going to get wet….. you’ll dry out and get over it…..but this is life, you’re going to get wet Sun comes out and puts spring in our step and you are excited for days on…

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Art of Suffering

It’s going to happen……..someone or something will ruffle your feathers and you are the only one in the world šŸŒŽā€¦ā€¦ singled out because you pulled Sally’s pants down in the second grade…… you knew it was coming but you didn’t know when …..here it is….. payback last week it was…

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After the learning……..for Noah

After the learning…….put it away… You will find what’s important will stick and stay The lessons you have learned are to merely point the way The heavens are waiting to here what you have to say Take those thoughts and words that rattle in your head and put them on…

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Keep Flapping…..

Little wings 🪽 won’t take you far/ no other way to start Humbling as it may seem/ everyone starts with little wings some are fine with little trips/ makes them feel safe and secure/ that is the comfortable gist of their lives/ enough to satisfy their desires for living Others…

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Pastels…..

the glory of the Earth šŸŒ that I can see …..in brilliant colors that encircle me, but I must admit the ones that entice me the most are…… pastels those muted tones that combine a few…..draw me into their soft tender hues ….. mesmerizing and subdued…. Ahhhh the pastels sometimes…

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Onion

Onion man we are peeling off skin trying to determine where you have been….. in hopes you never go there again…. Onion man we are peeling off skin you seem to have been through this before….. you don’t flinch and you don’t swear…… just stare off in the distance repeating…..ā€wish…

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Prisoner…… by choice

Only a truly ā€œfreeā€ person can understand the value of self imprisonment…… for it is by separating that we sift through the debris of life….. and decide what to keep ttucro/collector of smiles

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Revisited……. Christmas. 23.1145

Old traveled paths I used to run……coax me on ā€please come, please comeā€ā€¦ā€¦and I relive again those times that have no end…….and keep beginning over and over again to remind me how far I have come and there is no end in sight…..I treasure that view for what it means…

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I don’t know…… Maybe he’s right

Damn…….He didn’t do what I wanted Him to do…… so what’s the use of carrying on this fight the world keeps pushing me to accept so many things… for me it just doesn’t seem right but I can’t see into the future…..I can’t seem to deny, a force that I…

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Nothing like your face……for Z…..from L

There is nothing like your face….. seems like it’s been to long…… I see some change …. Nothing drastic  …..time is doing its thing…. although you ignore it…….hope that never changes for you The wings that were always in my heart…..seems to have transferred to you……glad they are getting used…

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Unbridled

I felt your nudge….. I saw your frown…I suppose I knew this would be coming down …….. ā€After all I’ve done for you……..… here, you wear the crown ……. remember what your life was like when you ran the show….. you’re trying not to offend others by not mentioning my…

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Growing Wings On The Way Down

I stepped off the cliff because I couldn’t resist….. surrendering to my disease…… I thought it was over but to my surprise…… life begin again so I started to see what was troubling me and it wasn’t really what I thought at first I was able to see……that I was…

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Not me…….

They are criss crossing the pike trying to avoid being hit as they walk in a delusional daze searching for the best deal they can get by bartering cars…..sex….clothes….jewelry whatever is left i didn’t get there….. but I got close driving to a meeting I know it is still there…..the…

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Starting Over

The road I was on has been permanently closed….. the cost to repair required losing my self respect…… it has damaged my confidence…. being unwilling to admit reality is a safe bet that it will result in turmoil…..and it did starting over…. not starting from scratch but learning new ways…

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The Problem with Schedules….

Much as we would like to think otherwise….. we can’t pick a time to die so sometimes if our schedules are so precise…… we lose the opportunity to experience life as it flows not possible that we could be correct on every move we make so do yourself a favor………

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Didn’t Graduate……held back

I have been sent back to repeat a grade….. my counselor gave me a choice to continue my disruptive behavior or seek a different course so reluctantly I agreed….much to my surprise….when I don’t say everything I think I often discover ……..to myself…. I often lie the power of restraint…

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Just One……

One of anything was never enough and I gorged myself on the delicacies of life more….. more…. more ……..all these things and I was poor…… poor in my appreciation and understanding that quantity wasn’t a substitute for the quality of valuing what was in front of me I am trying…..…

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Laundry mat

I must admit I’m slow to embrace the unaccustomed effort it takes to do such simple things…..until those things change the experience here stirs a mixture of thoughts…. Some doing the best they can…… others like me realizing the cost ….. of hard decisions…..what was won and what was lost…….…

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I know the guards…..

I know the guards that protect your heart….. they did that for me when my world came apart….. they give me updates as to where you are….. It has helped me to understand……… because I know the guards ttucro/ collector of smiles….

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Middle of the Road

I decided to try something new my motive was to get a better view what I found much to my surprise In the middle of the Road was a better place to reside Here I am able to see both sides and I don’t miss the Ā things I want to…

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At the door of tomorrow

I lay my issues at the door 🚪 of tomorrow…. An focus on the blessings in front of me …… while exploring my gifts and sharing my bounty….. The answers to those challenges always come to me So when I forget that my needs are always met….. A reminder comes…

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I Remember Your Smile

Recalling our interaction I can recall your confidence and exuberance for life Beams of light seemed to dart across your face and you said, ā€œ hope your day is magicalā€ and it was because of you I remember you twisted limbs and your confinement to the wheelchair…… but they didn’t…

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