Cracked

I had to look several times, until I made myself accept it was you. I was walking to an AA meeting downtown and saw you in the alley going through a dumpster. Your face was dirty but that effervescent smile was still there and it sealed the realization it was…

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Raisonneur

I would like to say I resemble the lead actor in this playā€¦but I have forgotten the script The lines donā€™t seem like mine and he seems lost a great deal of the time and that makes me uncomfortable But Iā€™ll let it go on until it moves in directions…

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Absquatulate

Sorry it wasnā€™t a pleasant way to end But the alternative was looking thin I blame myself because it should have never began Determine to make it work, but square pegs belong in square holes and doing otherwise doesnā€™t go well..does it? If I had been more mature and honest…

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Breakable Heart

Grateful to have a breakable heart to feel the pains of life To have offered and received love and to have it fall apart There is a price for everything and it must be paid in full The cost of happiness is sharing others pain and rejoicing in their successes…

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My old friendā€¦ā€¦loneliness

I would like to introduce my old friend, I met him long ago. He has become my constant companion and he accompanies me everywhere where I go. He doesnā€™t like people and he would rather we be alone.. so he can have me to himself and dominate my thoughts. He…

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Life aka ā€œThe treasure huntā€

The gist of a happy life is appreciating and enjoying what you find. Itā€™s fine to have things you would like to discoverā€¦ and you may find some of them. Enjoying what you come across is the keyā€¦.in reality you very well may find things you never considered and be…

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The Disease of ā€œSelfā€

Most of our problems are a result of the ā€œdisease of selfā€ Our fears our unrealistic desires and demands bleed over into our emotions and on everyone else When we get to the point where our relationship’s and our interactions with others are consistently problematic we have a choice, take…

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The Arrows in Your Quiver

Perhaps the arrows in your quiver need to be thrown away The feathers are worn and missing and you would never hit anything anyway So why do you continue to carry them, your bow is warped and frayed And the people you wanted to shoot no longer seem to be…

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Dandelionā€¦ā€¦

Labels have connotations that often precondition our appraisal of thingsā€¦ For instance for all intents and purposes the dandelion is a dreaded weed, and it does seem out of place in the midst of a beautiful lawn. However in many other situations it shines bright as a little starā€¦ determine…

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Trying to hold waterā€¦ā€¦..#13

Iā€™m sitting in a restaurant eating salad for my weekly commitment to eat all the colors in the rainbow once a week I reflect about you and liken it to trying to hold waterā€¦the more you resisted the tighter I held youā€¦.for awhile Until I realized it wasnā€™t what you…

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Tin Can Above the Fireplace

Just so you donā€™t get to high an mighty, no matter what you have or what you do or your degrees or your possessionsā€¦ You will either end up in a box in the ground or in a tin can on the fireplace Get over yourself and treat everyone with…

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Postage

I hope I have accumulated enough postage to send myself into higher realms Some of it is by a determined effort to better oneselfā€¦. And some is by the efforts of others to carry you along There are no limitations other than my degree of willingness and determination to not…

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Coming into the Hyaline

Oh myā€¦it took some time But I think I made it to the Hyaline Feels like I left a lot behind which allowed me to climb out of the clouds to the hyaline Traveling lighter and freeing my mind things are looking clearer In the hyaline Climbing Ttucro

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You Get Stronger as You Walk

I went to the beach we favored when we were togetherā€¦..it has undergone quite a cleaning The debris and wood from the various storms over the years has been removed and it reminded me that this change has been cleansing to me as well and from your comments seems you…

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A blade of grass

Not to think less of myself But in reality Iā€™m like a blade of grass We enter into this life and we try to find what is right and what works for us If we are smart we accept the fact that the other blades are just doing that, trying…

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Epigraph

Perhaps I can live a life that some would say.. his epigraph should read this way: ā€œ thoā€™ challenged by the conditions of life, dealing with himself and the consequences of bad decisions..ultimately his journey was in search of the God of his understanding and by all appearancesā€¦he found Him.ā€…

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Deleting from Vocabulary

The three words that I have spoken over the years along my journey, that I have literally marginal concept of are, ā€œ I love you ā€œ I am striking them out of my mind and vocabularyā€¦.. It I meanā€¦. I will exhibit it If I exhibit itā€¦ it doesnā€™t need…

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Two Paths to Freedomā€¦..one goodā€¦.one not

Freedom and happiness arenā€™t necessarily congruentā€¦ā€¦ One Pathā€¦..stop doing the things that you lie to cover upā€¦.preferred, typically leads to happiness Second Pathā€¦.start living your secretsā€¦.less desired but freeingā€¦ doesnā€™t guarantee happiness TTucru

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Building bridgesā€¦where there are walls

We will come to circumstances where there seem to be insurmountable walls in our path Gives us the opportunity to determine if they were placed there for our defense or a challenge So we ask for the wisdom to know the difference If it be a challenge worthy of surmounting…

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Slippery When Wet

Duhhhhā€¦really Good to know Ttucro

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Pelican Logic

You come to sit with me as I fish, but Iā€™m no match for you You fly off and return with your fish, I think you are youā€™re taunting me So I give you a nod and you spread your wings and walk a circle around the pier Once again…

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Economy Air

Excuse meā€¦..2 words that will take you anywhere Thank you.. 2 words that will bring you home Ttucro

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Dumb up

As far as spiritual matters are concerned, your intellect is your nemesisā€¦ Ttucro

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Replace the hinges

The door to your heart is broken The hinges are rusted solid because they havenā€™t been open for so long Youā€™ve gotten used to the door being closed, you feel safe and less vulnerable But your missing something and you know it This is working for now but you canā€™t…

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Wish List

If your moral code changes with your situation or needsā€¦it is neither moral nor a code It is a wish list Ttucro

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Flipping Turtles

If you have ever come upon a turtle turned on their back unable to right itselfā€¦ that is helplessness Everyone will have that experience at some time in their lives You never know how a smile, a gesture an attentive ear can change the trajectory of someoneā€™s lifeā€¦ And yours…

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Learning another language

Iā€™m learning a new language because the one Iā€™ve been speaking seems foreign to some people They receive messages I never intended and for awhile I thought it was just meā€¦ but a succession of distorted conversations made me think otherwise. Seems odd at this age to be learning a…

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Blank

Been here beforeā€¦ā€¦..blank Absence of materialā€¦.. no inscription, minus imagesā€¦. If has been an infrequent occurrence but it has happened before and I realize it for what it is, A pauseā€¦ā€¦a break Blank periods are less threatening and provide a safety net when things are piling up and need filing…

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F.O.M.O.

The fear of missing out, aka ā€œfomoā€ is just thatā€¦we miss out what and where we are,pining for something we arenā€™t even sure about. Tremendous waste of time but everyone is infected to some degree. The ā€œfear of missing outā€ is akin to lying on a tropical beach and wishing…

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Sharp edges

Well did you think about the sharp edges as you put together the boxā€¦ā€¦apparently not Having marked the project with blood harvested by those edgesā€¦.what exactly were you thinking? I see a pattern here and it is quite evident that habit of plowing forward with great intensity and marginal thought…

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