Mastering the Art of Waiting

The experience of waiting can be a hindrance or a time to pump up our faith and renew our commitment to the process pushing for a desired outcome is a sure fire way to cripple the outcome There is a path cleared for me and when it is clear that…

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My Son…..you won…… for Stacy O

My Son you won but you didn’t learn from me to watch me go through relationships with bad choices and levity And the people I presented you with were as flawed as me what did I expect we attract what we are so it is with great respect and a…

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Testing….1…2…3 are you listening to Me

I told you I would do it said just wait and see but you didn’t trust …so you had to build your faith in me when you kinda surrendered….I cut you some slack now I did what I said I would and how it turns out depends on how you…

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The Window of the World…. For Kim

The Window of the World draws its curtain from time to time We’re not sure where we are going almost as if we were blind but along the way a faith has carried us when we were to tired to walk and deposited us in places to renew and awaken…

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The thing to do…..

The thing to do when something is bothering you is pray the thing to do when you come unglued is pray the thing to do when you don’t have a clue is pray The thing to do is pray almost david

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Make the best of it…

That blade of grass it won’t last and friend neither will you so you can lament over lost time you’ve spent or you can laugh at the past and break its hold on you almost david

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Biography

And wouldn’t change a thing: reformed swindler infant in my faith passionate insensitive …. Working on it fearful………………..ā€ deceptive……….. Ā  Ā  Ā ā€œ spontaneous willful stubborn ………. Ā  Ā  Ā  ā€œ supportive undermining …. Ā  Ā  Ā  ā€œ courageous Judgmental…………..ā€ honest when convenient ā€œ evolving believer taker giver arrogant Ā needs a…

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Birds of a feather šŸŖ¶ā€¦. For Kathy the Tooth Fairy 🧚

The thing about life….. you just never know sometimes it moves fast….and sometimes slow and when you least expect it….because you never know a bird šŸ¦… of the same feather lands at your door they begin talking and the words sound like they are coming from you ….and you start…

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Prophets of Doom

At the annual meeting of the ā€œProphets of Doomā€ speaker ā€ well I can see we are going to need a bigger room, our group has done a fine job spreading disinformation and gloom…..and it warms my heart to see people as negative and hateful as me. I know I…

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Seems to me…..

It seems to me you are all tangled up in things you have no control over just wondering how that’s working for you I’m alright with concern……. But I’m at the point that my best judgement is ā€œwait and seeā€ – you know we only get so much time haven’t…

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You don’t have to take it….i’ll give it to you

You need not make a plan to disarm this man please tell me what you want and if I can I’ll give it to you because you see things are unlimited to me because I have access to the ā€œsourceā€ that ā€œsource ā€œ is pleased when I share what is…

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Keep looking for signs pointing towards….

The world has labeled me a senior but I never listened to them anyway I have never let the calendar dictate my life nor my activities I believe one becomes old when they forget what it’s life to be young There are few things more rewarding than to accomplish the…

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Dodging bullets..

Damn that was close I could hear it whizzing past my head I’m trying to look for cover seems my tracker is close sees my every move damn I got hit in the arm surface wound…I cover it best I can with a bandanna have to keep moving another hit…

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Elegant Respect ….. for Brecken Princess of Waynesboro

We were arranged to meet by forces we know of.. Ā  Ā but do not understand during the course of the evening I watched as you interacted with old friends and new acquaintances Beautiful would hint of your appearance but it’s more than outside it’s the warmth of the inside that…

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Not buying…. Or selling

Not buying or selling…… needs have been met the clutter of possessions has already left and I have no reason not to be content not buying or selling all needs have been met – the distractions of this world have faded away lost in the shuffle of many overblown days…

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The last straw …. For sweet js

Shouldn’t take all this by now you should know sometimes our maker works fast sometimes He seems pretty slow but pursuing an outcome you want until you abide by His time is akin to fishing in a toilet what did you expect to find so knowing and doing are light…

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Invisible

There are few things more disturbing than the notion that you are on another planet you are the alien and the protective shield doesn’t allow your presence to be visible to others you walk through crowds imperceptible and no heads turn to look your way you thought you belonged here…

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Chickens in a cage……

Driving on the interstate I come up behind a load of chickens on their way to their demise….. the notion struck me in active addiction we are those birds… and we put ourselves in a cage shutting the door and locking it with hopelessness and despair then other birds who…

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Recidivist…… at the Patience Hospital…. For j.s.

They know me here…Patience Hospital this is easily my hundredth… okay my thousandth visit we go over the scenarios and role play and I do fine but this is a very orchestrated and structured program and my emotions rarely get twisted here but when I leave here…. Ā My emotions are…

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Spend the money..

I knew I should have bit the bullet and gone ahead and paid a professional to do the lobotomy…. But as usual I was trying to save a buck….I can’t even find the receipt for the wire cutters so can’t return them…sometimes you just have to spend the money  …

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Angels do sleep…..for the court of Hastings’s

P…. Said he found you asleep on the couch didn’t hear you come in…. Exhausted after another night of trauma from patients…..and staff he took a throw from the chair and covered you as he was about to turn off the light and go back to bed….. he grinned because…

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The End of Desire…..end of pain

It’s 3 o’clock in the morning……..been traveling so was kinda geared up went to Planet Fitness and caught a workout and drove to the next town to unwind sitting in a parking lot looking at the various plants or weeds on the hill in front of the van sometimes I…

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Rest Area…..pull off

Everyone needs a rest area a place to pull off the highway of life and decompress too many thoughts lead to a tangled knitting 🧶 ball we try to use as a brain 🧠 how many good things or thoughts could be realized by the direction of a tangled mess…

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Almost David…….continued

I had so many traps that hindered me no one to blame but myself In an effort to get along I gave away large pieces of myself never thought like this before this time out has allowed me to see When we go against ourselves I am lying to you…

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Should have.. would have..

I thought I spread my wings when I was younger but I got caught in the riptide of other peoples lives I don’t blame them…. Ā  Ā I blame myself I spent the majority of my life trying to be things I’m not But I’m off the ground now.. Ā  Ā this…

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No Man’s Land..

The stark truth.. the women my age are either knitting or going to a book club.. the women I’m attracted to …. Ā I could be their father Welcome to No Man’s Land almost david

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Thinly Veiled….

I approached the direction of the van as just revisiting and remembering the events that took place here…… concerning two relationships leaving an A.A. meeting I inadvertently passed the home of a daughter of one of the participants….. thought about stopping but I know it would have been received poorly…

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Telling your heart…… No

The personal quest to unite with another is a treacherous course to maneuver One path leads to an overwhelming desire on one part…….yours Another path leads to an overwhelming desire on their part…. Not yours the elixir that has the right amount of fear and faith is a concoction that…

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Consider

For a while I was afraid of the voices in my head I suppose that for some reason I was fearful because I alternatively went from listening and acting upon and / or repulsion from some of the chatter I have embraced the concept of lower and higher self my…

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Swimming in the Air

I watch a huge Walrus swimming and he comes back to the window to stare at me……damn he knows he can spot another swimmer I’m not as well equipped but I have managed I swim when my interpretation of certain events leads me to waters that are over my head…

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