99%

communicate: the transfer of ideas and information really………………………about 99% of my verbiage serves little purpose other than to create noise like an animal letting others know of his presence thinking before speaking…………………………what a novel idea actually giving purpose and substance to my utterance we already have the ability to speak…

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how long have you been sitting on the bench?

try to go one hour without passing judgement on something or someone okay try and go a minute without making a judgement………………….you might make a minute if you really try my point : it’s not easy………………..as humans we are constantly comparing, sorting and labeling………………..that’s what we do………………………and what it does…

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wishing vs. doing

there is no potential in wishing……………………………………….. but endless opportunities in doing……………………………………. the end result in looking is finding……………………………………may not be what you were looking for but along the way there are many doors……………………………open one

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Horace

Horace soared toward the sky by the edge of a beautiful meadow. a meandering river passed nearby and offered its’ sweet water often. He longed to roam the fields with the other creatures or to fly over the earth with the sparrows instead of being pegged to the earth, confined…

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ed

a bit of food gathers at the edge of his mouth, mrs. dixon passes  in the hallway, smiles and gestures to her mouth, he gets the message and says thanks / old people have to stick together and watch out for each other if he were five years younger he…

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don’t color me

don’t define me by the color of my skin i am so much more than that, not a good place to begin i didn’t choose my color, it was out of my control i accept what i am, don’t put me in a mould my color doesn’t dictate that i…

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grandma Ellis

lay down dear woman, it’s time for you to rest your memories will keep working as though you never left you will be our hero, for your courage and wisdom til the end you shall keep on living, for kindness knows no end   what a gift you were

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journal

write it down , stake a claim where you are use it as a reference to check if you are headed in the right direction like a compass to confirm what you think you know as opposed to what you know the most powerful words a learner can say ”i…

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the bully is back

the bully is back and full of caffeine he’s on a roll don’t get stuck in between he’s always right so don’t bother to reply he got all the answers for you and i he can’t understand why he doesn’t have more  friends the ones he connects with are just…

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this year’s model/ izzy

this year’s model walks into a meeting with iz………….and he’s almost jogging to keep up she sends him for coffee and he returns only to be sent back for more cream………… she’s still got most of her looks and she is impressive until you watch her work, watch her game…

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metamorphosis

she’s changing my idea of love in ways i have never known before, with eyes i have never seen before, with arms i have never held before she’s changing my thoughts of love i’m giving what i couldn’t give before, i’m finding what i have been searching for, i’m sharing…

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sanctuary

gathering twigs and small branches, i listen to the night sounds as i go about my evenings work. at one time i got into the habit of collecting large reserves of kindling for the evening fire, however it wasn’t long before i missed the sounds of the night and the…

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bits and pieces/3

there are no small acts of kindness no such thing as a little lie…………………….give it time it will grow impossible to be honest with yourself and please everyone, won’t happen don’t go out of your way to criticize someone, go out of your way to help someone i’m just sayin’

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Gods’ coloring book

sit still……………….you look like a dalmatian searching for spots………..relax you’re in Texas now, think big those colored pencils, did you bother to sharpen them? Hell , I know you did/ did i say hell/ but when the points broke, you threw them away, what a waste…………………..I’m gonna lend you a…

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treasure

if you want to see what I have given to thee you have to be still and look clear your mind, whatever is troubling you will be fine, you can pick it up later if you wish the glorious beauty of a simple flower escapes many and it costs you…

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Pappa/JB

gone…………………………….nah………………………i sense your presence all the time forgotten……………………………..oh hell no……………………..one, only one JB my friends loved coming over to watch us spar and you spar with them nothing aloof about our family, and that’s what they loved, the barbs and the jests…………………………you were always on we butted heads like mountain…

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smaller steps

so this age thing, it’s only bad if you fight it otherwise, it’s like having a private library, to remember, embrace, accept and learn that’s what life is……………………………….a learning experience, marked by lessons along the way you can even get to a place where you drop the label’s of good…

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sparrow

sometimes this world is so absurd i wish i were a little bird fly away to a distant tree where no one would think to look for me ride the shifting winds begin life all over again sometimes i wish i were a little bird, tweet this too shall pass…

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leslie/ ” broken toy”

with these pills i wed myself to a life of certain destruction and chaos little to no concern for others or how my addiction effects them i choose not to face the issues in my life, you deal with them and look after me i have a right to be…

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outta control

i write this clog, to shed light on one man’s recovery, helping myself by telling on myself and hoping somehow, someone else may find it helpful…………that’s it i have no illusion that i have the answers for me, let alone anyone else                …

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me first

say it, me first, me first, me first………………………………sounds comforting after about 5 times………………………after 10 it makes me nauseous the reason it sounds comforting is because we have all said in the course of our life and meant it hopefully you stopped after the age of 5 and haven’t continued……………………..hopefully my…

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vending machine God

God is not your vending machine but He will give you what you want sometimes so you can see how absurd your request was never fails: most of us don’t know what we want, what we need or what is best for us……………………..but we think we do……………….that’s where the trouble…

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look before you leap

l…b…y…l is it worth the risk you’re about to take it’s a long way down  and and you can’t turn around l….b…..y….l are your eyes open wide, is your heart making this dive never hurts to ask a friend what they think l….b….y…..l have you thought this through, is it…

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ostrich

just because you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it isn’t there do your best to ignore it, it’s not going anywhere what you don’t face up to, is like pretending the hole in the boat is not that big it’s all about fear………………………..not sure what to do you turn away……………..but…

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2 steps away

on any given day i am 2 steps away, from behaving like a child, or behaving like an adult there have been many times in my life that i acted like a child and should have acted like an adult                    …

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advanced studies on a bench

often the best educational experiences i have had the pleasure of participating in were of the bench variety…………………………………..sitting in a park or the woods and just being……………………………..without trying to be anything,think anything or compose anything…………………………………..this is the best procedure for me: sit turn off be still wait something will come,…

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the rat that ate your lunch

some days the atoms revolt , they just get tired of going around in circles and they get crazy, it’s going to happen…….on those days they are ”free” radicals doesn’t matter how well you think you have it together, it’s going to happen so you try not to throw anymore…

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garden /desert………………. for d.m.

impossible to deny the presence of love/ two giving it their best shot of keeping their affections under wraps                   but it comes oozing out like peanut butter in a pb&j          your friends make faces, raised eyebrows and…

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the one i let slip away/ afraid to love……………………for Scott G.

fear of my own frailty, i was never strong enough to reach out to you i will always remember you, the little one who wouldn’t give up the little one whose eyes were as deep as the trials behind him the little one i never knew, the one i could…

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gateway drugs

arrogance…………………………………don’t you know who i am selfishness………………………….how is this going to affect me resentments……………………………….you probably have never done anything like that fear…………………………………….not having the courage to find out all the information and filling in the blanks with misconceptions revenge………………………………….you did that on purpose………..maybe….maybe not………i’ll get you back by tormenting myself…

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