100 words

say we each have an allotment of 1,000,000 words when we enter this world…………. and you live you life. you got kinda old but you really weren’t  feeling all that bad and you get an email for the ”Chief Timekeeper” that you are down to you last hundred words before…

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black and white

let’s start with me……………………..i am classified as white and i’m not white, reddish brown but not white most of my friends that are classified as black aren’t black, from olive to various shades of brown my black friends are Africans………………………………………….. so……………………………………. what the hell are we doing still referring to…

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robertson shaw/ cracking the safe

it doesn’t matter now, that was his name………………..his family wouldn’t dispute a word of this anyway this is called ”cracking the safe”/ for r.s. a bastard………………………., nothing good to say about anyone or anything everyone has had or will have an r.s., in their life, most of us will put them…

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j.b.

my old man,dad, father…………………………..and he was all these at different times depending on what his middle son, me, did to provoke the living sh..t outta him i can say at 63 that he did the best he could for me and my brothers. given what i know now and being…

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the little things add up

think you know someone…………..okay want to understand that person on a different level? take time to notice the manner in which they do common place things eat………………..do they enjoy food or just eating to stay alive drink……………the length of time they hydrate may give you insight as to how long…

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make ’em count

i saw that walter becker died, half of steely dan wonder how many of us get up and know that today is our last day on this plane? some, few, none……………………….i don’t know so how does one continue to remind himself or herself to make the most of everyday? do…

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prisoner of ”self”

the hardest time you will ever do is in the prison of ”self” you did the crime, you assign time, you sit in the cell by yourself ”self” will keep you alive, but if you aren’t careful it will takeover your life, until there is little room for anyone else…

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looking for you/have you seen kenny

brother, i need to know where you are, how you are just like i hope you would do for me, if it’s been awhile i need to know you’re allright a bond is formed, we cannot see, stretches form you and it stretches to me  and we are connected because…

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the right amount/finding balance

everyone is faced with the eternal quest, finding balance in life you start with the things you have to do and work out from there most of us are not situated that our financial responsibilities are taken care of; so we work……………………some are fortunate to love what they do, some…

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learning

learning is like water, you never know where it will flow nothing we learn affects one thing finding what is under one stone, begs one to turn over another new thoughts are like a crackling fire, they warm  and inspire  discovery has no do’s or don’ts, nor protocol  when we…

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second chance

God knows we are human, takes us awhile to learn the dance, we step on so many toes…………………………..           He knows……………………….were gonna need a second chance don’t get me wrong, He wants us to give it our best shot, sometimes we get it right the first…

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can’t be done

hey, tightwad want to have some fun?     try out giving God this is a test……………………………………………….your in initial investment is $10 carry  ten 1 dollar bills , a challenge in itself for me because i never carry cash,  the people you encounter at the convenient stores, holding signs in…

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prison of self

i went to prison today to visit a brother who lost his way and to my chagrin, i found i was more incarcerated than him  doesn’t matter where you are, walking down the street or looking through bars if your mind is twisted and your heart is empty than you…

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half christian, half ass

half christian, half ass quick to judgement, slow to forgive short on patience, long on fear quick to petition, slow responding to requests half christian, half ass make no mistake about it, i’m not an elevated class, i can get down in the mud with the best of them and…

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shrapnel: fragments of a bomb

fragments of a bomb, embedded in my skin not to much to debate about, get a pair of tweezers and jump right in and with each painful pull, i remind myself again: relationships are like  grenades…………………….harmless until you pull the pin old Ben told me when he was alive ”…

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perception

1 the trickle of water: a/ was enough to fill my cup, if i was patient b/made me long for loud torrents of rain c/started to weaken and stopped to a trickle 2 after reviewing my notes i realized… a/i had focused on areas that mirrored my own opinion b/i…

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cutting down the colortree

parents place their children under the colortree they point to the color that looks like me, i will pick this one now it belongs to me……………………. now i have been placed in a box,with others like me, because if your color is different ………………we are not the same, separate i…

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too busy giving thanks

God does things we don’t understand, like Texas, like Texas   to stop us in our tracks and make us turn around, like Texas, like Texas   nobody is talking about race, too busy giving thanks, in Texas, in Texas   God will do what He needs to do …………………..like…

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empty

when something is not filled or occupied……………………………………………. the tides of life will upend and turn us inside out and upside down i have never seen a person so spiritually fit, that they do not waver from time to time and question their faith……………………………don’t believe it will happen on this side…

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lucky dog

my name is lawrence drummond, most of my colleagues and friends call me L.D. i was a successful lawyer in this town and a successful drunk, who got sober some time ago and continues to be in total awe of the sober life…………how it has affected me, my family, my…

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who much is your word worth?

parable: the value of your word the obins were a simple people……………….after the great tumult, the day the rearrangement took place and everything that was in place as far as systems or currency were replaced by the value of ones’ word. so no one had to carry money, only a…

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bricklayers

the apprenticeship is over/we are both skilled masons/ able to demolish and construct walls instantly how easily we learn when we apply ourselves/ unfortunately we never learned how to build doorways…………………………………… for that we have paid dearly, we’re fired

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eraser

by now you know i am a very simple man i look at everyday things and supplant them into situations where they were never intended to be used………………………………………..so a little slanted or warped…….okay …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… looking at this pencil on my desk i notice it has been mauled, attacked by my…

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quiet power

took a long time for me to realize how much power is in my feet a lot more power than in my mouth people argue with words…………………….hard to argue with someone who isn’t there that power hurts no one………………………..threatens no one……………………….condemns no one has you ever noticed that unchallenged rants…

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Texas

sometimes the last thing we need /is the first thing we need sometimes the BIG GUY will throw something at us to shake us out of the misconception that we are in charge…………………………..if we don’t see that……………. when the water left thousands stranded on roofs, trees, bridges……………………no one was saying…

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healing myself through you/ for Pete H.

i had no idea what i was getting into and neither did you……………..you had that deer in the headlights look and i needed to get out of my head and help someone else get out of theirs……………………………..i grabbed you because i needed you as much as you needed me…………..you didn’t…

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3 minutes

that’s how much time i have before my fellow brother in recovery arrives so what i intend to do with this time is say ”thank-you”…………………..to all the people who have put up with my crap and stayed friends with me anyway to my family for trying their best to help…

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jarlisle

you saw you chance and you took hold you believed in a dream and never let go you did whatever needed to be done to keep the dream alive it’s one thing to have a dream, it’s another thing to live it you are an odd duck, but that’s why…

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extremely contagious/ for b.h.

i know a person who is extremely contagious if you want to be miserable you don’t want to be around him, he will ruin your attempts at self- pity or negativity he is the most giving person i know and he continues to be blessed in so many ways as…

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how to get out of a rut

pray, yeah, yeah…………………………………do it anyway what is your part?…………………………………hate that stop digging say ” it could be worse” 100 times…………………..use as needed write a gratitude list forgive someone………………………..and mean it go to a hospital or nursing home go visit someone who is sick count your fingers and toes……………………….20 % of…

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