where did we put that?

i know it’s here somewhere, i remember how it helped us overcome the ”great depression” you know the spirit that we are in this thing together so many factions……………………everybody is screaming ”  see me, hear me and do it my way” isn’t the sum supposed to be greater than it’s…

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hurricane

they said it would rain and the wind would blow but no one knew where it would go i guess sometimes the Lord don’t know what to do with this crew so he sends us a hardship to help us pull through when your neck high in water and you…

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dwell or accept

i heard the voice of a young man and his concern about the conduct of a person he barely knows his conclusions may be right on target but his concerns affect no one but him why, do all of us punish ourselves with angst over concerns we cannot change the…

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ass or asset ?

living consciously is a challenging prospect……………..but it is the only way to a great life imagine looking at every encounter throughout the day and making a determined effort to benefit everyone involved are you someone friends come to for strength and understanding………………..yes i am, sometimes friends don’t tread water in…

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that magic pill

there is a magic pill………………………….. it can cure all manor of sickness and ills it comes from a place deep within, likes a spring it flows and it has no end it seems to replenish itself again and again………………………..that magic pill is love stronger than steel and softer than fur,…

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a pothole in someone’s day

everyday is not going to be a stellar day you won’t feel you should be riding a float in a parade confetti and streamers won’t be flyin’ your way but you don’t have to be a pothole……………………….. in someone’s day this has been my m.o., and i’m not proud to…

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impossible to know……………….what you do not know………..until you live it

i will start with giving credit for that statement to David Jenkins……..a friend who tried to teach me but i was under the heavy influence of addiction for Amelia,CC, Cullen and Ian……………….my grandkids the most unwilling, uncooperative, don’t want any of this grandfather there ever was………………………….immediately went to ”we will…

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freedom

freedom isn’t free, takes a fair amount of work to get out of me if you want to be free, stop thinking so much…………………………just enjoy being pondering is a beautiful pastime, until it becomes consuming this is a simple axiom that perplexes me and does so until i accept it:…

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the part that’s missing

i just know it’s here somewhere, the little spacer that goes between thought and speech, a.k.a the ”pause button” mine is broken………………………..it’s like the transmission in my Yarus……………………….. it’s starting to slip and my ” pause button” allows things to slip out …………………………things that don’t need to be ” thought”…

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turning off the news

we’ll see how often my wife reads this blog.……………………… consumed with  things i have no control over for years…………………………….opinions about this……………creating dissent at home, with friends, at work…………….ridiculous enough…………………………….i believe in voting………………..don’t vote………don’t complain but the hours i have spent listening to hundreds of different self- serving slants on the…

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what is the message of your book

life : the ongoing narrative when it is ”all ” said…………………………………………..at least everything you are gonna say, what is the message of your book so far this is my message: you can do it your way, just remember everything has a price………your way can be expensive, mine was your message…

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100 words

say we each have an allotment of 1,000,000 words when we enter this world…………. and you live you life. you got kinda old but you really weren’t  feeling all that bad and you get an email for the ”Chief Timekeeper” that you are down to you last hundred words before…

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black and white

let’s start with me……………………..i am classified as white and i’m not white, reddish brown but not white most of my friends that are classified as black aren’t black, from olive to various shades of brown my black friends are Africans………………………………………….. so……………………………………. what the hell are we doing still referring to…

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robertson shaw/ cracking the safe

it doesn’t matter now, that was his name………………..his family wouldn’t dispute a word of this anyway this is called ”cracking the safe”/ for r.s. a bastard………………………., nothing good to say about anyone or anything everyone has had or will have an r.s., in their life, most of us will put them…

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j.b.

my old man,dad, father…………………………..and he was all these at different times depending on what his middle son, me, did to provoke the living sh..t outta him i can say at 63 that he did the best he could for me and my brothers. given what i know now and being…

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the little things add up

think you know someone…………..okay want to understand that person on a different level? take time to notice the manner in which they do common place things eat………………..do they enjoy food or just eating to stay alive drink……………the length of time they hydrate may give you insight as to how long…

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make ’em count

i saw that walter becker died, half of steely dan wonder how many of us get up and know that today is our last day on this plane? some, few, none……………………….i don’t know so how does one continue to remind himself or herself to make the most of everyday? do…

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prisoner of ”self”

the hardest time you will ever do is in the prison of ”self” you did the crime, you assign time, you sit in the cell by yourself ”self” will keep you alive, but if you aren’t careful it will takeover your life, until there is little room for anyone else…

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looking for you/have you seen kenny

brother, i need to know where you are, how you are just like i hope you would do for me, if it’s been awhile i need to know you’re allright a bond is formed, we cannot see, stretches form you and it stretches to me  and we are connected because…

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the right amount/finding balance

everyone is faced with the eternal quest, finding balance in life you start with the things you have to do and work out from there most of us are not situated that our financial responsibilities are taken care of; so we work……………………some are fortunate to love what they do, some…

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learning

learning is like water, you never know where it will flow nothing we learn affects one thing finding what is under one stone, begs one to turn over another new thoughts are like a crackling fire, they warm  and inspire  discovery has no do’s or don’ts, nor protocol  when we…

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second chance

God knows we are human, takes us awhile to learn the dance, we step on so many toes…………………………..           He knows……………………….were gonna need a second chance don’t get me wrong, He wants us to give it our best shot, sometimes we get it right the first…

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can’t be done

hey, tightwad want to have some fun?     try out giving God this is a test……………………………………………….your in initial investment is $10 carry  ten 1 dollar bills , a challenge in itself for me because i never carry cash,  the people you encounter at the convenient stores, holding signs in…

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prison of self

i went to prison today to visit a brother who lost his way and to my chagrin, i found i was more incarcerated than him  doesn’t matter where you are, walking down the street or looking through bars if your mind is twisted and your heart is empty than you…

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half christian, half ass

half christian, half ass quick to judgement, slow to forgive short on patience, long on fear quick to petition, slow responding to requests half christian, half ass make no mistake about it, i’m not an elevated class, i can get down in the mud with the best of them and…

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shrapnel: fragments of a bomb

fragments of a bomb, embedded in my skin not to much to debate about, get a pair of tweezers and jump right in and with each painful pull, i remind myself again: relationships are like  grenades…………………….harmless until you pull the pin old Ben told me when he was alive ”…

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perception

1 the trickle of water: a/ was enough to fill my cup, if i was patient b/made me long for loud torrents of rain c/started to weaken and stopped to a trickle 2 after reviewing my notes i realized… a/i had focused on areas that mirrored my own opinion b/i…

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cutting down the colortree

parents place their children under the colortree they point to the color that looks like me, i will pick this one now it belongs to me……………………. now i have been placed in a box,with others like me, because if your color is different ………………we are not the same, separate i…

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too busy giving thanks

God does things we don’t understand, like Texas, like Texas   to stop us in our tracks and make us turn around, like Texas, like Texas   nobody is talking about race, too busy giving thanks, in Texas, in Texas   God will do what He needs to do …………………..like…

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empty

when something is not filled or occupied……………………………………………. the tides of life will upend and turn us inside out and upside down i have never seen a person so spiritually fit, that they do not waver from time to time and question their faith……………………………don’t believe it will happen on this side…

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