still have you
if………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… the bottom drops out and i lose my job the doctor finds i have an incurable disease the house burns down i lose my friends and family i lose my way i find my way i become indigent the government takes my freedom ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. no matter what this world…
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ask yourself
i look around me…………………..i must be insane and i have the nerve…………………to complain two hands, two feet, two eyes getting weak nice warm house and comfortable seats two cars in the driveway and plenty to eat and i have the nerve ………………..to complain friends and family, most of whom i…
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wading through my fear
doesn’t seem to be a way out of here, i have looked everywhere the last thing i want to do, is the only choice i have wading through my fear i have no idea what i am stepping into,it has been years accumulating and i don’t have a clue, i’ve…
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the fair is always in town
the fair is in town, it’s not going away they found enough people who where willing to pay and as the tickets keep getting higher, the smart ones walk away but there will always be some that are willing to stay looking for that chance to see what they have…
Read Morethose little red dots
i guess it looks kinda stupid, but i put little red dots by my thumbs, as a reminder to stop…. to be aware of what i’m thinking and what my mouth is putting out and if it isn’t, kind and necessary then i need to ”stop” like the signs on the…
Read Moredelete this program
delete the program that tells you, you’re just human and you are bound to make mistakes and replace with a program that encourages you to be the best you can, realizing you will fall short sometimes can you see the difference…………..don’t start out with excuses………come on i am bound to…
Read Moredon’t let your thorn become a tree
along the way a thorn is stuck in your side and it hurts you get caught up in things and every attempt you make at removing is thwarted so you move along and you get used to the pain, it’s just there doesn’t keep you awake at night, just keeps…
Read Moreno way out
you lean back in the chair and listen to the sound of a car door shut you hear voices and you know someone is on the phone you glance around the room, for a good place to hide, nothing looks promising, so you let the thought slide the car doors…
Read Moreshort notice
life runs on short notice………………………..things happen and rarely are we prepared for them…………………………………we deal with them as best we can and hope something was gleaned from the last episode that will help us deal with the next often emotion gets in the way of knowledge and we swim around in…
Read Moreno place else to go
no place else to go when it feels like snow and there is no snow when the lights are low no matter how many lights you turn on when you klnda feel like hopping in the trash can, just for the ride words seem like sand and tumble out as…
Read Morepaint by numbers
paint by numbers was good as a child one could find order by following the system i am looking for that system for my life if it were just I…………….. and I were left alone perhaps the numbers would be easier to follow but people keep moving the numbers around…
Read Morehope he was right
a friend suggested that if one writes from the heart, the content will take care of itself …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. they are everywhere sitting their snares, hoping you are unaware they are trying to trap you how nice it would be if people would ” live and let live”, but it isn’t…
Read Morebill foster
bill foster is gone but he will never die, because i keep a piece of him close by my side and after these words, maybe you will understand why ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. I was the wild child growing up,stuck in the middle and I grew up tough prone to follow a hunch…
Read Morelet it pass through
hey, i got news for you if you are out there tryin’ to do right they will be gunnin’ for you sometimes it’s your family, people you meet old friends or people on the street but the bullets will be flying, that i can guarantee some will come in the form…
Read Morethe last child…………..won
two little boys were playing with toys and another entered the room they started to say and act as sometimes children do unkind remarks and words that send sparks that often ignite a fuse but the last child thought today i will avoid these sparks, for i have others things…
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days do not define me, my attitude does
Read MoreOff balance
woke up this morning and only one foot touched the floor It was apparent that I was out of sync and I clenched my teeth and accepted it entertained returning to bed but there were things that needed to be handled, so I did them, half-heartedly and a bit…
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almost the truth………………….is still a lie
almost the truth is still a lie…………………I’ve known you too long, I can see it in your eyes you think it’s better if you almost get there, just leave out the parts you would rather not share you’ll get most of the story, why are you upset, don’t see any…
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the gift…………that was taken away
life has so many twists and turns i wouldn’t suggest that i understand things that seem logical today tomorrow i find absurd i am indeed a work in progress i see no end in sight somewhere in the distance there remains that soft purple light i make no claims of…
Read Morewhat you’ve done for me
if i had the words to tell You what You have done for me there still wouldn’t be enough time to say everything i need to say best i can do is to try to live Your way, maybe someone else will see what has You have done for me…
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all i can do is pray /for Mayday
don’t get me wrong…………………i believe strongly in the power of prayer that means I put it in Gods’ hands, which means it now is on His terms and His timing i’m human and i want results now……………………just doesn’t work that way the patience to let God do His work on…
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what i do is more important than what i know
sometimes what we think gets in the way of what we should do let’s look at the list: opinions, generally formed with very little evidence judgment, it is so much less effort involved to judge than to understand we know what’s best…………………really look back at your track record and say…
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little dog
the puppy reminds me that sometimes i am like a little dog into everything that moves and running from one thing to the next expending so much energy to go no where sniffing and looking at things so fast i couldn’t possibly”see” what i am looking at the exuberance for…
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the destination
there is a special place…………………………………took some time to find i had to rid myself of all the clutter i had stuffed inside my mind clearing out and cleaning up allowed me to see………………..once i placed so much value to things that now mean little to me part of that comes…
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picture not a puzzle
quietly we go about His work, with gladness in our heart there are no words to say, the work will do it’s part professing what the lord has done, for each of us…………quietly ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………i was under the impression that my mission was to find the pieces to the ”puzzle” of…
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the ”Quad”
the Holy Trinity came to me and I asked if this group was just about three and they said it was open to all, but few ever had the nerve or ventured to call so I said, ”my credentials aren’t that good as you well know, and on many of…
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if you say so
it’s not my problem, it’s not my fault, they made a choice and that’s just tough, not everyone is going to get what they want if you say so this shouldn’t have happened, they were told to watch out, i don’t care if they bitch or shout, if they were…
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leaving the game
I’m leaving the game after all this time, I had a good run and my legacy is fine I tried to help younger players to see we were just passing through and that’ s all it would ever be you make the rules up as you go and they change…
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