no mas

you know where the buttons are …………………….i let you install them   and i see how easily it is to control me because you know my emotions will always do me in   but i’m tired and i have only myself to blame………………i’ve hired a crew to come in today…

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no substitutes

after one has opened the door there is much to know and terrain to explore and i didn’t move to a distant shore, i turned my life over to You to You who created everything known and unknown, who sends messengers to direct me and lead to a life that…

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the wedding of sugarman

run, run , run, as fast as you can………………….hurry here i come again it isn’t hard for me to see i by far am my worst enemy often i like to think there are two, the one that wants to do right and the other that loose but in reality,…

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i need to ask

i have found out unpleasantly that what is said and seen i don’t always receive correctly so often i must ask for a pause to ask questions about what has transpired or it isn’t long before i find i have become entwined in a mire of confusion i don’t really…

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reflect

i don’t spend much time looking back, just enough time to keep intact a vivid memory of what my life would be without recovery i suggest all should do the same and take a fair look at what is and what could be and if one isn’t happy with the…

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the reckoning

having to admit that all my attempts at modification of your behavior have had the similar result of taking a thimble of water from the ocean in my mind i sit on he beach and reflect on how limited my power was within myself for so many years, and yet i…

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the great unknown/you are not alone : for lou

the great unknown hit close to home, visited a neighbor down the street we sat and talked and shared what we thought and i realized how important it is to give that would not be my first inclination, because this world is all about me but when i reach out to…

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hip-less

i laugh when i see people wearing things that look terrible on them, saying things that don’t seem right coming out of their mouth, like rehearsed lines repeating things that they obviously no little about……………………all in the name of being in or hip they don’t have a clue being hip…

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it’s here somewhere

something we once had has somehow slipped away maybe when we were focusing on our wants or fears it saw a chance to escape so i think that it may still be here, buried in a flower-pot or under a pile of magazines but it isn’t hard to recognize, it’s…

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the bridge

you will come to the bridge many times in your life and the choice is always up to you to go across to another place and start your life anew or perhaps stay where you are and see what can be done to turn ones’ life around if life has…

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”i’d love to but i can’t”

wouldn’t be unusual for me to step right into your crap, and them when i realize what a mess, i would rant and rave and stamp my feet and try to get out of it but time and pain have taught me things to avoid what i cannot accept, so…

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nirvana

nirvana is defined as the state of transcendence where there is neither suffering nor desire, nor sense of self………………………………lofty goal for me perhaps a more realistic goal is to be in charge of my emotions and not vice versa to pause before speaking to be humble and considerate placing others…

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shut it down

everyone has a factory that can roll out well made lies depending on the need the quota can sink or rise but you either get to a place where the demand exceeds capacity or you go along all tangled up and your life is one long extended misery so you…

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beggar/ for A. Tree

you walk around with your hand out and always in the victim mode because the world owes you something, not your fault you didn’t know the sky is always falling, especially in your backyard and you don’t seem to understand why people avoid you like the plague it would be a…

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inventory

the night is closing fast and i am fading with sun so i take a minute and reflect on how i spent my day i helped a friend early this morning get to a flight on time gave a neighbor a hand taking out her trash cooked a meal for…

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fishing

i guess i’m gonna have to let you off the hook to keep me from being caught doesn’t matter who’s right or wrong anger has its cost so to keep me from carrying a load which i don’t think is mine i’ll just let the issue go because everyone has…

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closer to me

i cannot get closer to you, without getting closer to me i can’t fulfill my part if i’m not sure what you need so i have to hear what makes your heart skip and what makes you bleed getting closer to you gets me closer to me making a commitment…

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for everyone

may you find comfort in the trails of this world, from God who loves everyone may you put away your fears and face a source of unwavering love, He is the God of everyone when the doubts of ones’ own heart takes the peace from the day, turn to Him…

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2 of you / 2 of me

there are are two of me and two of you, depending which of us are present will determine what we do the good one of us will do the best we can to give each other the benefit of a doubt and lend a helping hand the obstinate ones will…

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tomorrow is overrated

in typical human fashion we say tomorrow will be a better day meanwhile we don’t do what we could to make the day we are in to be the best it could be the problem with projecting it totally involves our plans,  and life is rarely considerate in regards to…

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going down

this boat is taking on water, but it doesn’t have me in a fix i’ve tried to bale it out before but it just springs more leaks i know i shouldn’t take it out but so often i forget, and find myself once again in the middle of the lake…

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it was courage

i spoke to a friend and she shared a test, and i was amazed at how she presented it she passed the information and she never flinched, her tone remained steady, calm and strong you see that’s how i gather my hope and strength, by watching others face life without…

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the land of tormented hearts

welcome to the land of broken hearts\ i mean tormented hearts we are running a special on the spring tour as you will witness the joy and exuberance of promises being made some with the honest intent of fulfillment, and most with the smallest thought given to what has been promised…

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grow up

singing or crying that’s how you roll God asked me to tell you its gotten pretty old you have all the proof you need that He’s in control before you start squawking remember to say a prayer get out-of-the-way and the path will be clear the sky isn’t falling and…

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crossing

i am crossing over the great divide that has kept me from serenity the fear of letting go has had me under its spell my hands are tired and as i ease my grip something is happening in my mind the notion that i knew the way is drifting away…

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pretty obvious to me

to God be the glory great things He has done over and over and over, every day, every hour and every minute not trying to convince anyone don’t believe, no problem………………………pray to something you don’t understand, don’t believe in, any way you want for 30 days, see what happens because…

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sum of many things

i walk by the river and listen to it sing ”you are the sum of many things” the trees and the breeze and the birds on the wing ”you are the sum of many things” grateful to feel a part of everything i see ”you are the sum of many…

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balance

see the man on the wire walking between the trees wonder how long he’s been doing it sorta reminds me of me i suppose that’s the challenge to try to get in between the undertow of life or the volcano that’s due to erupt any day finding a sense of…

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x-pharisee

i love to impose rules and laws as long as they don’t apply to me i see right through your jaded attempt to get me to believe but actually the problem is that i attempt to circumvent the true meaning of the text by pointing out the pebbles and oblivious…

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nothing to say

funny how nothing to say said it all was no use searching for words that would fit so i offered no verbiage and just bit my lip to offer my opinion would have been a waste of time no use talking to a made up mind but instead of helping…

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