rebirth day

my past is part of me and had a heavy hand in determining my present but recognizing the power of affirmation or the lack of it i see how my desire to be loved and needed as well as my desire not to be overly exposed has been in a…

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the God n me /the God n u

may the God n me see the God n u in everything we say and do when we are confused and life comes unglued may the God n me see the God n u we humans get confused, short on patience, shorter fuse if we can resist the temptation to…

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common ground

we’re not lost, don’t need to be found far as i can tell we stand on common ground i don’t really care about your politics, i would like to know your name we breathe the same air and rise to the same sun let’s put all this division aside and…

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we are always saying something

your walk, your facial expression, what you are thinking, your hands, your eyes are saying something long before you open your mouth the stage is set for you oration, you set it and most of us are unaware what we are saying i cannot come to you in confusion or…

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almost there, then what?

one day before my birthday, a thought crosses my mind about tomorrow, it’s almost here, then what? seems like i have been living and waiting all my life to get somewhere, and i am already here tomorrow may be my birthday, which at 64 is just another day and i…

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b the one

it only takes one to turn the tide to reach someone who is trying to hide to clear a path where hope can walk in give someone the chance to start over again only takes one who will give an ear and be an audience to someone who needs to…

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it’s called ”looking for God”

you have the best doctors in the world, you really do, but it seems use could use a little more help your wife is driving your son back to school, a 1,000 mile round trip and you want to protect them work is changing everyday and you are worried about…

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empty: holding pattern

empty: not filled depending on your attitude, which everything depends on ones’ attitude, can be a rough place or a new beginning grateful not to feel less than or down, just sorta level…………………………and that’s not a bad place don’t feel the necessity to hurry to the next place or start…

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crossroads

they seem to come and go don’t they the clock spins, the world rearranges itself and we protest, fume, accept and adjust not necessarily in that order i am at a point in my life, where i am questioning why i do the things i do what’s my motivation, my…

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other eyes

i must admit i cannot see most of the things that lie ahead of me so i must depend on a knowledgable friend that has that ability i often forget that i am ill-equipped to handle much of what comes my way but if i have the presence of mind…

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hey over here

artistic people do what they do, because they are compelled to doesn’t matter about applause, or cause, you just have to get it out so i’m over here, look if you dare, something could strike a nerve or pluck a heart string but it’s up to you what you do,…

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in the back of the drawer

in the back of the drawer is the stuff that has been kept but pushed aside most of it is worthless papers and coupons never used some of this is relevant enough to keep but never filed in its appropriate place …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. the aforementioned is also an accurate description of…

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stop

try it not as easy as you think sit down without thinking about the next thing you need to do dissolve into your chair and see how hard it is to relax on…………………always on the damn switch is hard to move because it’s been stuck in the ”on” position for…

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BOTTOM OF THE NINTH

i struck out again, when it comes to being controlled by my emotions i hear the train a comin’ and it’s rolling down the track, and before everyone can get out-of-the-way it knocks them on their backs doesn’t matter about the issue, it’s a common one that comes up frequently,…

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no mas

you know where the buttons are …………………….i let you install them   and i see how easily it is to control me because you know my emotions will always do me in   but i’m tired and i have only myself to blame………………i’ve hired a crew to come in today…

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no substitutes

after one has opened the door there is much to know and terrain to explore and i didn’t move to a distant shore, i turned my life over to You to You who created everything known and unknown, who sends messengers to direct me and lead to a life that…

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the wedding of sugarman

run, run , run, as fast as you can………………….hurry here i come again it isn’t hard for me to see i by far am my worst enemy often i like to think there are two, the one that wants to do right and the other that loose but in reality,…

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i need to ask

i have found out unpleasantly that what is said and seen i don’t always receive correctly so often i must ask for a pause to ask questions about what has transpired or it isn’t long before i find i have become entwined in a mire of confusion i don’t really…

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reflect

i don’t spend much time looking back, just enough time to keep intact a vivid memory of what my life would be without recovery i suggest all should do the same and take a fair look at what is and what could be and if one isn’t happy with the…

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the reckoning

having to admit that all my attempts at modification of your behavior have had the similar result of taking a thimble of water from the ocean in my mind i sit on he beach and reflect on how limited my power was within myself for so many years, and yet i…

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the great unknown/you are not alone : for lou

the great unknown hit close to home, visited a neighbor down the street we sat and talked and shared what we thought and i realized how important it is to give that would not be my first inclination, because this world is all about me but when i reach out to…

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hip-less

i laugh when i see people wearing things that look terrible on them, saying things that don’t seem right coming out of their mouth, like rehearsed lines repeating things that they obviously no little about……………………all in the name of being in or hip they don’t have a clue being hip…

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it’s here somewhere

something we once had has somehow slipped away maybe when we were focusing on our wants or fears it saw a chance to escape so i think that it may still be here, buried in a flower-pot or under a pile of magazines but it isn’t hard to recognize, it’s…

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the bridge

you will come to the bridge many times in your life and the choice is always up to you to go across to another place and start your life anew or perhaps stay where you are and see what can be done to turn ones’ life around if life has…

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”i’d love to but i can’t”

wouldn’t be unusual for me to step right into your crap, and them when i realize what a mess, i would rant and rave and stamp my feet and try to get out of it but time and pain have taught me things to avoid what i cannot accept, so…

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nirvana

nirvana is defined as the state of transcendence where there is neither suffering nor desire, nor sense of self………………………………lofty goal for me perhaps a more realistic goal is to be in charge of my emotions and not vice versa to pause before speaking to be humble and considerate placing others…

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shut it down

everyone has a factory that can roll out well made lies depending on the need the quota can sink or rise but you either get to a place where the demand exceeds capacity or you go along all tangled up and your life is one long extended misery so you…

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beggar/ for A. Tree

you walk around with your hand out and always in the victim mode because the world owes you something, not your fault you didn’t know the sky is always falling, especially in your backyard and you don’t seem to understand why people avoid you like the plague it would be a…

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inventory

the night is closing fast and i am fading with sun so i take a minute and reflect on how i spent my day i helped a friend early this morning get to a flight on time gave a neighbor a hand taking out her trash cooked a meal for…

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fishing

i guess i’m gonna have to let you off the hook to keep me from being caught doesn’t matter who’s right or wrong anger has its cost so to keep me from carrying a load which i don’t think is mine i’ll just let the issue go because everyone has…

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