rolling away
i pushed this ball up the hill for the first 50 years of my life sometimes when i stumbled it rolled back over me i would hem and haw, curse and complain, get myself together and start over again this process lasted for some time before it was evident to…
Read Morenot enough time/ for Molly
i didn’t say everything i wanted to say to you and i didn’t spend enough time getting to know you better i was aware that you made my friend very happy and he was quick to point out how his relationship with you had changed him for the better life…
Read Morethe circle
He gave it to me and i wanted to keep it greedy little child that i am shook His head and scolded me and said you need to learn how to share He said what i do for you let it pass through and let the circle continue to grow…
Read Morediscontented
sometimes the reasons escape us as to the way we act or feel i have spent countless hours looking for answers that aren’t there so often there are no apparent issues that would justify my demeanor i am human, well almost human…..and go through times when i am off kilter…
Read Moreas the smoke clears
this world had it’s way with me with its enticements and its thrills i would go to sleep each night wondering how i could earn its spoils then i saw men who had attained the pleasure that i sought troubled me even more for they appeared as though they were…
Read Morethis God thing
this God thing had me puzzled until i stopped trying to figure it out i drove out to the country and sat on a rock by a lake i tossed pebbles in the water and watched the ripples spread out until they disappeared i heard a soft voice behind me…
Read Morechallenged
this faith has gained me freedom from feet that have led me wrong broken chains that my mind had placed around a heart of stone examples i have plenty of A God that loves me so that has forgiven me the many times i have questioned what He showed Challenged…
Read Moreknow and do
sometimes i get confused and forget the difference between know and do sounds ridiculous but unfortunately often it is true all the knowledge in the world is akin to knowing how to swim and swimming the knowing won’t keep you afloat, the doing will keep you from drowning i probably…
Read Morei tickle me
i tickle me i must say the things i try to put away only to have them resurface again and again so when i get tired of trying to hide things i would rather not face i take them out and see what needs to be done i won’t do…
Read Moreright in front of you
so from these writings but a few will see the man this ”old goat” is trying to be a person people remember not for words he wrote but rather because he was ready to give his coat because everything i have was given to me and when i was ready…
Read Moredon’t kid yourself
there is a commonly held misconception that doing the right thing feels good laughable at best………………………… goes way beyond feeling…………..for as we have come to know feelings are often not factual so if we are looking for elation or gratification from doing what is right we will often be disappointed…
Read Morehistory repeats itself
what have i learned in these years i have stumbled across this earth? that history repeats itself, things we often find offensive we end up perpetuating ourselves is it that example was so indelible in our memories that it doomed us to repeat them? it has often been proven that…
Read Moreif you don’t know, you don’t want to know
there are always signs, but we don’t want to see them markers that point the direction we should go doesn’t matter how obvious they are if we don’t want to know you can plead ignorance if you want to, but we know it isn’t so you have chosen not to…
Read Moreout of place
often i feel out of place and it troubles me quite a bit no one wants to feel uneasy or out of step, but i do initially it bothers me, until i remember, it is supposed to be this way when you feel comfortable in this world, you are of…
Read Moreyour space
everyone needs a space they can call their own it may be anywhere, anyplace and it need not be private it just needs to provide the feeling of freedom and peace my space is my studio, my car, my cabin in the woods but i have found peace amongst the…
Read Morefacts are facts
facts are facts and yet how differently we react depending on our own personal agenda distortion is the ability to manipulate the truth to support your beliefs but if you look deep enough you can uncover the truth despite exhaustive attempts to hide it like a splinter it wants to…
Read Moredoesn’t take much
doesn’t take much for a little bump in the road to start the wagon weaving and you spill your load as you settle the horses and pick up the debris and old man’s saying comes hauntingly back to me: ”take your eye off the prize and forget how blessed you…
Read Moretime the sculptor
these lines on my face have been traced by the sculptor, time these white hairs that adorned my head have been changed by the seasons of time careful what you hold fast and true time will do a number on you things you steadfastly believed will drop like falling leaves…
Read Moremy back pages
a cross between the beginning and the end each day the world begins again i do my best not to give it my spin but accept it as it is everything is okay and sometimes i prefer events in one day over other days but either way i see, that…
Read Moresee what happens ?
try calling him brother, when you want to fight when tempers are stirred try doing what’s right and when emotions settle down look for the light it will show you the way it’s always there that little seed of hope but often it gets covered with rhetoric and fear so…
Read Morepractice turning
every so often it’s good to turn and see the wake we are leaving behind the rudder of our life is better off left in the hand of whatever power we believe is out there for me it is God, but i have no intention or inclination to push anything…
Read Moreat least use a gun
if you are going to rob me at least show me a gun, so everyone is clear what’s going on poor service and minimum enthusiasm was an indicator but you always hope for the best if i’m going to get screwed at least smile and be pleasant before you thrust…
Read Moremakes me sad
it makes me sad to watch people slip away to places they would never have gone till today and things that use to matter have been replaced with ”it not important anymore” values change but it’s hard to see them discarded situations begin to control the person because their will…
Read Morecurtain call
say today was the last day and the show came to the end you are ushered to the stage for the last curtain call are you happy to stand and wave to the hall or are the seats empty and you are alone and feel small either we took time…
Read Moretoo smart for your own good
why you’re so smart you cannot feel the touch of your spirit against your heel your mind has convinced you, you know the deal you’re so smart you cannot feel the education you received has lead you to believe that you are capable to sort the mysteries of this world…
Read Morei made a mistake
i made a mistake and before it’s too late i want to say i was wrong i didn’t have all the facts and was too impatient to check and assumed things that never happened so i refrain to use the word ”sorry” just doesn’t carry much weight i hope you…
Read Morethe string
i met a funny little man with a funny little smile he sat on a bench in a park where i walk my dogs and he was holding a book and was totally absorbed until Henri my dog sniffed his clothes startled he looked up and i apologized and the…
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