sparring with time

time and i get in the ring and i am aware of just one thing he could knock me out at anytime but he is aware that i will probably get a few licks in so we train together in mutual respect i do not try to deny his superiority…

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the canvas was blank

old friend i looked at you forlorn and weary helpless i was there for support, not advice i have no knowledge or experience with the loss of a spouse we have history and long friendship that afforded me this visit though i know many have tried to reach out to…

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rust

i run my hand down the iron rail the oxidized metal turning my hand orange and i wonder how long its been here they say energy goes on forever, mine seems like its gone somewhere so we are all oxidizing as we speak and the wheel of time is slowly…

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dinner at MADELYNES/until today

un t unti unti until to until today until today today was Mags birthday……………………60 Frank her late husband dead almost 5 years…………………………Tommy their son 20 years, overdose she was sober for the last 18………………trying desperately to drink herself to death with moderate success………………..only to be kidnapped and taken to rehab…

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CAREFUL

careful where you place those mines you will walk this way again if you are like me it’s hard to remember when revenge is leading the way so the better half won out when i took a moment to reflect i played a part in the way things went down,…

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evolving

i am in rotation around myself as i look from different perspectives i see things i like and some not so much so with the slightest intention my rotation is altered occasionally severe adjustments are required, but rarely most of the desired effects are derived by focused thought followed by…

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the difference

the difference between men and women……………………can be summarized in one word spanX………………………..look it up if you don’t know what they are

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we pick our prisons

we pick our prisons……………………….. and dress them up trying to pretend that self imposed incarceration isn’t that bad because in our mind it is just as easy to build walls as it is to build bridges the problem is a small wall doesn’t protect us from the inconvenience of others…

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enlightenment

enlightenment is the end of illusion…………………………….ttucro

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a word is my bridge

words are bridges to places i want to go and things i want to know they inspire in me a force that longs to see and touch the old and new they are like a spiders web that can travel long distances undetected and yet span and connect, almost unseen…

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you never know

i once was a branch in a tree but lightening stuck and separated me i feel to the ground and animals trampled over me and i was discouraged about my fate and what was to become of me i had resigned to be washed by the rain and withered by…

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still a flower

time draws these lines upon our face but there is a place that it cannot reach deep inside our soul so that internal flame that makes us glow burns bright as long as we grow in wisdom and in days for it takes time to research a book and if…

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the rabbit hole

i have this special place where no no one else can go to take a break from the smiling face and just let everything go where there is no right, there is no wrong and everything can be like it is i can put the shovel down, there is nothing…

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the wise become fools

because i am lazy and filled with fear i often make choices that become quagmires so it is not by any natural inclination but of necessity that i seek and sometimes follow direction in these matters i sometimes fancy myself wise tempered by age and experience…………………….shortly thereafter to do some…

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cosmic banker

i used to ponder what my life would be like had i not made some of the decisions and taken some of the actions that i did i got a visit from the ”cosmic banker ” one evening when i was struggling to fall asleep he laughed,”i like to visit…

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are you in the Peace Corps

never really considered it, but things happen at certain times so up front i am telling you i am not always kind considerate and loving/ when my mood and opportunity coincide but i can be an animal when i speak and when i drive so before i leave today and…

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not a squirrel

not a little squirrel searching for food listening for something to come and devour me from the woods i pay attention to what’s going on but i am not constantly worried about impending harm i suppose that the difference between animals and us we gain knowledge that allows us to…

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my good intentions

my good intentions should be enough because i have no control over how people receive love and if i am attached to how something should end then i need to start at the beginning again my good intentions should be enough

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small feats

i take delight in experiencing things that age has allowed me to consider, experience and embrace doesn’t sound like much of an achievement, but i am able to sit and look out windows without feeling pulled, vexed or convinced i am wasting time i am enjoying time achievement isn’t always…

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thank-You

doesn’t seem big enough or deep enough or wide enough to cover what i want to say and i have ceased long ago debating if it is Allah, Power of the Universe or Yahweh but i know but one thing that never waivers within There is a God, who loves…

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take time……..or it will take you

take the time afforded you,squeeze it and let it dry wipe away the ugly things that keep beauty from your eyes you own this time but it isn’t free what you do with it will determine what kind of life you lead not suggesting to be in a hurry oh…

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warranty

warranty your life…………………………………………..focus on helping others ironclad protection policy

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WATCH WHERE YOU WALK/WATCH HOW YOU TALK

come now to this place in time be open and redefine, things that have lodged in your mind that are limiting and half-truths example 1 we walk with our hands, eyes and mind as well as our feet for long before our feet move the decision and direction have been…

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one thing in common

here’s an interesting thought: good an evil have one thing in common they both grow if you are unsure about a situation give it some time, won’t take long the fruits will speak for themselves evil produces evil and good produces good i like sure things……………….and that’s a sure thing…

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balance

stretch a rope between two poles make it taunt so it is not so hard to control pretend the two points are the beginning and the end and practice transversing it again and again life isn’t so different as you stumble and fall when you think you have it, you…

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control

funny thing about control, requires a lot of effort extracts quite a toll usually stems from fear and a desire to direct generally speaking life is never as bad as i think and more often better than i could have imagined the attempts of others to control me are met…

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L.E.M.

LITTLE EVIL MAN I CURSE THE GROUND THAT YOU WALK ON but i will pray for you EVERY CHANCE YOU GET YOU LOOK FOR WAYS TO TRIP AND MAKE OTHERS LESS THAN YOU but i will pray for you SOMETIMES WHEN YOU SPEAK I CAN SEE HOW YOU INTIMIDATE AND…

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price tag

what are we willing to pay to get and have our way to what extent will we go to be the director and star of the show ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… only to find that i was blind what i gave to have my way cost me more than i can say and…

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the big lie

we are encouraged to go and do, see and feel and we run ourselves crazy until that precious moment of clarity ”where in the hell have i been and what did i learn” one can experience many things and remain empty it is not what we experience……………..get this it is…

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watching dogs play

these lofty thoughts that i entertain cause me to wonder and sometimes pain but in spite of the notion that ”enlightenment” is near the truth is when i remember the basics i’m already there the small and simple things when i take time to reflect give me joy and astonishment…

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