the thief is me

took me awhile to see when i take from you, i take from me the things i do in defense don’t keep me safe they dig a trench and i’m the one who falls this modern approach to right and wrong would have us to believe there are various stages…

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let me go

let me go, i cannot stay, yesterday is gone, now go away you have this need to correct the past, but it like trying to paint a cat, they won’t hold still and you just make a mess let me go let me go and do productive things, helping someone…

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status

i would not dare say i could care less of what others think of me but i clearly have in my mind all those people do not lay their head on my pillow when i sleep it isn’t natural not to want to be liked, but everything we do or…

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my coffee God cold

i was feeling kinda crappy and reminded myself that feelings aren’t facts, feels better when i notice things in my behavior before someone else does i had a slight sinus headache and it has lingered for several days and went to a 12 step meeting and saw an old friend…

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what can we do about Mary

what oh what can we do about Mary, she’s getting closer to the grave everyday her husband has taken the children and she sits in the house and drinks all day the accident keeps her in money and she has the liquor delivered to her door she tried getting sober…

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God Infidelity

i ask earnestly if You would look after me then when the slightest ripple stirs the boat i begin to pray that it will float You have accomplished great things in my life showed when to walk, and when to fight somehow everything seems to work our right yet i’m…

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gold

i went by to see a friend found him digging in a hole i ask him what he was doing said he heard somewhere near this spot someone had found gold well i said and what would you do if this treasure you did find ”why i would build a…

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fewer words

i am a minimalist writer if i don’t leave any holes there’s no place for you to add your 2 cents laborious descriptions that do everything but brush your teeth are boring to me give me the concept, the idea and i’ll blow up the balloon simple and concise is…

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if you can’t stop/ you can’t go

on your mark, get set,……………………………… stop a continuous pursuit of an agenda, without reflection is a perfect plan for failure no one can be objective all the time, if we were we would be robots we have these feelings, assumptions and expectations that mar our view we see it, but…

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storms within/storms without

when my insides are in a spin storms without come from storms within pretty good actor, yes i am, but it’s almost impossible to hide, when i am dealing with tornadoes inside so in dealings with people who will remain in close proximity, i let them know what’s going on…

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firing Monday

i fired Monday because it was a pain in the ass always had an attitude and loved to pass gas surly and stubborn and i had had enough, so i told him my feelings and he needed to straighten up went better for a month or two and i asked…

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home

i will spin a yarn some won’t believe and some will pause and hope that it’s true because deep inside each of us is a desire to experience the magic and essence of life knew an old bloke who was a bum and lived in a group of trees learned…

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rule your emotions or they will rule you

hard thing for a grownup to sit alone and stew after an emotional bender has the whole family unglued his children keep their distance afraid to rile the tiger his wife has erected this wall with signs that read clearly ”come if you dare” he thinks about his Father and…

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intelligence:asset or ass

”impossible to know what you do not know” an old friend use to say sometimes i have let my intelligence get in my way not because i’m a mental giant but i like to be right and sometimes that may keep me from learning, what should be in plain sight…

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challenged but not handicapped

i have a friend who is mentally challenged in some respects, and a genius in his ability to get to the core of things and decipher the world around him i see him struggle with simple tasks and mesmerize me with his insight and discernment his awareness of his challenges…

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flexible

there was an old gator he was king of the swamp, did what he wanted and ate what he caught he was the menace of the island to be avoided at all costs, mean and surly on a good day and on a bad day he just stalked but time…

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walking through my minefields

good morning sun, good morning rain doesn’t matter it’s all the same the only weather that gets me concerned is the weather in my mind i’m older now coming round the bend and i must transverse where i have been and suffer the consequences of the forgotten mines that i…

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we teach what we learn

we teach what we learn, so pick what you wish to learn wisely the sum total of what i am can be traced to what i understand and that requires time and it’s a limited supply so when i put my hand to the plow, and turn the soil in…

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cherry picking the Bible

i like that part, works for me but some verses go against society i mean i want to do Gods will, but not if my friends won’t think i’m cool i’m not sure what others would think if i decided not to participate i can do this stuff when i…

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shouldn’t matter/spiritual duck

this is a note that will make you choke, so i suggest you take small bites how you treat me should have nothing to do with how i treat you i sing this song and some hum along ,that we are on this spiritual quest……………..and a sharp word from a…

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one for me/one for u

i sense there is some confusion and it should be plain to see i have one set of morals for you and a modified version for me you see i have certain standards that you simply must meet and of course i will try to do the same but after-all…

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bring it with you when you come/ for mdo and coa

no matter how hard we run, you and i know what’s been down it chases us everyday and it’s not going to go away this is going to take some time but i want to come out from behind this wall we have put in place to hide our shame…

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defining God/waste of time

i have spent my entire life trying to define God to define God would place parameters on and entity that is boundless the idea of leaving something open-ended is problematic to most of us we need a beginning and and end……………….in Gods’ case it isn’t going to happen the best…

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feelings: friend and foe, robber and giver

verse by Captain Beefheart ” CRAZY LITTLE THING, CRAZY LITTLE THING, HOW DID YOU MEET A THING, LIKE CRAZY LITTLE THING, JUST GONE CRAZY, JUST GONE CRAZY” couldn’t think of a better definition of feelings they can give such elation and joy and rake sandpaper over an open wound you…

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no hope of having a better past

trying to change the past is knowledge without wisdom akin to a pile of books on a donkeys ass, the knowledge is there but he doesn’t know what to do with it the past will only haunt you if you don’t learn from it otherwise it was a learning experience…

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the treasure chest/for Veri Abbey

you hold in your hand a treasure chest, that has stood the test of time and shines brighter than if it were filled with gold you have found that inner curiosity that all have inside, some choose to ignore it and others take the ride through lands far away where…

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so much has changed….. but I’m still the same

the essence of a man is very hard to suppress generally it is good and pure until we get our hands on it through self-deception and a drive to fit in, we become distorted and a shadow of where we began some can see it coming, an asteroid to the…

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like water

humans are like water taking the path of least resistance getting in tight places where they do damage evaporating when the heat gets to hot confronted with obstacles they go around easier to travel a little further than to deal with the problem at hand cool and refreshing until moving…

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keys to the kingdom

maybe it was in a blackout when i use to drink myself to sleep not really sure if it happened or not but it still feels real to me in a drunken stupor, this is something like the prayer i prayed ”You know this would go a lot easier for…

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the needle in the haystack

so it was presented to you that your life could be compared to a haystack your mission was to find your purpose by sifting through the hay to find the needle ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. about the age of 40 sitting on a plane to attend your Father’s funeral you realized there never…

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