one for me/one for u

i sense there is some confusion and it should be plain to see i have one set of morals for you and a modified version for me you see i have certain standards that you simply must meet and of course i will try to do the same but after-all…

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bring it with you when you come/ for mdo and coa

no matter how hard we run, you and i know what’s been down it chases us everyday and it’s not going to go away this is going to take some time but i want to come out from behind this wall we have put in place to hide our shame…

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defining God/waste of time

i have spent my entire life trying to define God to define God would place parameters on and entity that is boundless the idea of leaving something open-ended is problematic to most of us we need a beginning and and end……………….in Gods’ case it isn’t going to happen the best…

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feelings: friend and foe, robber and giver

verse by Captain Beefheart ” CRAZY LITTLE THING, CRAZY LITTLE THING, HOW DID YOU MEET A THING, LIKE CRAZY LITTLE THING, JUST GONE CRAZY, JUST GONE CRAZY” couldn’t think of a better definition of feelings they can give such elation and joy and rake sandpaper over an open wound you…

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no hope of having a better past

trying to change the past is knowledge without wisdom akin to a pile of books on a donkeys ass, the knowledge is there but he doesn’t know what to do with it the past will only haunt you if you don’t learn from it otherwise it was a learning experience…

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the treasure chest/for Veri Abbey

you hold in your hand a treasure chest, that has stood the test of time and shines brighter than if it were filled with gold you have found that inner curiosity that all have inside, some choose to ignore it and others take the ride through lands far away where…

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so much has changed….. but I’m still the same

the essence of a man is very hard to suppress generally it is good and pure until we get our hands on it through self-deception and a drive to fit in, we become distorted and a shadow of where we began some can see it coming, an asteroid to the…

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like water

humans are like water taking the path of least resistance getting in tight places where they do damage evaporating when the heat gets to hot confronted with obstacles they go around easier to travel a little further than to deal with the problem at hand cool and refreshing until moving…

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keys to the kingdom

maybe it was in a blackout when i use to drink myself to sleep not really sure if it happened or not but it still feels real to me in a drunken stupor, this is something like the prayer i prayed ”You know this would go a lot easier for…

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the needle in the haystack

so it was presented to you that your life could be compared to a haystack your mission was to find your purpose by sifting through the hay to find the needle ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. about the age of 40 sitting on a plane to attend your Father’s funeral you realized there never…

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best plan of attack: surrender

u pick up things as you go things you would have never thought to be so one thing i can guarantee, things rarely turn out like you think they should be i will share one with you to see if you agree i have always had a short fuse and…

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not many shopping days till Christmas

you better hurry with that kind of list to make sure you and yours get everything they need to exist can’t wear last year’s wardrobe what would people think [i can tell you what they think after 10 minutes of you running down your trials and tribulations because people are…

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catch and release

all those fish swimming around in your head net them and put them in a pen one by one take them out and look them in the eye ” i know you’re here and your swimming causes to much turbulence in my mind, so i prefer if you would find…

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diamonds come in many forms

i gave you a diamond that someone gave to me it has such a affect on my life i thought it might do the same for you but i quickly came to the conclusion that a treasure to me may not be a treasure to you we change from being…

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clouds

me thinks there is much more to clouds than tufts of suspended cotton balls i find it difficult to focus on what is in front of me when overhead is this marvelous, mysterious canopy shapes that trick me into constantly changing my mind as to what i see the currents…

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own it

may make you mad, might make you sad but it isn’t hard to see there are some who suffer through no fault of their own but there aren’t many handicaps and birth defects are something that are part of this world but many overcome enormous obstacles and lead a productive…

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boxes are coffins

with the best intentions we sort things out the occasion or motivation could be a move, death or split we determine what needs to go and what’s to be kept we cram it in a box and that’s the end of it stacked in a basement, attic or closet we…

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square pegs in round holes

you say i’m old fashion, don’t know a thing but brother you are disputing the natural order of things when we go against nature and expect to be blessed it isn’t going to happen, we have failed the test so when we decide times have changed and things evolve we…

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catching raindrops

life will give you the information you need but if you can’t be honest with yourself and implement what you learn go catch raindrops i am a spiritual giant when i am alone, approaching nirvana but upon re-entry into my everyday world, it is all i can do to keep…

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Billyfull

lucky me to have such a friend, where life is an adventure that never ends ever willing to stop and explore, everything the cosmos brings to his door i’ve heard him go on and on about a leaf’s journey as it became airborne how he described it as it tumbled…

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time, God’s Sandpaper

a life will include certain things and i am glad this is so sometimes fast and sometimes slow depending on how we grow we label things good and bad initially, then when we look back again it was just like it was supposed to be, the labels were a mistake…

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lip service

talk, talk, talk yak,yak,yak jammer so much gives me a heart attack we profess a faith and hang it back in the closet till next Sunday yo, they all all Sundays nice and fresh, no wrinkles or spots because it is rarely used first sign of rain and the sky…

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no more shoes

no more shoes you only have two feet and if you live to be a hundred let me repeat no more shoes i see a pattern hope you see it too everything in excess is the way you do and if a little is good that means more to you…

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scratching Gods’ Back

when one of my dogs need a little pet, they jump in my lap and i scratch Gods back i am of the group that believes God is everything so when i do for others, i do for Him God needs love that’s why we are here, to share His…

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find myself through you

i find myself through you, a different avenue takes me away from myself and gives me perspective your share your trials and i am not so different after all alone i am confused and overwhelmed with the constant bombardment of half-truths that i tell myself with others i see the…

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old but still His Child

i’m older now but often God will sit me on His knee, brush my hair and washes my face as He talks to me often He reminds me that He has been at this thing longer than i and it wouldn’t hurt if i asked more of His advice and…

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i sit in the darkness/ but i live in light

i sit in the darkness in the early morning, quiet and still, a good way to start my day but my day picks up a few notches as light begins to creep into the room the darkness soothes a tired mind that often gets to tight, and i unwind and…

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Hard to be Blind

it’s hard to be blind when your eyes work fine just not seeing what you want me to see i’m not convinced once we mend this fence the animals will stay in their stall i’m not going to pretend i’m on board with this plan, there seems to be a…

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[l]love [t]them [a]anyway

you have no right to talk to me that way l t a you lied to me about the money l t a how can i believe what you are saying is true l t a there are other ways to handle this l t a you don’t have to…

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when u find your feet

call me when you find your feet a word with you i wish to speak about someone we know showing signs they are about to go back into the abyss of their mind don’t know what we can do but we have seen this dip before together we can explore…

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