demolition

took some time for the work to begin because i wasn’t willing to accept where i am our internal GPS doesn’t lie but we have to believe what we find what i found was this; my opinions had built a wall so high and wide that it was impossible for…

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molting

comfortable not being comfortable, a new place for me they tell me it must be endured to achieve the change you seek allowing myself to be vulnerable, so i can set my demons free able to recognize and embrace, much to be learned and much to be released interesting that…

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our dog

your dog crapped in my yard, and i am not amused the thing that bothers me most of all i gave the dog to you……………………………our dog

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the mirror doesn’t lie………..but we do

the mirror often lies depending on what’s inside your mind for most of the time we have already determined what we will see takes a very honest, willing and balanced person to see the truth as opposed to preference i would prefer to gain a few inches in height as…

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done

ok you can pull the shades, i am done with today more appropriate wording is today is done with me with the first breath of the morning and you feel the razor’s edge better start prayin’ fast, cause you know you are going to be in for it the magic…

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jump on in/drowning in my mind

going to take all the restraint i have and all the patience you can send to make it through today had about all i could take and i am in overdrive now, so don’t be late jump on in and bring a float i’m taking on water fast and i’m…

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anger

anger is a tenacious vine that grows inside of me i have tried many times to irradiate this evil root but sometimes it hard to get to it’s source because i’ve found anger comes forth, when love has left my heart simple fact i dare not retract, ugly but it’s…

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pacifier

here, take your ”pacey” and go sit in the corner and whimper i get it, i would not be overjoyed either after a long day to come home to deal with little tasmanian devils aka ”grand-children”, but what do you expect when everyone hops at their little shrill voices but…

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the great hindrance of spirituality

the great hindrance of spirituality is waiting for great things to do when in reality there are so many small things that need to be done but our egos say there are more important issues to deal with in the culmination of achieving these small tasks we glean knowledge and…

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growing down

growing down and stepping off have enabled me to see much of which i have learned thus far is of little importance to me so busy with the emphasis of always getting ahead so much was lost in busyness i’m having to retrace where i’ve been the photographs my mind…

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stop listening and hear

the words register in your mind, but never make it to your heart until they make that journey, you will continue to listen but you will never learn, stop listening and hear

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sit boo-boo sit, stay boo-boo stay

sit and stay, try to relax, don’t be looking for answers or tasks what you need and what you need to do, are all right here in front of you so if you settle down and let you mind take a break, there are gonna be far less mistakes sit…

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some days i hate being a Christian/but not for long

some days i hate being a Christian, when acting out would make me feel better in the short term when i could just tell everyone what i think and where they can put it, and i have done just that, only to find my feelings weren’t factual………………………i have half the…

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to do hard things/for C.,P.,and Fiddle

to do hard things is where the ”gold” is found in life to feel pain increase rather than decrease even though you know what you are doing is right to have emotion burst forth that is impossible to contain, caring little what others may think to wear the hollow eyes…

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this too shall pass

”this too shall pass” i hear you say but not fast enough, make it go away your just fretting because you keep failing these tests your emotions keep you from doing your best and you are stuck having to clean up the mess, ”oh, yeah, this too shall pass”, i…

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you won the battle, but you lost me/for mister hampton

you got what you wanted, you got me to break, to you that’s like getting a chocolate cake…………………………………………………………the fact is everything has a price and now i choose to cut you out of my life…………………………past the point of forgive and forget we are getting closer to letting her rip that…

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plato loved

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh one of those early morning lectures, at the assembly square and plato was speaking, so it was going to be packed yeah, yeah everyone knew he was the ”snik”,hebrew term for dung, but he had something else going for him, he was humble and generally a quiet low key…

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a very simple code

i had the pleasure of working with a friends’ grandfather for a few days, he needed help baling hay it was hard work and at the end of the day we sat on the porch drinking ice tea he said, ”there is a theory i hold near to my heart…

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empty quiver

no more arrows in my quiver, i tied them in a tree now i watch them when the wind blows and they are a reminder to me i don’t need them, there’s no one left to shoot, everything i blamed on them turned out to be my fault get rid…

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recovery

mention the word recovery and generally everyone thinks of drugs or alcohol……………………..laughable news for people in recovery[like me] and outside of recovery, if your are an adult you are in recovery from something otherwise you had the perfect childhood, the perfect parents and your life has been like riding and…

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make sure it’s worth finding

i knew when i first met you………………….you were on a mission and i admired your dedication………..i respect people that have a destination and don’t appear to be drifting to and fro wherever the wind blows so because of a similar affiliation we started a relation and i wonder if what…

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empty cup

hard to give from an empty cup not that hard to fill it up stop always putting yourself first then you will have more than enough the secret is to give of what you are given that is the formula for a life worth living no excuse it not hard…

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bookmarks

don’t fix that crack i remember that,every time i see it i look back and revisit that time long ago and it brings back memories that i don’t want to let go that little crack in the window isn’t hurting a thing, cold air doesn’t get through it nor does…

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look around and get found

sometimes we just have to look around and get ourselves found get back on track and get a reality check of all the things we tend to forget feet where hurting walking downtown and i saw a man that had no legs and i change my tune then on i…

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awakening

the mystery i seek was always near, but i kept looking over there my journey has been greatly reduced when there is so much to see and feel in front of me i chuckle when i think about the countless hours i have spent researching how to get over there,…

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pauper

paupers aren’t afraid to beg, that is their last thread of hope not ashamed to hit their knees and grovel in the dirt when there’s no apparent answer to meet calamity the best posture one could take is to be a pauper just like me when time and circumstance have…

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you can reach me now

i look at a photograph taken years ago my Father sits in my backyard holding a cat we loved i suppose he was in his seventies with only a few years left to live, what i would give to be there again listening to what he says there are no…

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the stillness of the morning

in the stillness of the morning, in quiet solitude, that’s where i find my Lord walking in the dew i catch up to walk beside him and my presence is acknowledged by the smile on his face sometime words are spoken and often just relayed the message is always the…

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the space between

i have heard it described but was hard for me to believe that finding this space was an option to me but the space between thoughts is a place of ”no mind” and there is where the peace i was looking for can be found when the chatter and clutter…

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drag to b u./for tin man

must be a drag to b u that’s kind of obvious by the things you say and do which are attempts to make others are miserable as you the only way one can change is to admit there is something strange in their actions and attitude far as i can…

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