learning to sit still at the barber

i’ve had a hard time ever since i was young, sitting still at the barber until he was down and the reality even today, i have a hard time sitting still watching things change and some of it is lack of control and most of it is fear i tried…

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lost dog

lost dog if i could make you wait……..sit right here and i will fix you a plate…….and the people who miss you will come back around and you will be safe when it’s time to be found you’re no different then how i have behaved, you want to run off…

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”walkie talkie”/for jim goodwin

i have a friend he’s a little offbeat but people listen when he speaks…..because what he says in his talk is backed up by the way he walks i gave him his name years ago when i was trying to get sober with no place to go…….he said i got…

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write yourself a note

write yourself a note, seems like a funny thing to do to remind yourself how good God has been to you and if you don’t believe in God then your already screwed, because that would mean you think He is you i have played the God Role for bits here…

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stop lying to yourself

you can’t get help……………………………until you stop lying to yourself……………….you can lie to me and that’s drag, but more than that what makes me sad, after everything we have been through…………….you’re still lying to me and you’re lying to you when we get so twisted up that the lies we say…

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your not the only one

just a reminder, didn’t want you to forget, a relapse happens long before you slip so i thought i would remind you before you fall you’re not the only one God answers when they call your connection is no better than mine…… but sometimes my attentiveness leaves a lot to…

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the hungry rat

the hungry rat plans his attack after he smells the cheese, he doesn’t really need it, his cupboards are filled to the brim but he has gotten greedy and not it is a part of him heavy rains caused a flood that trampled his neighborhood, his home was situated in…

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3 n 1

the nest is upset…………. the nest is upset because i let you win, but i can start over again………………..remembering that i don’t work for you…………..i work for God in what i say and what i do, you can think you are in charge and that’s okay, but from this day…

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fired and hired

i can’t work for him anymore…….. so i guess i will go to work for You we don’t have the respect people need to do the best we can do so today i’m resigning from him and going to work for You still have to see him in the office…

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God loves us…..but don’t push it

Yes, He is kind, long-suffering, forgiving, gracious……….. but don’t push it don’t be the kid in the supermarket whose Mom says pick out a candy bar and he gets an attitude because he can’t pick two don’t push it you get a raise and it wasn’t what you expected…..it’s still…

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mine and ours

cleaning out the attic i reflect on past events, some so far away it’s hard to reflect……………..some as close as the skin on my hand………..i suppose the difference being the affect they had on this man i begin to notice a pattern and perhaps you can identify……..the things that were…

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your bible

you suggested i read the Bible and i did and still do but after awhile i realize i must be reading a different version than you when i pose questions about the difference you say, ” that was a long time ago and that’s not what they meant today” so…

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the battle that will never end

i have come to this place and it has proved impossible to refute, sometimes you win and sometimes you lose the only solace comes if we know we have done our best the battle rages between right and wrong…….often it is obscured and camouflaged, but it is there in varying…

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why would you ask?

why would you ask, when you don’t want to know, if i give you the answer you will label me a fraud don’t take my word, read it yourself, take that book you say you admire so much, down from the shelf, dust it off and read the words under…

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in strange ways

two little boys got out of two different cars and entered the forest to walk and explore they were inquisitive lads and they tarried to long…. one to observe a brook and the other a swan…… and where separated from their mothers and dads the parents noticed they were not…

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if…..this was the last post,you never know

if this were the last note i write it is going to be centered around hope, love and faith i know anything is possible with Gods’ help………………………………..that pretty much covers it i know love conquers all, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t going to take a few hits i know…

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i give you my sword

i give you my sword and here is the sheath, it is no longer of use to me……………………….an old lesson taught many years ago has taken hold over time my defense is compliance as long as you don’t attempt to sway my moral code…………….money, property…………material things are restored to me…

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i will talk, but you will have to find someone else if you want to argue

you can ask me anything and i will share what i have come to believe, but if you’re not okay with a different point of view, one of us should leave i don’t debate, we can share and leave it at that, i will respect your right to see things…

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”should have” met ”could”

”should have” was sulking in the park one day, sitting on a bench and complaining away, flailing his arms and stamping his feet, people moved away not sure what to think ”could” was taking his dog for a walk and when they passed ”should have ” he began to bark……………”could”…

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this ”light” of mine…

is about as bright as a ”d” battery three years old…….unless i pay the electric bill………………… which comes in the form of attention and obedience to the ”wizard of oz” whom i choose to call ”G” aka ”God” i have no power by myself, illusion to think i have so…

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it’s on me

if i don’t like how you are interacting with me and i don’t speak up then that’s on me i don’t need to shout, that closes my ears but i am responsible to make you aware if i assume that you should know, perhaps i am giving you the rope…

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don’t look for justice

don’t bother looking for justice……..it isn’t here, it’s in a kind touch, holding hands and shedding tears……and when the lamentations end, then justice gives strength to helping hands Justice is a business which we cannot acquire and the best we can hope for is when we remember, God is the…

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You Already Have

this morning as i fed my frogs, i took a moment to resolve a gladiola that was in repose and leaning far to much, causing it’s stem to stress, well it was just a mess so examining the best response i placed a stake near it’s base and it gave…

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made you look…….

over the years it has become aware to me, i might make you look, but i can’t make you see often that is very, very frustrating to me…..i can make you look but i can’t make you see there is always more than a passing glance can reveal and most…

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the karmanic monetary system

this system works in reverse of most economic systems, the premise is/ we only keep what we give away and if we take, not look for opportunities to help others we will always have more than enough try it, it cannot fail………….the universe is built on this axiom it is…

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mental plunger/prayer

it’s just a fact, no use to pretend, my mind gets constipated now and then so it’s now pretty easy for me to see, when crap is coming out of me so i humble myself consciously and hit my knees to pray sometimes if my diet has been rich in…

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together

i was to witness an amazing feat that occurred while on my porch swing….in a tree not far from me a mother bird cried frantically searching the limbs above, i spied a owl that eyed her nest…….the spring had brought her a new brood and she knew the owl eyed…

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fires of sorrow

i walk through the fires of sorrow, i will not change my gait i am to blame for starting them by not owning my mistakes to deviate from the assigned walk is the nature of man, but to repeat the same offense over and over again, a man is unwilling…

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boomerang /# 3

whooooom, right upside the head ……………………………………………………………………………………………….. i can’t trust you, because i can’t trust me so it really doesn’t matter what you say, because i’m going to twist it anyway when in doubt your always to blame, it’s so much easier than looking for the truth makes for a rough…

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fortune cookie #25

i would rather know a lot about a little then know a little about a lot

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