loss………but not total

it was there, but it slipped away where it went i cannot say does no good to sit and complain perhaps my carelessness is to blame it may be found, it might come back these are things i cannot project so rather than anticipate, i will go on through this…

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just a minute

wait a minute just to see, if what you were thinking is reality you know how we get when things are in a spin ,we twist and turn and what we think is real is not i’m not saying that you are wrong……….but few bad things have happened because i…

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hubris

you arrogance reminds me of the person i can be initially it made me bitter against you, but that has turned to pity the need to be the center and command the conversation and the show, disparately wanting to be notice and liked, those are feelings i have known noticing…

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draw the line……just don’t make it straight

draw the line just don’t make it straight, leave a little room for give and take, but if you don’t establish boundaries then when you need them, it’s too late………… so if certain things are unacceptable to you and you don’t reiterate them, then the fault lies with you people…

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Organon

these last few days are easier to accept, when i realize it took that experience to get what i got a new perspective of what is happening to me, i am getting older and younger each day so the setting of each sun has become an organon, to learn from…

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getting pass me/casting crowns

capable now of being willing to see, not what’s in my head but reality i get along much better and feel free, once i do what is necessary to get by me i wasn’t elated when i happened to see that most of my problems begin and end with me…

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two different places

old friend, i know it’s not you, it’s definitely me i have changed so much and your the same old guy you use to be but i couldn’t stay in that frame of mind…………..too much to learn and such a short time i wouldn’t trade places and neither would you,…

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servant

you shared with me about a position, where i would serve a King of course my initial response was that i wanted no part of this thing but i watched you as you lived your life ad you didn’t seem enslaved to me but just the opposite, vibrant, alive and…

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save myself from me

kinda makes me laugh at this reality i don’t need to worry about you…………….my hands are full watching out for me i am forever digging holes hoping to trap others only to stumble into them myself sometimes people are a nuisance……………..but me on other hand left unattended becomes a problem…

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not your job

it’s not your job, to see that i’m intact happy and comfortable in the setting at hand but sometimes i hate to admit, i expect you to perform miracles and that’s not part of your gig when i come together, with spouse, family or friends i have to remember that…

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feral

extremely happy to say that after the drugs and alcohol where put away what remained was the wild and crazy s.o.b. that i always was the fear of losing my identity was an excuse i used to keep from pursuing sobriety so a challenge was offered to me, find that…

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quarantine

the inner struggles of a man need not be manifested externally, but generally they are…………..due to lack of self control i am not suggesting to cover or bury underlying issues……..of course they need to be addressed and discussed with an appropriate person but a well regulated and conscious adult can…

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i’ll save You a seat

i will save You a seat next to me, because i hold on to Your promise You made to me when i made a decision to get on this bus, You said You would never leave me and You i could trust there have been times when i wasn’t sure…

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spiritual math

the equation says if i add these two, willingness and wisdom there is an unlimited amount of information and experience that i can encounter the teacher has cautioned me to be careful to understand the steps i am taking and to comprehend the logic therein knowing about………. pales compared to…

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don’t wait

faith is not waiting for the smoke to clear God will direct your feet and while the building is burning down, perhaps there is someone to save so to walk under the direction of the God we profess, is to step into the smoke by faith protected by the only…

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sharing your joy

so good to see the changes you have made you seem a little more confidence that you can pull this thing off i showed you where to put the cornerstone,just like someone showed me i had a hand in helping you stand and that’s all the accolades i need it…

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d…………..anger

hard to separate the two………………………but there it is there is no dispute, there is danger in anger and anger is often dangerous there is a place for anger………………………………a very small place with enormous consequences rarely is one grounded enough when anger is involved to accurately evaluate those possibilities anger is…

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blatherskite

each time i think i am qualified to give advice or thought i am reminded that this mind was twisted and untrustworthy for a very long time so i need to be on guard and constantly remind, unless i am letting God speak through me,you are talking to someone who…

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denouement

the fact that these series of events could have ended in such a great place amazes me to no end just goes to show,we never know how God will work things out everyone was delighted and perhaps enemies can find a path to be friends they have this set of…

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organon

so a novel idea was imparted to me stop looking at my past as something bereft and use it as an organon,look back and study………………and then move on i cannot dwell in my past, but only a fool never looks back to see patterns or fears that only with careful…

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the one thing i try to chain

there is one thing i try to chain for the good of everyone for when i let my tongue go without restraints we all suffer from the chaos that ensues so generally i am opposed to keeping things locked down, but judging form the pain i can cause, in this…

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the only weather that concerns me

i can weather any storm as long as i keep it external it is only when i internalize it that it becomes a problem as long as my center of gravity is maintained by being spiritually fit the external challenges are just situations and will work themselves out, and they…

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festoon

let us celebrate and decorate each day with kindness and love what better way to give thanks and say we are grateful for what we have for this and all our days are gifts to be cherished and shared we adorn the hearts of those we love with words that…

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makeover

everyday i entertain the notion of what to makeover today this old house in is need of constant repair, so i inspect the windows{eyes} and the door{heart} to see if there is damage that needs to be restored the garage{mind} has stored lots of things, some can be used and…

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fire eaters

so………i’m standing across the room watching, as the collision goes down, flames are reheated and tossed around but one thing in particular became apparent to me, you ate the fire instead of letting it be there was no resolution going to take place…….and one of you should have realized this…

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the way i roll

hope you will like me, but i won’t travel far from my chore beliefs to accommodate you or anyone else i won’t make a scene unless you push me, i will remove myself, if you continue to push…………..we at war there are 3 levels of my make-up and mindset non…

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polyglot

i mix the languages that i have learned depending on my surroundings grateful that my experience has granted me opportunities to interact with people in all sorts of places and in all levels of society my favorite types are those that are esteemed yet remain humble, very powerful and very…

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the channel

i came to find that i had built a damn around my heart, to protect it from this world the problem is that is not my job, because i’m a child of God my mission is to provide a path that allows Gods’ love to flow through me, sharing the…

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switch seats

if i trade seats with you, in my mind perhaps my perspective can change too to consider how it would be received, the communication i wish to trade when someones pauses to reflect on something shared or brought to light gives me the impression that they care about what they…

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put the mirror away

put the mirror away, you aren’t ready to see and face life on life’s terms and reality the best course of action ,which will take all the courage you can find will be to sit down and let your nerves unwind i am encouraged that you are willing to look,…

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