David aka ”Gill”

i see you standing on the hill looking out over the land the Goliath that you face is coming close at hand i do not see you tremble and a smile adorns your face some would say a facade, not so in your case i see you carefully select the…

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mine

”mine” as in ownership is a dangerous thing/ denotes we possess something that we aim to keep……..the problem with this thinking it restricts the flow of accepting and giving and letting things go everyone is different but many would agree things kept to myself quickly lose interest to me………for the…

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BIGGGGGGG and small

the coolest thing about the GOD i know, He can be BIG, and yet He can be so small. when i have a daunting task at hand, i pray hard and i feel His large hands, and when i and tired and i need a friend, He sits on the…

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tricks of the trade

only makes sense to share what we learn, so we should take turns sharing simple things we have found that make life easier as we walk this ground, we’ll just call them, ”tricks of the trade.” doesn’t really matter if you are old or young, we all feel better when…

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just depends

what we see just depends on what we have programmed or rammed into our head/funny how we can look at the same thing and see it so differently/what if clear eyes saw each thing as it is………without the trappings of what the program says so if i am willing to…

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duplicate

the man i wish to see when i look in the mirror………matches the man inside of me………… these men must reflect each other or there is conflict……………….. i have found that the man inside determines and constructs the outside man……………. i picture the man and his substance and i pray…

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”it will be okay”

”it will be okay,” i heard you say and it made me kinda mad/ but we lived through it and i have to admit i remember what you said it was me and my attitude that had an ax to grind, but we did what we could do and everything…

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room of many colors

that room at the end of the hall has taken on many hues and colors more than it’s painted walls would suggest……………..it serves to house quests and occasional strangers in need of a place to rest….. sometimes they are happy and sometimes their lives are a mess, and the room…

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TOO MANY FRIENDS?

I bet this is something you would never take the time to inspect, but from my perspective it makes a lot of sense……………if you want a meaningful friendship then one would expect…………you will need to invest time no problem…… on that we probably can agree, but the issue we run…

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spiritual diarrhea

you see, i have come to believe that everything that happens is a blessing to me when i need a reminder that my power is limited at best, i get experiences that remind me of this so as i am talking with a friend a bomb dropped from heaven into…

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guillotine

these first thoughts of the day are causing me to be cross/ i care not for the subject and i want them to get lost……………….so i lay my head willing beneath the blade up above and when i let the rope go…………..the blade will lope it off. i see you…

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heard what you said/ never spoke a word/ for sister Mary

i heard what you said, loud and clear, from the look on your face and the way you tossed your head.you never opened your mouth but your words covered the room, spoken by the fire in your eyes. i have to admit i never have received a clearer message since,…

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something tta/ to think about/119

what one is willing to do to resolve a disagreement or conflict in a relationship is determined by the value one places on that relationship worth a lot……..give a lot/ not good for all……………let it go

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to a point

i will bend and i will stretch to help you feel better about yourself, but just so you know………there are places and things…….. were i ain’t gonna go so please don’t read my willingness as a free pass to suit yourself, because if that’s the attitude you take…………………there will be…

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substitute/for me not u

when i have a negative thought about what you say or do, i substitute an arrow prayer, for me not really for you……………….for i cannot change your actions nor your attitude, but i can choose how it affects me by praying a blessing for you……………matters not who is right or…

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15 words

driving in my car /  a novel thought came to me  /what if i had 15 minutes and 15 words to leave my loved ones’ and humanity i would need to pray and ask God to pick them out, asking for His help with courage and with doubt ”choose wisely…

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miss J.B.

what do we know about the way things go/ looking back many lows were highs and many highs were low/ one thing that remains, although i never dreamed it would be so………………i miss my Dad his stubborness and his eccentric ways have infiltrated my life today and for all his…

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time out

i take myself into a ”time out” to keep life from living me/ because i have learned if i’m not careful life is controlling me……………….i an aware there are constraints on this plane as i go……………and i have no idea how much time is left and what i will experience…

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penumbra

i have my moments when i stand in the light and there are moments when the shadows rule the night…………….but i have no illusion about what’s wrong or right…………just my willingness to be honest with myself i have felt the warmth and seen the light and i know where to…

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insecure, ”made you look”

if i am insecure about me, i will need your scrutiny, and perhaps your stamp of approval would help me………………to feel better about my identity the need to be noticed is a definite sign that i’m not confidant about whom i am, and if i need you to authenticate me………………….that…

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hot poker in the eye/people pleaser

sure…………i’ll put that hot poker in my eye……………then i’ll get an attitude because i stepped aside from what i know to be true…………that i will go against myself to try and please you let’s see, how i shall cut off little pieces of me to try an accommodate you until…

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my fault

it’s my fault…………………..hate to admit/ but i’m in charge of the respect i get and it i don’t care how you are interacting with me/if i don’t call you on it, then that’s on me went on too long and it was my fault i should have called you on…

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belittle

when you are feeling tall and the need to make someone else small/ the only one that loses statue and height is the one who tries to slight/ and when you feel the urge to stomp go outside and have a romp because when you have the need to make…

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we don’t know

we don’t know so we interject because we think we have a clue about what the Earth is supposed to do/ we look from a standpoint of a few chosen years and we are up in arms because we can’t see clear when you think you know how the Earth…

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home plate

i firmly stand on my home plate, the living word of God. i take the bat and the tools He provides and watch as the world throws the pitch. i can choose when to engage and when to let it’s offers pass, i need not swing at every pitch, some…

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keepsakes

family passes on their reality and there may be a problem from the start, because unfortunately often that depends on what’s in their heart so as one gets older it would be wise to look at the family keepsakes and see what’s worth keeping and what to let slide what we…

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lesser of two evils

how many times have you made such a statement, i know i have hundreds but who are we kidding………still isn’t right, just less wrong we are shortcut people always looking for an easier softer way which turns out to be neither the lesser of two evils will still get you…

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the ”key” to me

behind the person that you see, deep inside is the ”real me” layers of adopted pain and misdirected attempts to pass on limiting family values, all families have them, have discolored and muted the original tones as an adult i get the opportunity to identify those distortions and dispel them…

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pass on through

you need not catch all the garbage that is thrown at you/step aside and let it pass though/don’t stop to ask questions about things that aren’t good for you/knowing the details will only make you confused/step aside and let it pass through when the hand grenades have been thrown don’t…

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write it down

you will find your thoughts take on a different sound, when you take the time to write them down/some will take shape and some will fall down/ some will rise and others slither to the ground/ but they take on a new life or death because now they have sound…

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