substitute/for me not u

when i have a negative thought about what you say or do, i substitute an arrow prayer, for me not really for you……………….for i cannot change your actions nor your attitude, but i can choose how it affects me by praying a blessing for you……………matters not who is right or…

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15 words

driving in my car /  a novel thought came to me  /what if i had 15 minutes and 15 words to leave my loved ones’ and humanity i would need to pray and ask God to pick them out, asking for His help with courage and with doubt ”choose wisely…

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miss J.B.

what do we know about the way things go/ looking back many lows were highs and many highs were low/ one thing that remains, although i never dreamed it would be so………………i miss my Dad his stubborness and his eccentric ways have infiltrated my life today and for all his…

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time out

i take myself into a ”time out” to keep life from living me/ because i have learned if i’m not careful life is controlling me……………….i an aware there are constraints on this plane as i go……………and i have no idea how much time is left and what i will experience…

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penumbra

i have my moments when i stand in the light and there are moments when the shadows rule the night…………….but i have no illusion about what’s wrong or right…………just my willingness to be honest with myself i have felt the warmth and seen the light and i know where to…

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insecure, ”made you look”

if i am insecure about me, i will need your scrutiny, and perhaps your stamp of approval would help me………………to feel better about my identity the need to be noticed is a definite sign that i’m not confidant about whom i am, and if i need you to authenticate me………………….that…

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hot poker in the eye/people pleaser

sure…………i’ll put that hot poker in my eye……………then i’ll get an attitude because i stepped aside from what i know to be true…………that i will go against myself to try and please you let’s see, how i shall cut off little pieces of me to try an accommodate you until…

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my fault

it’s my fault…………………..hate to admit/ but i’m in charge of the respect i get and it i don’t care how you are interacting with me/if i don’t call you on it, then that’s on me went on too long and it was my fault i should have called you on…

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belittle

when you are feeling tall and the need to make someone else small/ the only one that loses statue and height is the one who tries to slight/ and when you feel the urge to stomp go outside and have a romp because when you have the need to make…

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we don’t know

we don’t know so we interject because we think we have a clue about what the Earth is supposed to do/ we look from a standpoint of a few chosen years and we are up in arms because we can’t see clear when you think you know how the Earth…

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home plate

i firmly stand on my home plate, the living word of God. i take the bat and the tools He provides and watch as the world throws the pitch. i can choose when to engage and when to let it’s offers pass, i need not swing at every pitch, some…

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keepsakes

family passes on their reality and there may be a problem from the start, because unfortunately often that depends on what’s in their heart so as one gets older it would be wise to look at the family keepsakes and see what’s worth keeping and what to let slide what we…

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lesser of two evils

how many times have you made such a statement, i know i have hundreds but who are we kidding………still isn’t right, just less wrong we are shortcut people always looking for an easier softer way which turns out to be neither the lesser of two evils will still get you…

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the ”key” to me

behind the person that you see, deep inside is the ”real me” layers of adopted pain and misdirected attempts to pass on limiting family values, all families have them, have discolored and muted the original tones as an adult i get the opportunity to identify those distortions and dispel them…

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pass on through

you need not catch all the garbage that is thrown at you/step aside and let it pass though/don’t stop to ask questions about things that aren’t good for you/knowing the details will only make you confused/step aside and let it pass through when the hand grenades have been thrown don’t…

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write it down

you will find your thoughts take on a different sound, when you take the time to write them down/some will take shape and some will fall down/ some will rise and others slither to the ground/ but they take on a new life or death because now they have sound…

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one oar

one oar will get you there but it isn’t a pleasant trip. meandering from shore to shore is about the gist of it. for all your efforts pull your boat off course, and by the time it is corrected you repeat the process over again. the whole experience is frustrating…

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looking beyond my prejudices

how many times have i been blind to the good work people where doing because i couldn’t, or rather wouldn’t, get past my own personal quirks the larger picture went unnoticed by me because i got hung up on something that was different then my usual methods or inclinations……….people are…

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warning lights

God, i know You know best and i’m sure it wasn’t an oversight/ it would have been nice if we came with some warning lights/when we get overheated and our brakes are starting to slip, a light on our head would have helped quite a bit/ my motor seems like…

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took me for granted

seems almost comical to me, that one could take oneself so flippantly, but i was doing things that weren’t good for me and did not lead to longevity so it would make sense that life and how it is lived has consequences and if you want them to be good…

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the great misnomer /”death”

some will say wishful thinking, from a thought of immortality, a fairy tale that never ends………………………………i will defer to the scientific thinkers, a group i do not call my own, that would suggest energy that is created continues in whatever manner……….either way if you don’t believe in heaven or afterlife logically…

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the Fire

the fire knows when you sleep, where you walk and what you eat…..the best time to creep into the crevice where you think you hide…..in the still dark hours of the night it licks your face and you sit upright, gazing at you at the foot of your bed, professing…

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might not want to hear

the best advice i ever got i did not want to hear, but the ring of truth was just to strong and it wouldn’t disappear. so i pull my pants up and swallowed my pride and faced the feelings that refused to hide. you stood by me and held my…

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live the Cross

i wear a cross around my neck to acknowledge my beliefs, but respect comes from how i live my life. these words i recant from daily readings are they spent by investing in the well being of others…………………do my hands and feet speak the same verbiage as my mouth. smart,…

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recheck

every once in a while it’s good to look back with a smile, check your tracks see the imprints you’ve made/can’t change what you have done but from your trials you can learn what to keep and what to let slip away. it’s easy to get lost, turned and tossed…

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delicious

i find this life delicious in the many flavors it presents, the smells and the aromas make it impossible to resist/ the fragrance and the colors offer a rainbow of delights and i can always try new things to add new dimensions to my life/something for every palette and the…

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keep it to yourself

if it won’t make a difference and it’s not going to help, do everyone a favor and keep it to yourself/ you may be right and everyone seems to be deaf, but if they don’t want to listen…………….keep it to yourself not suggesting to cower or run from a fight…

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skeptic/for ”Hasty”

you criticize my faith and call it make believe / you talk about your struggles and it seems absurd to me/ you have known me for some time but you just refuse to see/ that God continues to do things i cannot do for me what are you afraid of…

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the meditation

be still …………………..my friend…………………………..lets us begin…………………to come back to center………………………the power i seek…………………….also seeks me………to share in this communion………………………..so i quiet my mind……… giving the ”source” time to transmit the message……..i will be receiving …..                           …..     …

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you got my vote/for miss ”vicky”

you got my vote early on, when i heard your reasons for your song that encourages others to carry on…………..a walking candle is how you seem to me light of the soul that cannot be dimmed, even your hardship has been given a spin, that it had a purpose and…

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