I need you to look…… but don’t touch you see I was hurt once and I don’t want to let go of that precious pain you see it keeps me a victim and I feel safe in my sorrow so I want you to want me ….to obsess over me but please don’t touch…..you see…

Painful to admit you have the knowledge to alter feelings you would like dismiss but the application of that knowledge has been a stumbling block what is the logic behind hanging on to a resentment towards anyone or anything that is in one’s past? okay it a process….given…… but only you can determine how long…

You think you’re tough……. go jump out of an airplane when you’re scared of heights break a hip in a third world country…….ride 30 miles through the jungle in the back of a truck, get carried up a spiral staircase 3 feet above the railing catch a blood disease that was killing me till they…

A life without a faith…….. like trying to row a boat with one oar….. just keep going around in circles……. One oar ?

What do you want……. now what’s realistic……. because seeking things that are beyond your capacity to acquire them… like trying to fill a bucket with a thimble….. it can be done…..but you will grow weary from the process and quit….. that’s reality having to stretch your abilities to achieve is admirable……. But there are limits…

So now you have come to a place where you are in the last quarter……maybe you reason it’s past time to shed the baggage of the past and move forward but you can’t do it …… until you review it there are conditions that must be met to achieve freedom from the past they are…..…

I don’t believe in random occurrences I have sewn the remnants together to form a tapestry……that is still be added to what is the next thing….I don’t know that lack of information would have bothered me to no end ……at one time now it is a curiosity……but not a demand so it is quite an…

Some…….. get to a point where all the information and influences….are questioned deciding to strip down to the bare essentials to reconnect with who we are….. what we are…..and our feelings about life in general we can’t start over….. but we can determine what to continue to carry in our hearts and in our minds…

I have to reel myself in after taking the bait of ruminating and it isn’t long before I’m in the throng of determining what was right….and what was wrong I never realized that right and wrong change as life unfolds what was right for me at one point isn’t right for me now…..and vice versa…

Sometimes I wish I could forget the things that make me sad but it isn’t long before I dismiss those thoughts It should hurt to be vulnerable and be disappointed It should ruffle your feathers if your actions are harmful to others It is appropriate to feel uncomfortable with yourself when you lose control of…