Driving on the interstate I come up behind a load of chickens on their way to their demise….. the notion struck me in active addiction we are those birds… and we put ourselves in a cage shutting the door and locking it with hopelessness and despair then other birds who were once in our predicament…

They know me here…Patience Hospital this is easily my hundredth… okay my thousandth visit we go over the scenarios and role play and I do fine but this is a very orchestrated and structured program and my emotions rarely get twisted here but when I leave here….  My emotions are sitting in the car…… “can…

I knew I should have bit the bullet and gone ahead and paid a professional to do the lobotomy…. But as usual I was trying to save a buck….I can’t even find the receipt for the wire cutters so can’t return them…sometimes you just have to spend the money   almost David

P…. Said he found you asleep on the couch didn’t hear you come in…. Exhausted after another night of trauma from patients…..and staff he took a throw from the chair and covered you as he was about to turn off the light and go back to bed….. he grinned because a question he asked a…

It’s 3 o’clock in the morning……..been traveling so was kinda geared up went to Planet Fitness and caught a workout and drove to the next town to unwind sitting in a parking lot looking at the various plants or weeds on the hill in front of the van sometimes I wish I was more like…

Everyone needs a rest area a place to pull off the highway of life and decompress too many thoughts lead to a tangled knitting 🧶 ball we try to use as a brain 🧠 how many good things or thoughts could be realized by the direction of a tangled mess One Is in harmony when…

I had so many traps that hindered me no one to blame but myself In an effort to get along I gave away large pieces of myself never thought like this before this time out has allowed me to see When we go against ourselves I am lying to you and me People misconstrue an…

I thought I spread my wings when I was younger but I got caught in the riptide of other peoples lives I don’t blame them….    I blame myself I spent the majority of my life trying to be things I’m not But I’m off the ground now..    this bird is in flight don’t…

The stark truth.. the women my age are either knitting or going to a book club.. the women I’m attracted to ….  I could be their father Welcome to No Man’s Land almost david

I approached the direction of the van as just revisiting and remembering the events that took place here…… concerning two relationships leaving an A.A. meeting I inadvertently passed the home of a daughter of one of the participants….. thought about stopping but I know it would have been received poorly as still another futile attempt…