Damn that was close

I could hear it whizzing past my head

I’m trying to look for cover

seems my tracker is close

sees my every move

damn I got hit in the arm

surface wound…I cover it best I can with a bandanna

have to keep moving

another hit …. This one in the thigh

this isn’t good….. I’m losing a fair amount of blood

and my strength is going fast

I have to stop and put my belt around the wound

collapsing behind a boulder I’m a sitting duck

who is this pursuing me …… I’m struggling to maintain consciousness

I look down and I see the gun in my left hand and I sit it down beside me

time passes and I realize I went out for a bit

there are no more footsteps and no more shots

my Spirit sits beside me and whispering says

“ you are your worst enemy…… you did this to yourself…. And if you continue to self sabotage yourself by ignoring these patterns of delusional thinking….. you’ll pick the gun back up and load it with the bullets of defiance and you will never recover from the wounds of self destruction”

I had a moment of clarity and surrendered waving the bandanna as a signal….. as I stumbled along my wounds began to heal and I realize why they say

“half measures avail us nothing “

almost David