Spend the money..

I knew I should have bit the bullet and gone ahead and paid a professional to do the lobotomy…. But as usual I was trying to save a buck….I can’t even find the receipt for the wire cutters so can’t return them…sometimes you just have to spend the money   almost David

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The End of Desire…..end of pain

It’s 3 o’clock in the morning……..been traveling so was kinda geared up went to Planet Fitness and caught a workout and drove to the next town to unwind sitting in a parking lot looking at the various plants or weeds on the hill in front of the van sometimes I wish I was more like…

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Rest Area…..pull off

Everyone needs a rest area a place to pull off the highway of life and decompress too many thoughts lead to a tangled knitting 🧶 ball we try to use as a brain 🧠 how many good things or thoughts could be realized by the direction of a tangled mess One Is in harmony when…

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Almost David…….continued

I had so many traps that hindered me no one to blame but myself In an effort to get along I gave away large pieces of myself never thought like this before this time out has allowed me to see When we go against ourselves I am lying to you and me People misconstrue an…

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Should have.. would have..

I thought I spread my wings when I was younger but I got caught in the riptide of other peoples lives I don’t blame them…. Ā  Ā I blame myself I spent the majority of my life trying to be things I’m not But I’m off the ground now.. Ā  Ā this bird is in flight don’t…

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No Man’s Land..

The stark truth.. the women my age are either knitting or going to a book club.. the women I’m attracted to …. Ā I could be their father Welcome to No Man’s Land almost david

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Thinly Veiled….

I approached the direction of the van as just revisiting and remembering the events that took place here…… concerning two relationships leaving an A.A. meeting I inadvertently passed the home of a daughter of one of the participants….. thought about stopping but I know it would have been received poorly as still another futile attempt…

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Telling your heart…… No

The personal quest to unite with another is a treacherous course to maneuver One path leads to an overwhelming desire on one part…….yours Another path leads to an overwhelming desire on their part…. Not yours the elixir that has the right amount of fear and faith is a concoction that only the Angels can provide….…

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Consider

For a while I was afraid of the voices in my head I suppose that for some reason I was fearful because I alternatively went from listening and acting upon and / or repulsion from some of the chatter I have embraced the concept of lower and higher self my fears and lack of understanding…

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