I am painfully aware that I do not excel

at the skill of learning to let things go

my need to be heard was suppressed for a time

now I practice it to a fault

I am in the midst of a personal revolution

and often the correction can be as problematic as the situation we left

I long to find the center…..  not to left and not to right

not to high and not to low

My defense mechanisms are ready and loaded and the mere possibility of confrontation has my finger on the trigger

I put myself in this position because I allowed myself to be used….and when I had enough I exploded and the remnants are still smoldering

so

I ask myself these hard questions……so others won’t have to

Guilty as charged…….. the sentence will be imposed after a probation period is analyzed

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