From 19 to 30 you adopted me as your little brother

being around you made me feel so special…..you were a looker and I was passable….. I always wanted more than that but you knew how to be honest with me….and let me down easy

we had been out drinking one evening and I asked you to marry me ……I was playfully serious and quick wit that you were you said……” you know I love you don’t you?…… but you aren’t good looking enough to be in our family”………..

I punched you in the arm and laughed but I was crushed

you were so beautiful that you got the looks wherever we went and I trotted along proud to be a participant

there are no words to describe the impact you had on me and the boost you gave to my self confidence

You always called me by my last name and the rest of the family did likewise

you were the sister I never had……you taught me about women and you said….” I know you won’t do half of what I’m telling you and as soon as them women see what a big heart ❤️ you have some of them are going to run you ragged…..so be prepared for that to be broken and remember at least some of what I told you”…….I try Joan but I’m not that good at it

I held you picture at the wake and I wanted to take it …… but maybe at the service I’ll do it anyway…..

 

it’s 2am…and I just don’t want to believe you’re gone

then your spirit says…..”naw Orcutt….I’m right here in your heart ❤️

Crying pretty good now I know you’re in heaven and I know you have made a host of friends and they think you’re a little crude at times….. but even death couldn’t take life out of you

God liked me pretty good because he put you in my life…….and I will always feel honored for having that privilege……..

forgotten…..never…..and I am sure many more streams of tears will flow from these eyes when I think of you……

I am going to take the damn picture and I’m going to tell anyone that has a problem with it that you…….you said I could

and they won’t mess with you

you know I will always love you and your family

see you when I get there…..see you when I get there

 

Ttucro