please never take from me these fragile thoughts………………that leave me helpless ….back to the cross………………………for every indecision that has me turned and tossed………….has me crawling back to you……………………………

i could have learned long ago……… the wasted time before i go back to the Guide that loves me so……………but my humanity and fledgling faith sit and conjure outcomes that never occur………

perhaps there will come a time when crisis will be confined to matters of dire consequence………..until that stage i will continue the game of ”what will happen next”……..and lose the light from time to time………….until the confusion reaches the point of ”for heaven’s sake……………God is in charge”……………….

the built in ‘forgetter’…………………………..never breaks down