the ‘call of the wild’ almost killed me …………………it’s one thing to be called………it’s another to let that ”call”……………..control you……………………..

wide open is a hard way to live…………………..extraordinarly exhilarating and extraordinarily demeaning ……….because you often go against you better judgment……………..for the lure of the ‘call’………………………………………

it was a very difficult cycle to break………………………..justifying the lows…………..because of the highs……………………the changeover to responsible action was painfully dull for the longest time…………………………………..until i settled down enough to begin to extract immense pleasure in what had been previously perceived as rountine……………….it was only routine until i because aware of the magic and mystery of the world in and around me…………………..

i still hear the ‘call of the wild’………………….but i manage it…………….it no longer manages me