when we go to sleep everyone in our past……………and our future line up to remind us of their contributions………………………or display their wares for sale…………. bits, pieces, flashes of the past are offered to re-examine what was missed and misinterpreted…………………….. as we sit staring out the window…………….many pass by wondering if we recognize them………….often we do…………

some days all we can do is pray……………..can’t change anything and it won’t go away……………….so no need to ask ”why me”…………….better option is to hit your knees……. doesn’t mean you did anything wrong…………just a reminder that left on our own, life will come shake us and throw us in the thorns……………… so we are left…

if love isn’t present in my actions or words…………..matters not the correctness of my position………………………….it doesn’t matter………………… a bitter pill to swallow ……..i cannot come from a position of  ”rightness” void of love and be correct……………..ouch….. when iu am bludgeoning with the ”truth”……………there is no love present…………. for all purposes………………..i am wrong…….without love……………..wthout love their…

before i make a decision……………i set aside my mind……….and ask for guidance and direction………………..from my heart….. what i speak from my minds point of view……………fades soon after………….what i speak from my heart is engraved………………………. what i know pales to what i have felt…………the feeling is the message and it can only be given if the…

opinions aren’t needed more often then i would care to admit… few are waiting to hear my thoughts, but sometimes i slip… then the outcome is stepped on toes and bruised ego’s … opinions are rarely needed………..this much i know… haven’t always felt this way……………………………. but the long faces and the walk away’s, i cause…

we pass the torch…………..from boy to man…………..from girl to woman when we take responsibility for our life………………………….there is no one to curse nor blame the results will be because of beliefs embraced and choices made……………..i can look back and offer they did the best they could realizing there were many issues left unresolved and many…

in my world……………things get distorted and it is hard to make sense of things…….. in GOD’S world………….. there is a logic and orchestration of things i cannot see…….. in my world…….. people say and do things intentionally to hurt and punish me………. In GOD’S world these are hurting people that need forgivess, love and compassion…………

i’m going into the furnace, to separate the silver from the dross…….it’s obvious there are impurities that are keeping me away from the cross…………..that image i am drawn to and the price my Savior paid and i have made obstacles that get in my way………………. all are connected to a desire to have my way…………..fearful…

i can’t trust this human race, because they lie and try to hide their face…………..sometimes it is hard to find a trace………….of something forgotten called the ”truth”……………….. but discouraged and forlorn………………in the morning i hear the horn, calling me to pray…… in my time of solitude the message rings loud and true…….no matter what others…

how’s it going……over there……………up there………..? Ben told me you moved on and after we hung up i started thinking about you thought i would let you know you made an impression, congrats on leaving sober after everything we have been through that’s the goal…………..leaving sober i don’t say dying because that seems so final………….and i…