i hear your cries of anguish as you go about your day……..and i try to softly remind you…..these are results from decisions you have made………………at times i feel infected with your negativity and laments…………..i separate and find a place where i can pray and rest……………..

like a child getting ready to drink poison………………………….i step in and tell you to put down the phone,…………………….you know that i am serious by your face…….by my tone………….

”you are hell-bent on figuring out your problems……………but your mind borders on insane…..you continue to do the same things and expect things to change………….i have been trying to give you suggestions how to turn this nightmare off…………but you refuse to entertain that your habits have got you lost………………i didn’t want to preach…………………..but it is obvious that subtle reminders aren’t going to work…………….so if you want to leave this darkness……………………………you better find the Lord”………………………….

when you are ready come find me……………you know where i’ll be………..in a meeting…..

”yes you can”……………………………….i did