i met a woman today who said the only person she ever loved was her mother…….she had numerous relationships but avoided falling in love because love tangled up your head and heart and made things far to complicated…….

she was nice enough and attractive……..the longer we talked the colder i got and she began to remind me of an emotionless machine…………people, she said had a purpose and other than that purpose…..they were a burden………

she avoided ever having to endure the loss of love because she never went there…….i was amazed at how matter of fact she was about…….relationships and how to keep them from becoming to involved and to personal……………

i asked what she did when she needed to confide in someone……when things got askew……she said that rarely happened because her focus was totally on self-fulfillment……and if necessary she checked her horoscope……..and laughed

i said it was an interesting conversation and we parted ways and i felt grateful to know what love was and wasn’t…………..one can only get what you are able to give…….the overwhelming feeling to be in love………..and the devastation of the loss of love……..

the most beautiful thing is that human experience and also the worst……..but it wouldn’t be a life worth living without them……..i wonder if she has to oil herself….

machine