after several attempts to stem the flow reality stepped in and i had to let go curious thing that allowed me to finally see you would rather bleed……………………… i have seen and heard of some incredible things that people will do to keep the attention on themselves but wasn’t prepared for this…………… you started doing…

THIS PRAYER IS FOR THOSE WHO HAVE COURAGE AND TRUST IN THEIR CREATOR Dear Lord i come to Thee Humbly ask that You teach and guide me Show me the path You would have me take Give me strength and courage to follow that way When the terrain gets treacherous give me the trust to…

my concept of God goes something like this: i board a spacecraft and it is launched…….. we travel for the rest of our lives and we are still in Gods’ domain GOD IS ALL

mention the word ‘fixated’ and most respond with negative thoughts of being consumed by something or someone…………………….i understand that… however i can think of one exception……………only one……………and some would argue with this………………..fixated on a relationship with God………… that relationship if it is right doesn’t exclude the world around us rather embraces it……………………it however is viewed…

it is not possible for me to believe one could act arbitrary and not mirror what is within…………….without……….. would take a twisted man who could devise and practice a plan that would deviate…………from how he thinks to what is presented to the outside world…. most are not capable of such deception……………….and are fairly easy reads…..for…

not afraid what you might do or say…………………………..we’ve been through those types of days…………………but when i hear you brag about what you stole…………… i get afraid of me this pattern has got to end, this crazy game of sick ”pretend” and i hear you are at it again………not afraid of you…………. i get afraid of…

so many people had used you before and i cautioned you anyone vaguely representing integrity or honesty was so enticing to you i begged you to be cautious and to protect yourself, but you wanted to believe in someone so badly that you accepted some proof…. as enough i found you in the park twirling…

you won’t like what i suggest………….but when this started you already started to resist…………..and if you’re not willing to do something different…..you get what you get…………….same old thing……. it’s supposed to be uncomfortable………………i keep telling you……….because it’s something you don’t want to do …………………..if i wasn’t sure it would help, i wouldn’t suggest to you………………..bite…

while the purveyors are selling doom and gloom i found the spot i was looking for my experience has taught me that in the midst of a perceived calamity there is a tiny window that only a few can see……….through that window is a view and it will take you places that you never knew…………because…

when i stopped giving God the middle finger and took responsibility for the less than prodigious results my life had shown up to that point……….things started happening……………..a slow trickle and at times almost a flood…… when i accepted that my perceived ”victimization” was a result of my own doing………………my relationship changed from God being an…