i knew i had smelled that scent before as i walked along the trees

the cherry trees where in full bloom and that memory haunted me

we walked along the monuments and the distance between us grew

i think we knew it was over but we resisted what we knew

the feudal attempts to light a fire where the embers had turned dark and cold………………i remember the lyrics now…………….”nothing as cold as ashes after the fire is gone”…………………

both of us lacked the courage to cut the cord and let go…………we continued to torment each other with sad goodbyes and weak hello’s……………………

but i still find it baffling how a love could built so fast and then crumble with the weight of too many miles and too many trials that were impossible to resolve over the phone………………..

i walk along similar trees today and the memory was there and strong……………………but i no longer need the bottle or drugs to try and cover what was wrong…………………..

redolent of a time remembered……………. and glad it is be gone