when i seek to punish myself for going against what i already know……..after i have tormented myself………Jesus steps in to soften the blows……..

when i languish because i gave into my heart took my hands off the reins and let go…….i knew it would lead to confusion and dismay but i went against what i already know…………

as i passed the billboards of my responsibilities….. by the time we had crossed the meadows the horse was out of breath and i came down from the saddle and let him guide himself……………as we walked into the valley he turned to me and said……”i was born to run……and that’s what i do best…………sometimes that appropriate and sometimes it causes a mess………..that’s why you are here to help me control my pace, good of you to let me run……….but without your guidance………i would hurt myself………….so it is with your heart and soul you must constantly be on guard for without your constant attention they will run amuck……

God talks to me in different ways depending on how He can get my attention………..but he always finds a way to soften the blows and encourages me to use that energy to grow………