you have to start somewhere………………..and we don’t pick the spot…………………..we get to the realization there are many things we have dropped………………………….so we can’t go back and get them………………………but we can pause……………..and stop…………………inventory whom we are………………..and whom we are not……………so rather then condemn myself for not being all i should………………….you have to start somewhere………………………….today would be…

the mirror doesn’t lie, when i look me in the eye…………………..but i do…………locked in this distorted head are misconceptions i have fed…………………….that nibble on me constantly…………………….these intricate structures i have built will take years of intense scrutiny to demolish and deconstruct …………….and my goal at present is to build no more………..the games i have played…

looking back i think i can see……………..i have been formed and shaped by things that have confronted me…………………and as i take stock of what i am…………..and what i am not…………..my experiences are revisited like a leopard inspects his spots………….i have given up the descriptions of good and bad……………..happy, challenging, troubling or sad……………for they were all…

i have determined it is better to have command of a smaller vocabulary, then to let my vocabulary control me………………..better to be simple and clear than to offer colorful words that merely fill the air……….have never heard a complaint from a straightforward message conveyed…………………………….but after a wordy, detailed oration was relayed …………………have heard people ask…

i look into your faces and i see a slow turning reel………………reflecting on the day in progress and what it has in store……………………neither hesitating or pressing to enter in……………….taking the time to reflect on where, you have already been…………..i see the wisdom in taking time as opposed to time taking you…………… as i grow closer…

I have a friend that is anomaly because she is a surprise to me……………..i know of but a few that approach life with near the same enthusiasm or irreverence…………engaging, playful, attentive…………….ready to pounce on any kernel of information that peaks her interest……………………….a walking pinata that if you tap will explode with wonder and joyful living………………………i…

i would like to comfort you and fill that space you lost………………but i am just an old friend and i’m not capable of that……………………i know you have a faith, and i know you question the point…………………..of losing that one person who got who you are………….a few words of sympathy and feeble attempts to show i…

i saw  Buddha on a scooter and he stopped and we had a chat…………….he said, ”i’m really not that smart…….. i’m just good at recognizing where i’m at……………. appreciating what is………. instead of what i project……..hop on i’ll show you what i mean……” so i hopped on board…….. what a load…… the poor scooter coughed…

take away my fears and complaints………………..i wouldn’t have a lot to say……..when the judgment and lies stop and i accept that all of us are lacking in spots………..i wouldn’t have a lot to say………..let me afford you,…………the same understanding and grace i expect from you…………….i wouldn’t have a lot to say…………so let’s end on a…

i must admit…………i laugh a bit when i inspect my perception……………………given just a bit of time…………………i am apt to remind………………….myself of what a jaded view i have of the world……………so my best bet is to refrain before i interject logic as flimsy as the mind that generates it………………………i am aware of lacking all the squares…