i may apologize and berate myself and hang my head and sigh……..but the truth of the matter is….until it hurts me……………..i won’t change………..until there is no one else to blame and no other assailants are in view………it may bother me my actions, what i say and do but until it bothers me i don’t really care about you………..not very pretty and it’s humbling to say, but take your hurt feelings and tears and sit in the corner, just get out of the way………………….but i’m a little lonely and no one is around…….and then it hits me and i go back over traveled ground……..i see a pattern and commit to a fix…….selfish and self-centered, just the way i am and i won’t change…………… until me hurts me