Archive for October 2019
METANOIA
I drop the brick from my hand, deciding to change my plans, and after a God given reprieve, i drop to my knees why do i insist on doing this, trying to appease you when it is useless and i won’t accept the fact…………that you are this………..and i am that………….and that fact will remain as…
Read Moregoing against myself
the battle no longer is with you, the struggle is with me, and as i have a mind to ask, is this action right for me……..asking the question is noble indeed but far from following through………….for asking the questions is only as good as my willingness to do. so all the soul searching in the…
Read Morebarter
i know there are things that are good for me, things my Lord likes me to do………….but lazy as i often am………..very little is all i do i know He watches over me and often shakes his head……..a defiant child still am i in spite of all He has done…… many times i have ignored…
Read Moreno longer a stranger to myself
seems an unusual statement to make but i bet i’m not the only one who was afraid…………..to look below the surface and question what made me tick on a regular basis if you aren’t examining your action’s and motivations then what are you doing, perfect or just totally self-consumed.………..i have to monitor my behavior and…
Read Morebasic is best
the longer i adventure i am clearly able to see……. the simpler i can keep things the better off i’ll be…… i am mesmerized by the simple working of a tool and how much can be accomplished, with a saw, hammer, nails and a rule….. while i can be impressed with all sorts of bells…
Read Morecapitulation
there will be no coup, no conflict, no more prolonged engagements, those battles are over and the fields are strewn with the remnants of those encounters. some wounds received as a consequence are still healing. there is an abundance of evidence that left to my own devices i am self-destructive…………………do i like admitting that, no………….but…
Read MoreNOW
now is the only place to be/ past is past/ the future i cannot see so i think the best place for me……..is now now doesn’t pretend or deceive my head, i do that playing make believe, what i would prefer is a waste of time, because now is all there ever was or will…
Read MoreDavid aka ”Gill”
i see you standing on the hill looking out over the land the Goliath that you face is coming close at hand i do not see you tremble and a smile adorns your face some would say a facade, not so in your case i see you carefully select the stone you intend to launch,…
Read Moremine
”mine” as in ownership is a dangerous thing/ denotes we possess something that we aim to keep……..the problem with this thinking it restricts the flow of accepting and giving and letting things go everyone is different but many would agree things kept to myself quickly lose interest to me………for the element of sharing of what…
Read MoreBIGGGGGGG and small
the coolest thing about the GOD i know, He can be BIG, and yet He can be so small. when i have a daunting task at hand, i pray hard and i feel His large hands, and when i and tired and i need a friend, He sits on the window sill and listens to…
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