I KEEP GOING BACK TO THINGS THAT ATTACK THE PERSON I WOULD LIKE TO BE/ FREE FROM THE PULL OF HABITS THAT RULE MY LIFE AND PERSONALITY/ SO I HAVE MANAGED TO DELETE THE ONES THAT WOULD DELETE MY EXISTENCE ON THIS PLANE TO SLOW AND STEADY DIMINISHING OF MY HEALTH AND SELF RESPECT THROUGH HABITS THAT WILL INSTEAD KILL ME IN INCREMENTS……………SLOWING THE DEATH SENTENCE

SO TO BE PLAIN WE ARE ADDRESSING EATING AND THE OCCASIONAL CIGAR………….NOT SO BAD YOU SAY……………..EXCEPT THEY BOTH MAKE ME FEEL MISERABLE AND DEJECTED……………….THAT IS REASON ENOUGH TO SEEK CHANGE

I LESSEN THE EVIL IN MY LIFE ONLY TO FIND THAT ANY AMOUNT HAS THE SAME EFFECT…………………………….SOUL DEPLETION

RELIEF WILL ONLY BE ACHIEVED THROUGH SURRENDER……….AT LEAST I HAVE LEARNED THAT THROUGH THIS JOURNEY