i ask earnestly if You would look after me

then when the slightest ripple stirs the boat

i begin to pray that it will float

You have accomplished great things in my life

showed when to walk, and when to fight

somehow everything seems to work our right

yet i’m still full of fear

i know You feel compassion for me and also sad that i cannot see

i am so close to the victory, freedom from the bondage of self

You have walked with me through the valley, held me through the flood and i still question that You will do what You said You would

i know i disappoint You, because i disappoint me

i will take the skeletons out and place them in the can and try not to add anymore but You know how fragile i am

i will keep learning and looking inside of me because i want to be the best partner that i can possibly be

please forgive me