i woke up at 49, didn’t look like the kool-aid was going to work, another failure

and decided if i wasn ‘t going to die, i didn’t want to live the life i was living

with the skills and temperament of a 20 year old, i embarked on a sobering journey

to uncover and discover the man behind the mirror

amazingly found things i really liked, and many things i didn’t

agonized for a period over perceived ”lost time” until a fellow traveler

explained it had to go down the way it went

so i stopped crying over spilt milk, cleaned up the mess

and got comfortable with my shortcomings allowing me to benefit from those experiences

they have become more precious to me than gold

they are the essence of this man and his journey to nirvana

getting closer everyday

there are many stages to heaven……………….why wait till you die