having to admit that all my attempts at modification of your behavior have had the similar result of taking a thimble of water from the ocean

in my mind i sit on he beach and reflect on how limited my power was within myself for so many years, and yet i tease myself with the notion that you would heed my attempts to convince your way was wrong and i knew a better way

i have made as much impact as blowing on a leaf 5 feet away…….it barely moved

so the reckoning is that you are going to do what you do until you choose to do otherwise and i can either accept that or not

i have often considered ”acceptance” as a limitation of choices, but now i know better

i am not locked into any reaction, i can move on and continue my spiritual journey or i can stay and continue that journey, just depends on what i am willing to accept.

the truth used to box me in and now the truth is reality, what i want to do with it is my choice

therein lies the ”reckoning”